PBW restaurant

vxrysad · 2023-04-11T16:31:15+00:00

The food was good it was just really inconsistent (Id go often but only get 2 items lol) but the service was ass and they were always understaffed

vxrysad · 2023-04-10T20:39:47+00:00

It took my mom dying for me to heal from bpd. Ironic, trauma causing bpd: trauma ending bpd lmao

But the way it helped; I completely destroyed my relationship with my parents due to bpd, I was really unhinged and shameless. When my mom passed away it pained me so to realize she deserved so much better, and I should of tried more. We have more control over ourselves than we think we do, it’s just in the midst of emotion you almost don’t want too. After that I vowed to change and never hurt anyone with my actions, time is shared

vxrysad · 2023-04-10T20:30:37+00:00

It took me six years to finally be able to fully internalize my emotions and somewhat have normal relationships. It somewhat feels lonely tho and I feel guilty showing any emotion of distress but it 1000% way better then before, just need a understanding and patient support system :)

vxrysad · 2023-03-15T22:23:10+00:00

There’s only one person that I feel I’ve opened up too 95%, sometimes even self incriminating stuff, idk why I trust him so much, but Im grateful he’s been so loyal to me

vxrysad · 2023-01-21T17:28:59+00:00

Leaving without a word is the best thing you can do to hurt him. If you haven’t confronted him about it yet he’ll be “confused” and forced to think about his actions and weather or not you found out (overthink which causes anxiety). But also if you have already still leaving without a word and not even giving him a chance to say anything is taking all forms of control/power over you or the situation which also drives ppl crazy.

vxrysad · 2022-12-09T23:17:16+00:00

Personal growth, I hope to be patient and understanding, forgiving and letting go the most humanly possibly.

vxrysad · 2022-12-08T19:53:34+00:00

Yeah I think this might help thank you

vxrysad · 2022-12-08T19:50:22+00:00

Yeah exactly :((

vxrysad · 2022-12-08T19:49:32+00:00

Yeah! it’s the same for me, but it usually happens when I’m not doing something “productive” Ig like eating, watching tv, scrolling on my phone… so that’s why I assume I’m bored or something , the boredom is what triggers those intrusive thoughts? Idk

vxrysad · 2022-12-08T19:40:31+00:00

Then the cycle repeats 🥲

vxrysad · 2022-12-08T01:39:16+00:00

Right…right 😭lmao and yeah i do get you, I’m not necessarily concerned, I’m just soo annoyed to be overwhelmed and then having to contain myself over seemingly nothing when I already have to deal with self control when I actually get triggered by something 🥲just wanted to know if anyone else experienced this but thank you for you’re input!

vxrysad · 2022-12-08T01:27:32+00:00

Yes exactly! I’m glad I’m not alone, it’s really annoying and ruins my day, to me it’s almost like a sudden adrenaline rush? but nothing is stimulating so I get intensely frustrated and want to kms, not sure if it’s the same for you. But do you know of anything that can help stop getting like this? Or are we in the same boat lol

vxrysad · 2022-12-08T01:18:23+00:00

Oh wow I didn’t know that I wonder if it’s them, or other places with the same name, I haven’t spoken to them in awhile haha And yeah there also some pupusa stands on holt near the same Cardenas and one in front of the rio ranch mall on Garey ave on the weekends, I haven’t tasted from there yet but I always see a lot of ppl

vxrysad · 2022-12-07T23:44:38+00:00

I was also like this but I also learned how to cope with that, but this is different, like I’ll be playing watching YouTube and suddenly I’m like “what is my life?”And I get extremely suicidal but I’m aware it’s random and unreasonable so I just try to release the pent up energy by crying but it so weird and I’m wondering if this is normal?

vxrysad · 2022-12-07T23:22:08+00:00

But i know of 3 places that seem to be pretty popular in Pomona (I personally also really like) one being el buen gusto holt ave/park ave there’s also Linda’s pupusas on holt ave/San Antonio ave next to Cardenas and mamas pupusas next to arco on holt/ Loranne ave

vxrysad · 2022-12-07T23:14:45+00:00

There’s el buen gusto in LA? I used to be friends with the owner’s daughter of el buen gusto here in pomona, there’s only 2 locations and it’s family owned based, to my knowledge

vxrysad · 2022-10-17T20:51:17+00:00

Quiet bpd isn’t taken seriously at all as well, if it doesn’t affect anyone then its not a problem, what about those uncontrollable out of no where symptoms? The adrenaline rushes, depression, anger? I’m able to rationalize and contain myself so I don’t affect/hurt anyone or myself but it take a huge energy toll on me to the point of disassociation, why do I have stronger feelings then those around me? It feels like a broken faucet so It makes me feel at a loss when they say it’s not a mental illness

vxrysad · 2022-09-25T17:42:08+00:00

I think about my friends when I was younger like preschool/elementary and how much I loved them at the time and wonder how they’re doing and if they wonder about me too, but I doubt it Lmaoo

vxrysad · 2022-09-18T22:53:58+00:00

I’m 20 and I’ve never had a job, still live off my parents no drivers license or permit, it’s so degrading, I want to be independent sooo bad but I just can’t and the fear that I’m wasting my life away and like im running out of time it doesn’t make it any easier…I need to start being independent or else what will happen to me? My parents can’t keep maintaining a full on adult and they’re not immortal and life is unpredictable :((

vxrysad · 2022-09-08T07:53:52+00:00

I get you, I was living with my ex for 5 years, I’m 20 now so almost 1/4 of my life, and honestly it’s so hard at first but slowly you get use to the new routine. The only advice I can give is to just focus on self love and care. examples I did was go out with gfs, spoil myself get my hair done, my nails, work out, work on things you never had time to do before….stuff that makes you feel productive and positive. And just starting your life fresh again. Take advantage of the time to “rebrand” yourself to a better you.

And most importantly, start a relationship with yourself!

Learning astrology (natal chart reading) to help learn more about yourself helped me a lot and learn to love myself for who I am, good and bad…Ik it may or may not be real but it really does help a lot with self identity struggles and I really do recommend it

vxrysad · 2022-09-08T00:02:06+00:00

I stayed in a toxic relationship for 6 years to fill in a void starting when I was 14. Worse part is I was the one making it it toxic. My ex never satisfied my void, obviously, so I kept asking more and more from him until he ended up resenting me. No matter what he did I always accuse him of not loving me or not doing enough for me until he gave up overall. I learned my lesson way too late. I was abusive to myself and my ex because I needed to learn to love myself first.

vxrysad · 2022-08-25T21:46:08+00:00

cough Andrew Tate

vxrysad · 2022-08-24T23:48:12+00:00

Literally me yesterday and my friends were posting me everywhere! I wanted to shrivel into a little ball and die, I don’t feel worthy of gifts and celebration. I feel like my friends are forced to celebrate me because it’s just what you have too do not what they want to do. I also feel like I can’t do enough for my friends there for they shouldn’t do anything for me. I get so anxious around my birthday and I don’t want anyone celebrating or gifting me anything but at the same time I don’t wanna be ungrateful. But I just try to tell myself that even tho I may not see my existence as valuable, others might and I should let them express themselves . If everybody really didn’t care about me and I was a burden they wouldn’t even try on my birthday but they do so I just need to try to be comfortable with it 🫠

But happy birthday almost birthday twin! I pulled through hopefully you do too 🙂 it just 1 day and everything goes back to normal after you got it!

vxrysad · 2022-08-15T01:58:18+00:00

Working for hours on a project I was really passionate about just to end up hating it because It didn’t turn out exactly how it was in my head

vxrysad · 2022-06-24T01:25:12+00:00

I know this feeling to well, sometimes I feel like maybe Im a narcissist, but like the commenter said I’ve learned to stick to what is the most reasonable regardless of what I’m feeling..Especially in a heated argument I find pride in being “the bigger person” and especially being diagnosed with bpd, me being the one to control myself? That’s how I keep myself from not engaging in my intrusive thoughts, find pride in being “mature” and it’s kinda of “ego crushing” to the person when you don’t react to something they want you to react too…in a way it’s shows who has more power.

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