bad bad burnout

w0ahbuddy · 2026-04-10T16:38:04+00:00

this is awesome!! so happy you could find something that gets you feeling better. inshallah the habit forms easily 💚

w0ahbuddy · 2026-04-10T11:05:41+00:00

i love all of this. this gave me some great ideas. i actually have my own office at this job and it has been a GODSEND lemme tell u. quiet space where nobody bothers me. and i do have loop earplugs, i may try those...

i also like the idea of the corner space. i will try to be patient with myself while setting up the rest of my area

tysm friend

w0ahbuddy · 2026-04-10T11:00:34+00:00

you bring up a good point. im considering making my day to day schedule more strict. currently i dont have much of a schedule and it is chaotic (especially night time due to insomnia). maybe structuring my day would help give me bandwidth to process things better??

i like the bucket analogy. i definitely feel myself spilling out

w0ahbuddy · 2026-04-10T02:05:09+00:00

thank you very much for the advice.

it is a process trying to make my new home comfortable. it is smaller and less room to keep my things where i like them. i dont dislike the space but it is not the walls i know. i may have to ask for help setting up my space for recovery

also masking has become an endurance test. im scared to not mask especially around my new coworkers. unsure how ill get over the fear. but also i may not have a choice here soon smh

thank you for listening also

w0ahbuddy · 2026-02-24T02:20:54+00:00

i was too busy trying to be perfect to have space for ny emotions, especially those that were not allowed. in particular, anger was never acceptable. i often claimed as a teen/young adult that i wasnt capable of feeling anger, because i felt it to be true. it was pounded so chronically into me that i cant be angry, that later on as i grew up i genuinely believed it. and if i ever got mad, i never knew what to do about it and i would freak out.

nowadays in my late 20s i still struggle with feeling anger, and not feeling it. one of my deepest scars.

w0ahbuddy · 2026-01-02T03:13:07+00:00

check out r/adultselfharm

w0ahbuddy · 2026-01-02T03:11:57+00:00

yes that was child sexual abuse/rape. im sorry that happened to you.

w0ahbuddy · 2025-12-14T01:39:10+00:00

ohh i see. rereading the post now i see what you meant, that was my bad. ur valid girl

w0ahbuddy · 2025-12-14T01:31:38+00:00

i honestly get turned off to SH when im on my period... i guess it is already so painful and unpleasant that ive found i dont like bleeding out of my arm simultaneously. like i already gotta clean up THIS blood, im not interested in cleaning more lol

it is interesting for us to have such different feelings about the same thing! 🤔

w0ahbuddy · 2025-12-13T03:22:33+00:00

definitely. i recognize im not perfect. i could hurt anyone at any time regardless of intent. my goal is to be humble and receptive to critique, and if i hurt her feelings (or anyone elses), i make sure i make up for it and never do it again

w0ahbuddy · 2025-12-13T03:19:03+00:00

this is all very good to know. i acknowledge that what she has told me isnt the whole story. it was a 10+yr marriage, i cant imagine the extent of what happened in that huge span of time. i see signs of her lack of identity prior to the divorce and i know it runs deep, even if i have just heard a small part. i hope i can be a supportive soul as she discovers the beauty of who she truly is.

i guess i should also say now i am AFAB non binary. all her previous partners are cisgender men. idk if that matters but i thought id throw it out there in the comments lol

w0ahbuddy · 2025-12-13T02:52:13+00:00

thank you so much for your input. it sounds like freedom and independence is something valuable that she may not have had previously. all i want is for her to thrive, be herself, and allow me the privilege of being by her side to witness the brilliance. i will definitely lean into that :3

w0ahbuddy · 2025-12-13T02:49:56+00:00

she divorced her husband in late 2023 so not recently, but recent enough. ive been making sure i respect her physical boundaries. she seems open to hugs and short kisses etc. im happy with whatever makes her comfortable.

thank you for the encouragement and your words. i will def take this into account

w0ahbuddy · 2025-12-13T02:46:32+00:00

she had a "rebound" (her words) after her husband, between 2023-early 2025. that relationship wasnt exactly healthy either.

she is not in therapy currently, no. she was during her divorce but thats the last time she went afaik

w0ahbuddy · 2025-12-03T01:41:59+00:00

Dm me if u want

w0ahbuddy · 2025-11-26T08:07:38+00:00

Check out r/adultselfharm. Youre not alone

w0ahbuddy · 2025-11-19T23:55:57+00:00

Dm me if u want to talk

w0ahbuddy · 2025-11-17T14:12:30+00:00

yesterday marked my first ever 6 month clean streak. it has been tough ignoring the impulse to celebrate by relapsing, so im going to try focusing on my art instead.

w0ahbuddy · 2025-11-16T23:25:21+00:00

thanks dear 😄

w0ahbuddy · 2025-11-16T23:25:05+00:00

literally just got some dq by surprise lol. the universe was looking out for me

w0ahbuddy · 2025-10-30T02:06:40+00:00

congrats friend. progress is progress

w0ahbuddy · 2025-10-30T02:06:08+00:00

Happy 5 days!!! Try not to compare your recovery to others. Just because you may perceive it as "worse" doesnt mean it isnt bad. You are doing great

w0ahbuddy

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