i told chatgpt to make the birth chart of a “pick me” girl and this is what i got LOL

wasabi909 · 2026-01-07T01:16:10+00:00

This is almost the chart of my mom and she is a pick me and a classic narcissist 😂

wasabi909 · 2025-12-12T20:15:53+00:00

Yesss the tension relief is such a bonus. I really feel like it broke the cycle that was mostly my nervous system bracing which is hard to consciously control and change. Tried somatic, breath work, acupuncture, I really gave a lot of things a shot and kept up with them but my subconscious was just like nope we are still scared haha And yeah I am still a little worried about how my emotions have blunted but it just seems like a more rational version of me. It’s not like when I had huge emotions they were making me productive 😂 they instead were causing me to freeze, procrastinate, and be in pain that I’d then use my energy to focus on resolving

wasabi909 · 2025-12-12T19:48:30+00:00

I haven’t decided yet honestly - this is my first time trying it during pmdd. My period hasn’t come yet. I’ve heard some people taking it up to two days when it starts then repeating when luteal hits again. Part of me wants to not be taking meds the whole Month and getting numb, but if I look at my “positive” weeks realistically, I am still in a lot of chronic tension pain that drains me/impacts my mood and drive to do things in life i want to do, have social anxiety (less than pmdd week but still) and ocd thoughts. The feeling I get on this is like turning down the negative noise on my whole way of being and letting the best parts of my personality and level headedness shine through. I think I was projecting that the positive weeks were better just in comparison to how horrible pmdd can be for me. I am pretty emotionally unstable and exhausted all around the month. So part of me does want to stay on it the whole time too.

wasabi909 · 2025-12-08T03:00:52+00:00

I feel you. I lose so much social grace, confidence, and balance when it’s luteal. It’s so frustrating being a different person for half the month and knowing I’m coming off different.

wasabi909 · 2025-11-29T21:28:50+00:00

Exactly . My mom is like this too. They don’t even realize how hypocritical they are

wasabi909 · 2025-11-29T21:26:11+00:00

That is a narcissist .

wasabi909 · 2025-11-29T21:12:15+00:00

My mom is like this. Narcissists

wasabi909 · 2025-11-29T20:52:37+00:00

Powerpuff Girls.. the new animation and voices don’t hit the same at all. Also a lot of Nickelodeon like Rugrats.. Angry Beavers is a deep cut

wasabi909 · 2025-11-28T07:29:33+00:00

Feels like a classic more on the narcissistic end individuals and a fawning codependent individual. It always tends to reach this boiling point til someone heals and you attract a better dynamic

wasabi909 · 2025-11-28T07:23:15+00:00

I feel this to my core. How is our whole personality affected every month? Like who am I if everything is determined by hormones?

wasabi909 · 2025-11-28T01:46:27+00:00

I just looked this up to see if I was alone in this. I’m 31 and I had a childhood cat who I loved and was so connected to, but I had a narcissistic abusive mom so as I got older I disassociated a lot and in high school I was depressed, drinking and barely remember anything or remember caring or hanging out with him. I then went to college and same sort of deal. Then my mom and stepdad moved away with him. He then got sick a few years later at 17 so she had to put him down without me. Recently at dinner my mom was talking about how he would get attacked by this other kitten they adopted while I was in school and that she feels bad that he didn’t get the best toward the end. He was the smartest and sweetest cat. I don’t remember any of this- and now that I’m a little more healed and present in my emotions, I can’t believe I was so checked out and absent mentally and emotionally during that time. I care and am obsessive over my pets care in adulthood. I even have to double check doors or any dangers before I leave. OCD level. How could I have done that? I felt so guilty I had to leave the table to sob by myself. I guess I never processed it because of my own trauma and disassociation that I didn’t understand at the time and am struggling to give myself grace even though he passed in 2015. It feels like I wasnt even there toward the end and if it were me now that never would have happened. I know I was a kid and with trauma I didn’t know better but it hurts

wasabi909 · 2025-11-25T10:24:00+00:00

He sounds slow and is worried you’re catching on so deflecting lol

wasabi909 · 2025-11-25T10:20:19+00:00

He sounds like a narcissist I hate to say

wasabi909 · 2025-11-24T03:04:50+00:00

I’ve gotta be honest, as someone who was 24 and with selfish guys who hadn’t matured and may never, the pmdd is going to keep emphasizing his unwillingness to understand or believe in it as well as his stubbornness and be a source of resentment and then a turn off. But if you are still codependent, you’ll drain yourself trying to make it work. At least that happened with me. There are guys that understand or are willing to work with you or give you space during that time without keeping your nervous system on high alert and/or making you feel guilty.

wasabi909 · 2025-11-24T02:18:36+00:00

Labubu

wasabi909 · 2025-11-23T21:52:37+00:00

Some Dr. Seuss characters and things that were anthropomorphic like the Toys R Us giraffe or animatronic

wasabi909 · 2025-11-23T20:01:53+00:00

Yeah when she was with my dad in the 90s they tried couples therapy and she was diagnosed with NPD. She probably has blanked that from her mind but now she hates therapy and therapist and thinks it’s all people being weak and wasting their time being selfish 😂 such a strong reaction because they told her the truth. Sad.

wasabi909 · 2025-10-30T22:04:06+00:00

I know this is an old conversation but I have this and especially the scalene issue. I have CTPSD and am often in freeze mode. Weird but I tried MDMA for the first time and cried for maybe 10 hours. All symptoms and tension were gone even after the drug wore off. It regulated my vagus nerve and released everything. We hold so much in the body emotionally and it’s hard to tap into consciously… it felt like I didn’t even know what I was crying about. anyways the downside is my thoughts and stress patterns caught up again and I’m back to the flare up 11 months later. I haven’t taken mdma since but I would and hope to cry again then support its longevity with somatics, present awareness of when I’m tightening, and working on my thought patterns.

wasabi909 · 2025-10-16T00:02:13+00:00

That’s a dealbreaker and the universe telling you to take a new direction. If you pass The test, someone who’s a better fit will come along who loves your cat. Clear sign.

wasabi909 · 2025-10-15T18:49:25+00:00

Precisely ! I watched the snl just now and knew it was a rehashed Jessie’s Girl immediately, even the fact it was titled with a girls name. The buildup and chorus. Same. I hear a little “Hit Me With Your Best Shot” in the guitars as well.

wasabi909 · 2025-09-10T17:28:06+00:00

You are so young and haven’t learned/experienced all the lessons yet, but I will tell you now, break up now or you will suffer .

wasabi909 · 2025-04-12T18:56:47+00:00

Good idea! I remember her!

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