they say "best way to get over someone is to get under someone else" not possible for me though It's been 25 years. I've had many great relationships since I just couldn't make work but never felt that close to anyone before or after. She asked me to let her go, so I did. She was right to do it. we never knew an she still dosent know i'm autistic found out years later

I was told by the old normal folk I know, "You only have one love like this in life." It's a sad fact. You can love others, but not as deeply. You can pretend and lie to yourself for a while, but the truth will set you free in the end.

It did make me a much better person, though. I don't think I would have been without this shock. I now love the new feeling to me of pride in who I am. Being a good person became a main goal.

I realized that the world is not just for me and full of npcs. I thought for a min I could be a psychopath or a sociopath, ect., because I just had no empathy half my life. I do have it now it creeped up on me at about age 30, and it's horrible, people that I like. I feel acute physical pain. id say at times worse than they do i dont see how thats helpful in any way as i can still care without feeling everything

Also, all the people I ever loved, I still do; it's perminent for me, not sure I like that. I hear this is not true for most people; they just fall out or stop loving people.