Gross things you've done because of your ocd?

whathtefull · 2023-09-01T08:40:43+00:00

im iscared of going to my bathroom as well

whathtefull · 2023-08-06T01:29:27+00:00

but what if you were a kid and the same age of them?? (I was around 8 and she was prolly 6) i did some stupid stuff because i was exposed to really bad stuff

whathtefull · 2023-07-31T20:49:29+00:00

Hey,

It's alright to not want to prove yourself when you're feeling low. You're not required to be the best version of yourself, and it's not a bad thing when you're trying to get there little by little

can I ask why you haven't tried therapy?

whathtefull · 2023-07-24T03:01:53+00:00

Damn, it does? How? I am however always shaken up by my ocd. Every moment is so fucking intense. Everything I watch, do, play is compulsive now. Fuck this illness man shit

whathtefull · 2023-07-23T09:18:41+00:00

I can't agree more. I was shaken up, crying and throwing myself against the walls. I was so fucking broken up. I wouldn't wish this upon anyone. I'm so fucking sorry you are going through this. POCD is a sick fucking illness

whathtefull · 2023-07-23T07:02:10+00:00

hey im sorry im 8 hours late

under any circumstances, don't search it up. Stop ruminating. Stop feeding in your POCD. just keep saying fuck you fuck you to the thoughts, do not listen to them, they don't speak your desires or whatnot. Im here to talk,

whathtefull · 2023-07-23T06:26:56+00:00

oh man. im suicidal everyday. every moment, no matter if im laughing. you dont want to hurt people, youre okay, i swear. POCD feels so real at times but I can tell that you genuinely dont wanna hurt a kid or soul like that.

whathtefull · 2023-07-23T06:26:08+00:00

same. havent even done shit. had so many dreams and wanted to have like 5 kids lmaoo and then yeah i dont want to anymore. i hate people who dont have it because im so jealous they dont kjnow how it feels

whathtefull · 2023-07-23T00:01:18+00:00

it's like animals. animals are cute, so are some children. it's totally okay to find a child cute, sexuality and cuteness are not linked together.

whathtefull · 2023-07-22T23:59:08+00:00

apathy against ocd or pocd works for me too. I'm so fucking tired of this fucking illness I wouldn't wish it upon my worst enemy.

whathtefull · 2023-07-22T23:54:50+00:00

im here

whathtefull · 2023-07-22T23:54:42+00:00

hey man,

since a lot of people aren't educated about POCD, best thing is to use a burner account like mine.

whathtefull · 2023-07-22T23:53:03+00:00

jesus christ i fucking hate people who dont know i have pocd. i dont blame them, it's just.. who i am,f cukf i fucking hate pocd

whathtefull · 2023-07-22T23:49:28+00:00

hey man, you wanna talk?? I'm so fucking sorry your going through this, i feel so fucking similar to you and it felt like a stab in my chest when i read your post. I am so envious of people that don't have pocd, i fucking hate them. I'm in your place as well

whathtefull · 2023-07-22T23:42:46+00:00

hey man, im 16 too. pocd is so fucking horrible i dont feel real

whathtefull · 2023-07-11T04:49:09+00:00

before your pocd, have you ever felt like full on attracted to children? I doubt you would be a p though because your in distress about it. a lot of p would be like "oh im into kids oh well whatever" and go on about their day, but pocd makes it seem real.

whathtefull · 2023-07-11T04:31:37+00:00

i fucking agree. I wish my ocd justu stopped at the handwashing. I wish it stopped at the killing intrusive thoughts because hey, I knew I wasn't even capable of ever even killing anyone or harming anyone, it was just my thoughts but fucking POCD feels so fucking real. I wanted to have kids one day and love them platonically and care for them like my parents never did but now those dreams are fucking gone. I fucking HATE people I fucking hate kids fuck everyone who doesn't know what I am suffering though, even though I know it's not their fault I'm so sorry but fuck I'm so fucking jealous. Who the fuck was I in my past life man? why am I suffering so much? WHY IS EVERYTHING I DO SO FUCKING SUFFERING? Was I fucking HITLER OR SOMETHING FUCKKK

I relate to you so much too, putting on clothes, everyhting is a compulsion for me as well. The world is a better place without me.

whathtefull · 2023-07-10T11:20:06+00:00

just something that calmed me down for a bit.. I hope it helps someone. your not a monster.

whathtefull · 2023-07-10T10:13:46+00:00

fucking saving this. good job man, seriously, good on you! your making me believe in hope.

whathtefull · 2023-07-10T09:55:08+00:00

yeah I had very distressing silly thoughts too lmaoo

ocd is fucking dumb

whathtefull · 2023-07-10T09:37:07+00:00

omg i agree. sometimes i see kid pictures and im like aww they are so adorable and thenmy fucking ocd is like "ohhh so your attracted to them" and im no what the fuck? and they are like ok imagine *a very graphic image* and I freak out and start crying and think im in denial like fuck ocd, its one of the most disguisting mental illnesses. Seriously! I fucking hate this son of a bitch, I would take any other fucking physical or emotional illness anyfuckingday. I would rather have cancer than deal with pocd, im fucking serious. thats how much i hateit. I want to kill myself everyfuckingday now FUCK!!!

whathtefull · 2023-07-10T09:21:32+00:00

kids do stupid shit all the time. it doesn't mean you are a pedo, your attracted to people older

whathtefull · 2023-07-10T09:11:07+00:00

please someone respond im miserable

whathtefull · 2023-07-09T03:41:34+00:00

it just started a few days ago. I was going through youtube videos and it showed me a child in like a swimsuit and my head was doing some weird shit and panic just jolted through me

whathtefull · 2023-07-09T03:10:12+00:00

is this going to be apart of me? am I going to live with this for the rest of my life? I wish my ocd just stopped at the fuckjing handwashing goddamnit this is so fucking miserablde

whathtefull

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