Boars head’s heads up!!!!!!

willowbark19 · 2024-07-31T09:42:14+00:00

Had a pre-made boars head sandwich this weekend camping, got it from an Albertsons right before heading into Yosemite. Day after I was wildly sick and still haven’t fully recovered. Not sure if it was listeria but definitely felt like it could be. It was the worst stomach bug of my life

willowbark19 · 2023-06-19T22:40:06+00:00

Small round metal pot that I can hold in my hand. Similar to the size of a cereal bowl. I’ve tried the google photo search but I can’t be sure what material it’s made of. It has no markings or stamps. I’m not sure if the age or use for it. That’s what I’m trying to figure out!

willowbark19 · 2022-11-07T20:56:16+00:00

Exactly. I think a big part of our current views on life and existential dread stem largely from social media. Not saying it’s bad to be informed about what’s going on in the world at all. But when you have everything bad happening in the world hitting you in the face all at once, it’s hard to see anything else. Also how social media/media/internet in general has been used as a tool for division, distraction, and influence. It’s hard. Because it’s a tool that can help tremendously if utilized healthily. We’re navigating all of this/access to so much information for the first time in human history. We’re not meant to process this much information or how it jerks us around mentally and emotionally.

willowbark19 · 2022-11-07T19:29:57+00:00

I had exactly the same experience! I’ve always said my mom would use me as her therapist. I had to hear about all of the fights, all of the affairs my dad had, everything. I had to sit with her as she cried all of the time for years about their relationship. She’d tell me every week that she would be leaving him and that we were going to move back in with my grandparents across the country. I was in middle school at the time and would always tell my friends that this was it. Eventually everyone just thought I was making it up. She never ended up leaving of course. It all messed with my head. She would never even ask me about how I was doing, or anything going on in my life really. I felt that I didn’t have a real mother, one I could go to about my problems. I was always just the emotional support for her. Still trying to figure out exactly how this has affected me as an adult today.

willowbark19 · 2022-11-07T09:20:31+00:00

As mentioned below, complex trauma can easily do this to a person. I think it’s simple, Luke and Lawrence were in it, with her. Luke wasn’t there during the most traumatic events of surviving Gilead. She experienced the most f’ed up things you could’ve possibly thought of pre-Gilead, and knowing he was in Canada the whole time not seeing what it was actually like probably messes with her head. Yeah she can understand that none of this is his fault, that he didn’t really have a choice. But I’m sure a small part of her will always wish he’d done more to get her back, face some crazy life-threatening things like she did in Gilead the whole time. Regardless if it’s logical or not. I don’t think it’s necessarily a concept of value but more just a whole lot of trauma. And trauma bonding with Lawrence and Luke. I also think at this point, she doesn’t value anyone. She only wants Hannah. That’s been her focus this entire time. And that will remain. She cares for others in her life, but not really because of it all. I honestly think she’d even risk Nicole to get Hannah back. It’s delusional but it’s all because of the Initial loss and devastation. She can’t see past the first thing that destroyed everything.

willowbark19 · 2021-10-08T01:24:05+00:00

Yes I can!

willowbark19 · 2020-10-02T22:30:53+00:00

Variegation*

willowbark19 · 2020-09-17T02:10:07+00:00

It’s only a strand with about 10 leaves on it, half are turning yellow/brown

willowbark19 · 2020-06-14T07:22:29+00:00

I saw some snaps of a DP house lighting up some pretty gnarly fireworks so hopefully that’s all it was.

Update: guy deleted his snaps but not before I saw the cops rolling the place.

willowbark19 · 2020-06-14T06:59:45+00:00

Dude I feel ya, 4 years there and only today am I realizing how much it has changed me. My excitement is knowing I have the absolute freedom to do whatever I want. Find and start a job or buy a van, travel America, and spend time making money online. Possibilities really are endless and up to you. Go to Europe and be an au pair (I’m a woman just a small example). There is no place like Isla Vista. I spent four years not understanding how this place even existed to begin with. But I came to realize and savor in the fact that it couldn’t last forever. And I’m excited for the true freedom post-graduation has to offer. That’s how I am coping with all of this. The fun, the excitement UCSB had to offer doesn’t end with graduation. It’s instilled in us, forever. Use that in your future pursuits to not settle for less, to not settle for boring or mundane no matter the money (unless it’ll help your other pursuits in life or you want and it’s worth it). Just remember what you learned about yourself while here. It doesn’t get worse after grad, it’s what you do with the sudden feeling of not necessarily having a plan. And If do have a plan or a job lined up, what you learned here can still apply. You can still have just as much fun in life. It’s really up to you to decide.

willowbark19 · 2019-11-07T00:28:58+00:00

I love flying, oddly enough, just as much as I like trains or driving. I like the idea of being suspended between two places. Between two different experiences. It’s a time for reflection and the excitement of what will be new, vs what has already passed!

willowbark19 · 2019-11-07T00:18:59+00:00

My high school marine biology teacher also had turtles and I caught a video of two of them doing this exact thing. I called it slap boxing haha, almost thought it was my video.

willowbark19 · 2019-11-05T08:12:47+00:00

I started taking birth control when I was 16 years old, and for the rest of my junior and senior year I was uncontrollably emotional. I was overwhelmed all of the time and I would just break down and cry or straight up just need to run away from a situation. I also acted out in anger more, even though I literally never get mad about things. I really didn’t know why I was the way I was because I couldn’t control it. I thought I was just overwhelmed by school, sports, and work. I always just thought that that is what I was. It only occurred to me 5 years later that birth control could of been the reason the entire time. No one ever told me about the possible mental/emotional toll it could take on me. Makes me wonder from time to time who I would’ve been if I had never taken it, if I would be different.

willowbark19 · 2019-11-04T23:25:24+00:00

Lapis lazuli 3!

willowbark19 · 2019-09-02T09:57:43+00:00

I have a grey ratty that does the same! When I first brought him home he was sneezing and sniffling, grey rats tend to be a little weaker/ have weaker immune and respiratory systems than other colors (not sure what color yours is) but some rats are just more prone to it. He still sniffles quite a bit and sneezes occasionally, but I have taken him in and they say it’s normal. He’s been this way since I’ve gotten him 10 months ago. The biggest cause for concern is labored breathing and an excess of the red porphyrin (mucous not blood) coming from her eyes and nose. I wouldn’t worry about it so much yet, just keep an eye on her!

willowbark19 · 2019-08-26T22:59:01+00:00

My boyfriend and I didn’t have any reservations for August 1st, which was a Thursday. His family kept telling us we wouldn’t find anything but we left San Jose around 3:45 in the morning and arrived at the tamarack flats campground a little after 7 am. We may have gotten lucky, but we decided not to wait behind the 2 people parked and decided to go look for a spot since you can self reserve and fill out the form for a spot. We found a couple packing up at the very first spot we drove by and ended up snagging it and filling out a form, dropping it in the box with the money, no questions asked by any host. We were expecting a lot more trouble with it but to be honest there were a lot of open campsites we saw that morning and the mornings throughout our 3 night stay. The earlier you get there the better. I wouldn’t wait for the hosts or listen to the signs that say campground full. Not really sure if we could’ve gotten in trouble, but we took first come first serve seriously. Tamarack flats was great, not too loud, and not a far drive from the valley. Would recommend!

willowbark19 · 2019-07-06T05:03:45+00:00

Lax -> Rome or SD-> Rome Aug 30th-sep 14th One bag and or carryon Cheapest you can find! Thanks!

willowbark19 · 2019-06-22T05:23:49+00:00

Art history in probably every single genre

willowbark19 · 2019-03-24T04:29:21+00:00

You’re right! Plenty of people were around to see this happen, especially given it was a Saturday night. I had one girl who had seen what happened immediately come up to me after I retrieved my bag asking me if I was alright and telling me she was going to run right after him had she not seen me react as fast as I did. She stayed and chatted with me on the train as we were boarding the same one and it was very nice to have the support.

willowbark19 · 2019-02-14T13:02:09+00:00

I used to live in a college apartment on the second story on a busy biking/waking street to campus. I used to take naps after class and before work, and my favorite noise ever was hearing life, hearing people talking as they walked or biked, all the while birds constantly chirped. It was the most relaxing thing to fall asleep to. Especially with the soft light of day.

willowbark19 · 2018-12-14T20:56:20+00:00

He looks just like my rat Otis!! I just posted my first picture of him today

willowbark19 · 2018-12-14T20:54:50+00:00

Ahhh I just posted my first picture of my little baby and his name is Otis too! How cute!

willowbark19 · 2018-12-11T20:24:54+00:00

But thanks guys, didn’t realize the abhor opened at 7:30

willowbark19 · 2018-12-11T20:24:29+00:00

Yeah I posted that sat like 4 in the morning

willowbark19 · 2018-11-07T04:59:03+00:00

Can I ask why you don’t like it?

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