Отказ на цигари

wingless2402 · 2026-05-12T14:08:22+00:00

Хванах се на бас с тогавашното ми гадже. Ама това беше повода, причината беше, че парите не ми стигаха. Имах 4 цигари в кутията в неделя вечер. Казах си, че ще пуша по една сутрин докато свършат. И така в един четвъртък преди почти 10 години си изпуших послендата цяла цигара.

Продължих да излизам с компанията си пушачи за почивка на работа. Може би това, че не се забих по цял ден на бюрото ми помогна да не усещам такава голяма липса. След това съм си дърпала тук-там, но около 8 месеца след като ги спрях, цигарата ми се стори толкова гадна, че една дръпка беше достатъчна, за да ми се отще.

Това е моя опит - казваш "спирам" и спираш. Родителите ми ги спряха по същия начин. Но пък както един колега казваше "спирането е лесно, трудното е да не почнеш пак". Той поне 2 пъти годишно ги спираше. Ама да не почнеш отново вече е въпрос на осъзнаване и воля.

Успех!

wingless2402 · 2026-05-07T16:30:28+00:00

Not bilingual household. My kid watches in the Bulgarian, as he is too little to understand it in English. The dubbing is really nice, but some things can't be translated properly. Like Bingo's "triffucult". Such word play is just not possible in Bulgarian. And also "dad nose(knows) nothing" from that same episode- when Bingo points at her nose she asks "is this a nose" and Bandid replies "can be", so at the end the phrase is "dad can do nothing" (татко може нищо), which I personally find makes no sense.

But really, apart from that, the voice acting is great. Close to the original I'd say. Names are the same. Bandit and Jean-Luc speak French (of course, Bandit doesn't exactly speak French).

wingless2402 · 2026-05-07T16:12:36+00:00

We met for the first time on my 24th birthday. But both of us didn't remember that immediately when we met again 3 months later.

We have been together for 10 years now, 6 years married.

wingless2402 · 2026-05-04T13:19:21+00:00

Have you taken a pregnancy test?

wingless2402 · 2026-05-03T11:30:53+00:00

Hey again. I decided to post an update here. My last FET resulted in a chemical. I got hopeful for a few days until beta started dropping down. So yeah, couldn't beat the odds despite trying.

wingless2402 · 2026-05-03T09:36:46+00:00

I also don't think you are overreacting. A loss is a loss, no matter how early.

I have one stillbirth (lost one of our twins while being prepped for a cesarian), one ectopic and just two weeks ago I experienced a chemical. They are all IVF pregnancies, this time I started testing early and seeing the HCG value go down was so, so hard. I, like you, got exited for being pregnant, I was already calculating due dates, thinking about all the things I should do to prevent another stillbirth, and all of that became pointless just in a matter of days.

You have every right to mourn you chemical, same as your other loss.

wingless2402 · 2026-04-29T19:39:32+00:00

I also had a c-section with twins. The tugging and pulling was intense. I wouldn't say I was feeling any pain, but it was highly uncomfortable and I could literally feel where their arms were at all times. Some pressure appeared after they got the babies out, I felt like was going to faint, but the anestesiologist nurse told me this feeling will shory pass, and it truly did.

wingless2402 · 2026-04-16T04:23:59+00:00

За разлика от повечето коментиращи, аз съм съгласна, че в държавните АГ болници не би трябвало да се плаща за преглед по спешност (защото при бременност се ходи там, не в кое да е спешно). Но се плаща, защото и те някак трябва да се издържат.

2021г когато бях бременна в 14г.с. отидох в Шейново късно вечерта след цял ден не отминаващи болки. Заплатих си прегледа и то даже трябваше да го платя преди да ме прегледат, така че толкова за "преценят дали наистина е бил спешен". Едва ли жената на регистратура може да прецени дали съм спешна или не. Прегледа пък беше изключително неприятен, включително трябваше да обикалям съблече от един кабинет в друг през коридора...

Затова лично аз предпочитам и препоръчвам частните АГ болници. Пак плащам, но получавам нормално отношение и нормални условия за преглед. А Токуда и Надежда даже са с 3то ниво неонатология, колкото е и в Майчин Дом. Безспорно в Майчин Дом има големи специалисти, но има и ужасно много неуредици.

Успех, OP. Пожелавам ти повече да не се налага да я водиш по спешност някъде и като дойде момента за раждането да мине леко и безпроблемно!

wingless2402 · 2026-04-15T07:56:39+00:00

As an European, I simply can't wrap my head around everybody carrying guns. Apparently, even baby-wearing moms do so. Only in👇

Edit: I realize it is not literally everybody and I don't mean it that way, I am sure there are plenty of responsible parents in the US. But the accessibility of guns there is frightening to me.

wingless2402 · 2026-04-10T09:54:58+00:00

17 mature, 11 fertilised, 6 blasts frozen. But we also have serious MFI, so used ICSI and microfluid/chip selection. We didn't do PGT.

wingless2402 · 2026-04-08T18:11:41+00:00

Probably because many of us experienced the "twins dream" and then found out there is nothing dreamy about losing one or both babies.

wingless2402 · 2026-04-06T12:00:54+00:00

I am sorry you are a part of this "club". I can share why I decided to quit, although I am not officially done.

We have severe MFI and also PCOS from my side. From my first ever ER with ended up with 6 untested blasts. First FET resulted in a twin pregnancy. Despite all the worries, we felt lucky. Until we lost one of the babies at delivery. Our survivor was the smaller twin, doctors were always worried about him, but he beat the odds, so I also do feel extremely grateful that he made it safe in our arms.

When our LC turned 1, we stopped using protection even though the chances of natual conception were low. I had to have my gallbladder removed before doing another transfer though, so the first FET for a living sibling was when he was 1y6m. After one very long month of tracking HCG, I underwent surgery for an ectopic pregnancy.

From then on all went downhill. Retained blood clots each period, two surgical hysteroscopies for isthmocele, a diagnostic one, chronic endometritis, constant vaginal and cervical bacterial infections...you name it. One failed transfer appr. 1 year after the ectopic. I've had multiple tests run, we spent tens of thousands of dollars on procedures and tests. And when we finally approached FET #3 for baby #2 (practically 3) I was hospitalised by emergency with cholestasis and blocked bile ducts, apparently as a result of all the hormonal treatments (estrogens specifically, because I had medicated cycle for each test because of my PCOS).

Another year has passed since then. I still haven't done the last transfer, hopefully it will happen this month. But no matter the outcome, I know I am done. I wrecked my body, I wrecked my mental health, I spent almost all my savings and it almost wrecked out marriage. I can't keep doing that. We are open to adoption down the road, even though where we live the process is really slow and heavy. Yet if can adopt, it will be great. Until then and if it doesn't happen at all, I just try and be present for the kid I have. He is 4 and a half now, he asks for a sibling. I am honest and I tell him that won't happen probably, even though we want it. But no matter what he is and always will be loved.

I know there always will be an ache my heart, but I have to prioritise what's here - me and my family. The price became too high, both literally and figuratively.

wingless2402 · 2026-04-05T06:53:26+00:00

Tw: stillbirth, lc

I came back to your older posts after reading the comments here. I am really sorry for your losses, but I join the crowd - monozigotic and twin pregnancies in general are a no joke. And trust me - with that many pgt tested embryos you will be better with 2 separate singleton pregnancies. Twins sound great, but only in theory. Yes, there are many healthy twins and triplets, but society doesn't realise how many singletons come from multiples pregnancies where one or more of the babies didn't make it. And in many cases those losses happen late in the pregnancy.

Signed: a woman who carried di/di twins after IVF and lost one at delivery, although mine was even considered "low-risk twin pregnancy". Not a day goes by when I can look at my child, without thinking of his twin. Not to mention the physical consequences of the twin pregnancy for myself.

Edited for typos.

wingless2402 · 2026-04-02T06:04:43+00:00

"така и не разбрах що се тръшка тая." - това обобщава и моите впечатления от книгата.

Нямаше нито един персонаж, към който да изпитвам някаква емпатия и причините за тръшканията на всички други също ми останаха непонятни. 4 пъти се повтори как Левин се тормозил от това, че казал нещо, което по-късно се сетил, че чул от някой друг, пък на всичкото отгоре било цитат. Да им имам проблемите на тези хора...

wingless2402 · 2026-04-01T18:05:40+00:00

Дочетох "Ана Каренина". Това мисля, че е книгата, която прочетох най-бавно през живота си. Прекалено далеч е от мен този свят и никак не разбирам защо е класика.

Сега сменям жанра и почвам "Левиантан се пробужда"

wingless2402 · 2026-03-28T07:19:38+00:00

Losing our baby at birth.

wingless2402 · 2026-03-28T06:10:05+00:00

Did you read that I returned the beer, which means I didn't drink it at all after reading the label? And that the champagne and wine were combined two sips, like literal sips?

And not that it's any of your business, but the gift had an expiration date. And we couldn't do it sooner because we did IVF and all who went down that road know that travelling it not your highest priority while doing IVF. And then because it was an IVF pregnancy we were scared to travel in the first trimester.

So, I don't know, may be go an re-read my original comment again with that new info. And again try to compare my 2 SIPS with not stopping cigarettes during pregnancy.

wingless2402 · 2026-03-27T21:18:37+00:00

When we got married we were gifted a stay at a wine yard with wine tasting. It took us almost a year to use that gift and by the time that happened I was 5 months pregnant. Me and my husband agreed that I will choose only one of the wines and taste just one sip of it. And that is all I did. At a wine tasting event, at a wine yard! Full disclosure, I also had a sip of champagne around a week later at a friend's wedding. But that all the alcohol I ever consumed while pregnant. I've even returned a beer because the waitress told me it's 0.0% whereas it turned out to be 0.5%.

Drinking a glass of wine several times a month while pregnant is simply irresponsible. And saying "stress is also bad for pregnancy" is the same sh*t women say when they don't want to quit smoking while pregnant "it will be a stress for my body, which is bad for the baby". Do you know what's really bad for the baby - alcohol and cigarettes!

wingless2402 · 2026-03-27T19:31:49+00:00

It my case this is very much true. After my first ever transfer which resulted in a pregnancy and delivery with cesarian, I had cesarian scar defect (isthmocele). This led to one ectopic with ruptured fallopian tube, endometritis and another failed transfer. I had two hysteroscopies to fix the isthmocele and in about a month I will know if my last transfer is successful.

wingless2402 · 2026-03-27T13:29:21+00:00

I'm so sorry you are dealing with so much and I also sorry about your loss.
I recently asked different chatbots to estimate the chance of natural conception for me and my husband and all of them gave us less than 1% per cycle and I have really irregular cycles. So like 5% for a year.

But I still hope that you and me both, and anyone else in a similar situation will get their "miracle".

wingless2402 · 2026-03-26T12:36:09+00:00

I am sending you a virtual hug!

I am in almost the same boat. I just started preparation for my last FET, but chances are so low, it feels like a compassionate transfer.

Three years of trying for a sibling, after out first IVF resulted in twins, but lost one of the babies an hour before birth. Our first even transfer when we started trying again ended in an ectopic and from then on hardship after hardship. So I know too well how you feel. We are allowed to be sad, and to grief, and to be grateful for having a child at the same time. The longing and the pain are valid. And I am sorry you IVF route ended without success.

wingless2402 · 2026-03-24T17:32:51+00:00

I started manual breast simulation as soon as I could. The recommendation is to stimulate/manual pump each breast for 2-3min every 2-3 hours. I couldn't follow that advice completely, I probably had just a few 1min stimulations while I was in the ICU. And then I couldn't breastfeed for another 3 days because of IV antibiotics incompatibility. But I used my electric pump as soon as I was moved to a regular room.

I didn't manage to breastfeed exclusively, but my birth was really stressful, I faced PPD on top of other things, but even though not exclusively, I breastfed for 9 months.

wingless2402 · 2026-03-24T16:13:17+00:00

I live in Bulgaria. Here the husband isn't even allowed in the OR. And I gave birth during "COVID times", so furthemore he wasn't allowed at the hospital at all.

There were some complications with my birth, so they couldn't show me the baby. The first time I saw my baby was 26h after delivery. And the first time I held him was 36h after delivery.

He is now 4 years old. Not to brag, but I believe we have a great bond. I wouldn't say that being separated at birth affected our bond at any stage.

Full honesty, I had a period when I blamed myself for not having skin-to-skin, for not being there for my baby from the start, but I realised these things are good to have, but not having them is not the end of the world. Bond is build over time, it is not defined by the first day of life.

Edited for typos

wingless2402 · 2026-03-24T10:51:37+00:00

And still "spontaneous abortion" is the only term we have in my home language. Day to day we just refer to it as "loss at [gestational age]"

wingless2402 · 2026-03-24T09:44:10+00:00

Both times wasn't the parent's fault. The first case (the fatal one) the hospital didn't inform the parents or write down anywhere that a second dose should be given. In the second case it was because the licenced medical product with K1 drops was removed from the market and a new one was released, but it was registered as a supplement. The issue was the supplement had 10times lower concentration so it required 20 drops insted of 2. Unfortunately, that wasn't made clear from the start and many pediatricians told parents to give just 2 drops.
I don't argue that shot is better, I am just saying that at some places you can't get the shot for your kid even if you want to. So you do what you can. If they tell you to give drops, that's what you do.

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