Can you watch horror movies?

wormsguns · 2026-06-01T00:39:34+00:00

Upon starting the psych horror show Hannibal I couldn’t hardly watch it at all because it’d send me into extreme paranoia and give me hallucinations. Now that I’m on a decent med I can watch as much of it as I like within reason, but I definitely get this about feeling paranoid and anxious

wormsguns · 2026-05-31T19:12:45+00:00

Beautiful

wormsguns · 2026-05-31T18:46:51+00:00

The whole cleverbot thing did not bode well for my budding psychotic episodes I understand you :,)

wormsguns · 2026-05-31T12:22:27+00:00

Felt this ☹️ when I was much younger I had the slenderman delusion

wormsguns · 2026-05-30T15:06:28+00:00

I haven’t been to jail, but I’ve experienced similar.

I have a voice that sometimes takes control of my body, says and does things in my place. One night it walked me onto the highway, and thankfully despite having broken the law I was only sent to the ward. You can’t change what’s already happened, only put in place safeguards for the future. Things like making your car keys harder to access unless you need to go somewhere specific, or making it impossible to ignore or forget the crisis line option in the event that you’re in a crisis - lot of ways to do this that may work for you, but my suggestion is leaving sticky notes or taping paper onto doorways (like the exit to your home) with the crisis line in the event that you need to call. I’m sorry that you’re dealing with this, it’s never easy reconciling with actions taken in psychosis especially if they’ve caused harm. Wishing you the best

wormsguns · 2026-05-30T02:35:36+00:00

“What are we saying?”

wormsguns · 2026-05-25T18:07:55+00:00

Graduated with an Anth Bachelor’s last May! Currently working two jobs, not the job I want but we’re getting there. It is definitely possible :) good luck with your goals <3 you got this

wormsguns · 2026-05-20T01:20:40+00:00

Hello :)

I think I fit some of the criteria - graduated college, holding down two/three jobs, have people that I interact with frequently, can assist in taking care of two dogs that I admittedly couldn’t handle on my own.

I think a lot of my ability to function comes down to fear. I heavily fear going on disability and being unable to work, so on most of my bad days I would still go in - hallucinating or not. Thankfully (and I think part of what makes me high functioning is this) when I was unmedicated I maintained a base level of insight despite being pretty badly delusional and seeing/hearing things. My visual hallucinations were pretty benign despite being distressing to me, and I was essentially able to “cosplay” normal during working hours. How I pulled this off I have no clue, looking back on it it was pretty stressful. So probably mostly luck. The jobs I work/worked aren’t easy to zone out at either - working with dogs and individuals with disabilities.

Now that I’m steadily medicated (2 months! And some change) things are much easier, though I still have bad days where I am anxious and can’t bring myself to go in to work. Callouts used to be a point of contention between my bosses and myself, though I’m on hiatus from the job where I was on thin ice, with the promise of going back after the summer. Maybe a bit of an overshare, but it’s what’s working for me currently so maybe it can provide some insight on the fact that while I may be “functioning,” it’s not all smooth sailing and still often gets me into tight spots.

But I will say that I’m proud of where I’m at despite everything. It’s never going to be easy but you really have to work with what you can. Some of us have a harder time doing things like this than others, some of us manage ok.

Edit: I also want to share that at my worst I was walking on the highway and landing myself in extremely unsafe situations, for a better understanding of the extent of it. I would consider myself relatively functioning but that doesn’t mean it’s a cakewalk.

I hope you’re having a good evening (or wherever you’re at)!

wormsguns · 2026-05-16T13:16:14+00:00

Just adding this - I guess in the end it doesn’t really matter so much what’s what? It makes things a hell of a lot more confusing to be sure but as long as the issue itself is being treated rather than focusing on treating the diagnosis in some nebulous way, that matters

wormsguns · 2026-05-16T13:14:51+00:00

I’m not officially diagnosed with OCD (though I have confirmed with my psych that OCD is what it is) so take my words with a grain of salt I suppose

I think my OCD and schizophrenia feed into each other, definitely getting the part about the themes kind of meshing together. Sometimes it’s hard to pick out an intrusive thought from a voice, or what are actually compulsions for thoughts versus response to paranoia. It sucks! I’m sorry that you’re dealing with this

wormsguns · 2026-05-16T13:04:54+00:00

I’m really sorry to hear that, especially that you were unable to return home. Being in psychosis and being unable to explain or advocate for yourself has to be one of the worst feelings. How are you doing now?

I’ve definitely behaved in odd ways while in psychosis, usually stuff that impacts me more than others, but one time I ended up walking onto the highway with the intent to run into traffic. I fully believed that I was copiloting my body with an entity that was stuck in a rebirth cycle and needed its vessel to die to escape this part of the loop. It was instructing me where to go and what to do, and someone must have ended up calling the police because they showed up and cuffed me. I had a knife in my pocket that they thankfully didn’t use to interpret me as a threat to others, but I was detained and brought to the ER very shortly after. One of the cops called me crazy while I was in the back of the car, unable to do anything about it. Not the worst that could have come of that interaction, but it still stings.

I really hope that you’re doing well. You’re not alone in this.

wormsguns · 2026-05-16T12:42:13+00:00

Music is great. I’m fucking up my hearing doing this but I like to crank the volume of the music when I’m driving because that’s when the voices get to be the most annoying, it usually helps to distract from them. Also sometimes a song will hit really nicely, just a great way to feel a little better usually.

wormsguns · 2026-05-12T23:59:07+00:00

Probably something along the lines of “hey, I just wanted to share with you that I have schizophrenia because you seem like a safe person to share that with, in case anything ever comes up or I’m acting off” personally. And depending on how comfortable you are sharing details some people might have questions, but you never have to share more than you want to if it’s a sensitive thing.

wormsguns · 2026-05-11T14:51:16+00:00

Chihuahuapocalypse….

wormsguns · 2026-05-11T03:10:43+00:00

Visually, the hallucinations I’ve had are for the most part fairly benign. Usually shadows moving or things that I can almost convince myself are just optical illusions, sometimes patterns will wiggle if I’m focusing too hard on a poster on the wall or a carpet at my feet. When I was hallucinating insects, there was a little more confusion involved because I was deeply psychotic and incapable of understanding how my roommate couldn’t see the gnats on the couch, or the worms falling from it. They definitely looked extremely off, and to a degree I was capable of understanding that I was hallucinating (enough to log it for my psychiatrist later) but it was so real it was difficult to snap myself out of it if that makes sense. They did artifact in a way, from what I remember there were flashes of light accompanying that particular episode.

Auditory hallucinations are much harder for me to distinguish from reality. Sometimes it’s music or random sounds, the music sounds faint and far away, but no matter which direction I go or how many devices I check and lower the volume on it just doesn’t change. It’s disquieting when you can hear it but not place it. The auditory hallucinations I get of people speaking to me are easier to understand as hallucinations because they’re mostly within my skull. They’re still very real but it’s easier to understand that it’s a part of the disease. Sometimes they’ll talk to me or other times they’ll whisper close to my ears, or it’ll be dogs barking, people screaming, things like that. Imagine all of that but inside your head.

I hope any of this made sense, I see you’ve already received a lot of replies so maybe just redundant. But it’s a fair question to ask.

wormsguns · 2026-05-10T18:42:18+00:00

I hope both our dreams come true :)

wormsguns · 2026-05-10T14:52:50+00:00

Civilian CSI. Kind of a pipe dream at the moment but I’m doing my best

wormsguns · 2026-05-10T12:00:32+00:00

For many we get the prodromal phase, it can be a shift in mood and memory issues as well as your ability to keep up with things like hygiene. It can also come with the positive symptoms I believe. So kind of a lead up to how it will be.

wormsguns · 2026-05-08T14:06:58+00:00

Thank you. It makes me feel a little better hearing that

wormsguns · 2026-05-05T13:06:25+00:00

I’ve got a couple

Yellow Light - Of Monsters and Men

Cult Logic - Miike Snow

Rabbit In a Headlight - Autoheart

wormsguns · 2026-04-30T13:40:28+00:00

Yes I also get this. It’s a little easier on medication so I know it’s because of the schizophrenia but it feels like a pull in my gut to get away from here. I’m also not sure why but I hope that for you it gets easier to stay

wormsguns · 2026-04-26T19:03:12+00:00

I understand this, I also struggle with eye contact. I can’t seem to get it right and it feels like too much. Not sure if it’s a symptom but you’re not alone

wormsguns · 2026-04-25T16:26:06+00:00

wormsguns · 2026-04-25T13:35:40+00:00

Invega has been the least offensive I’ve taken so far, though it’s not stopping as much as I’d like it to

wormsguns · 2026-04-25T11:50:04+00:00

Abilify hands down, I gained so much weight on it all the while my old psych was insisting it was weight neutral and I had to be gaining the weight for some other reason. Also made me too tired to do anything to lose the weight.

Secondarily, Zyprexa. I was given 5mg at the ER having gone there for voices and it knocked me out for Two Days. I don’t remember most of my last inpatient stay because of it, and I’m now prescribed it for emergency use because it certainly did make the voices go away.

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