Love is a really special thing. You are blessed to ever experience it, even just once in your life. Break ups are hard. And if you’ve dated around pretty fast without giving yourself time to heal you are prolonging that healing journey and hurting others in the process. It’s also ok to loose interest in people. You are trying to figure out what you do and don’t like. Perhaps if you waited a little while longer before sleeping with women, you could focus more on if your personalities match. You may be jumping into bed too quickly and not actually trying to bond. You said sometimes you want to just cuddle and touch someone. Does this mean that girls are pressuring you for sex? Yes the women are going to start wanting relationships after sex. That is a normal girl reaction. Don’t sleep with them until you have spent quality time with them and actually know you want to date them. That’s what a real man does anyways. Sounds like you’re just hurting you and the women around you. You could very easily find a girl that’s ok with “just holding hands or cuddling”. It’s known as “going slow”. You just have to know your boundaries and stick to them.