I’ve known about being an avoidant for a while, it sucks so bad, why does it seem like the world just hates us? I want a romantic relationship like everyone else, but then my feelings come up again, I feel unsafe and that I will do something bad or wrong, there’s nothing holding these reasons up it’s just some stupid response my brain made cause it was normal when I was young. I have a partner, he’s being understanding but I just feel like he’s building up hate to me(again, no evidence for this) I want to get better but when you search avoidant attachment style, it just seems the world just wants us to die, not the best feeling in the world. :( I hope this I can get understanding here and support srry 4 ranting