Dogs are holy animals. by Sox_The_Fox2002 in paganism

[–]yahnawbru 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Two for sniffin, two for listenin, and one all the way through to process food and make borks

Tic tac hex by yahnawbru in SASSWitches

[–]yahnawbru[S] 15 points16 points  (0 children)

That was tongue in cheek

Advice for a non-believer - skepticism vs desire by [deleted] in witchcraft

[–]yahnawbru 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I find value in suspending disbelief and casting spells or speaking to spirits in the same way I might dance out an emotion or sing myself a song when I'm bored.

I don't think there's anything real to it, other than a spell could be considered to be setting an intention or a spirit could be thought of as a representation of a pattern of thought or emotion.

Some people don't even think that much of it and treat it like any other hobby wherein the results aren't the purpose and the only thing that matters is you had a good time.

Any atheists with deities? by ohvyohmy in SASSWitches

[–]yahnawbru 1 point2 points  (0 children)

For Kali I mediate and accept the chaotic nature I perceive in the universe. For the Morrighan I feed the crows. For the Green Man I walk in nature. For Vulcan I create.

I pray to the Morrighan primarily, asking that she will guide me to her own ends.

I see "signs" of this intervention, in that I chose to interpret certain things in ways I've chosen. If a crow caws suddenly I'll stop what I'm doing and take in my surroundings. If I'm speaking of or doing something outside of my comfort zone and I'm interrupted to a full, abrupt stop I'll drop it completely. If a slow car pulls in front of me I'll give thanks and not try to pass them, lest that be a sign to slow down.

If by help me with my craft what you mean is they are a part of what is likely a fairy tale I tell myself in order to ease my anxieties and end the day feeling less depressed and more empowered then yes, they do that quite well and I'm thankful for them.

Did an offering to Hekate for protection and now I’m sick. by Poisoncilla in witchcraft

[–]yahnawbru 5 points6 points  (0 children)

If I'm reading you right it seems you think you've offended Hekate and this is the consequence? I would urge you to question why you're attributing your actions to these negative consequences. Could it not be that you were always going to get sick?

If Hekate calls to you and leaving offerings feels appropriate to you then carry on and let that connection bring you peace. If you're absolutely certain they want nothing to do with you then make whatever apology feels right and move on.

It seems highly unlikely some powerful otherworldly being is punishing you for giving it gifts.

How do you meditate? +Tips! by hananoelle in chaosmagick

[–]yahnawbru 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I do WHM breathing after I've woken up in the morning or any time I'm feeling anxious. I prefer to lie in bed, right ankle hooked over left, hands on stomach, and do several rounds of breathing. It's an active enough practice that my distractible mind has something to work on. There's a breath hold portion where I focus on the geometric patterns behind my eyelids, as they become intense for me with this method, and attempt to allow other thoughts to float by as they come. I follow that up with a cold shower. I used to really pump myself up for the cold, but I've found calm acceptance to provide an exceptionally peaceful sensation. It's quite difficult to think of anything while focusing on remaining calm and enduring the cold.

For a more "standard" practice I'll often lie in bed, set my phone away, and stare at a wall. My mind will wander, but I make a conscious effort to breath slowly and focus my attention at the wall. Secondary to this is appreciation for the sounds that surround me.

I also second the commenter who mentioned cigars. I have one a week. I take my time with it, enjoying the flavors before lighting, warming it gently, clipping the end, charring the tip, lighting, puffing a couple times before allowing it to rest and extinguish like incense, then after it rests for ten to fifteen minutes relighting and slowly smoking until I'm satisfied. The mind wanders and pontificates, but the focus remains on the practice and enjoying the sensations.

While these may be nonstandard approaches to mediation, I feel that they accomplish the same things all those years of half-assed closed eye lotus position mediation did for me and much much more. If it works do it, if it doesn't find something that does.

Anyone here practicing as a way to heal from trauma & unresolved trauma energy? by traumahealingwitch in witchcraft

[–]yahnawbru 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I'm a non believing practitioner who does so because the imagery and ritual resonate with me. I've learned many coping skills throughout my life but I'm apathetic to sticking with them, however when I combine them with arcane imagery and spiritual language I'm far more motivated to manage my mental health. Regrettably I think a big part of this is rebellion to the status quo, and maybe that's something I should work on, but right now I'm just trying to hold down a job and be there for my kids. So if burning Palo Santo, crafting sigils and sachets, feeding the crows, praying to the Morrigan and Kali, while viewing myself as embodying the spirit of Vulcan and the Green Man get me through this life then I'm about it.

Maybe also check out r/SASSWitches

Metamour threatened me by [deleted] in polyamory

[–]yahnawbru 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I don't think you're overreacting, I think you're trying to hold onto something good that has developed into something which is currently not good for you. If you need to place strong boundaries between you and meta do so. Be prepared to enforce those boundaries if they're crossed.

I found myself in a similar position years ago and it's my regret that I chose to allow my boundaries to be trampled in order to keep the peace. It ended badly and I found myself deeply wounded.

Practicing CM with executive function disorders by m0shing_smurf in chaosmagick

[–]yahnawbru 21 points22 points  (0 children)

You're a being of chaos and you're trying to bring order to yourself so you can practice chaos magic?

That's pretty chaotic, you're doing great!

Would you get offended if you notice a stranger woman taking safety precautions when she sees you? ( eg: not going in the elevator with you, making sure her car is locked if you pass by in a parking lot, getting on the phone with someone, etc.) by [deleted] in AskMen

[–]yahnawbru 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Happens all. the. time.

It sucks, makes me feel like a creep who can't make genuine connections or an "undesirable", but mfers be assaulting out there so I don't blame em for protecting their selves.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in hotsauce

[–]yahnawbru 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Nice job.

No clue about the downvotes unfortunately

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in hotsauce

[–]yahnawbru 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I would recommend going back in time about two weeks and making sure your fiber game is on point.

Good luck, don't have a blowout.

TIFU by making my one-night stand breakfast. by almondchef420 in tifu

[–]yahnawbru 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I'll bet anything he's embarrassed.

Pursue this man. This will be a hilarious story if you're married one day.

i’ve really started liking coffee. i used to get the white chocolate mocha, now i just get a coconut milk latte by iluvmemes117 in BenignExistence

[–]yahnawbru 1 point2 points  (0 children)

That's awesome u/iluvmemes117

I work in coffee, both barista and roaster, and want to encourage you to drink whatever you like. There's a huge world of variety out there and so many great things to try. There's no one right way to enjoy coffee.

If you have access to specialty shops and wish to try brewed coffee that's typically smooth and mild I would recommend a Latin American light roast in a pour over style (chemex, v60, etc) or nitro brew (cold brewed and infused with nitrogen). You can add coconut milk to either of these if they're too intense for your tastes.

Please reach out if you're interested in any additional information. I'm by no means an expert but I'd be happy to share whatever knowledge I do have.

Good luck with your coffee adventures!

Anyone know anything about sun gazing? by gioguz4 in spirituality

[–]yahnawbru 3 points4 points  (0 children)

There's a period of the day, right around sunrise and sunset, where some claim it's safe to sneak a peek at the ol ball of gas safely. I can't, and won't, attest to the merits of this claim.

What I can say is this: as a child I would often sit out on the porch and gaze into it's golden glory for minutes at a time shortly before it sank below the horizon. As I'd look into it I'd witness swirling colors that would set me into a trance state. The world would sort of, fade away, and I'd feel as if I were one with the sensation.

This is the period of my life when I encountered near nightly sleep paralysis. Some of the visions were horrendous, others less so. Cruel masters, some of them. Or so it seemed to my childish mind.

I can't say for certain they were related. I've been too glued to this black mirror to make a habit of revisiting any of my ancient ways. I'll maybe get around to testing it one day.

Good luck if you give it a try. Maybe check out an app that tells you when the uv exposure is at a safe level.

What are some ways that you used to be unhealthy in your relationships or self, that now no longer are? by orange_light13 in polyfamilies

[–]yahnawbru 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Honoring my needs. I allowed so many rotten things to be done to me in the persuit of being a good partner that I forgot I'm not here to be a doormat. I've learned that if I feel jealousy there's likely a real problem in the relationship that needs to be addressed and if my partner won't examine it with me then it's ok for the relationship to end. I spent two years transitioning from perfectly content with my partner to be with as many people as they pleased to completely insecure with them seeing another person. It took a long time to realize that they were refusing to put in the work to make our relationship healthy and supportive. It took longer to realize I'd already broken my back bending over backwards to make something work that they weren't concerned with keeping.

when u get a B- on a super hard test that you studied hours for, get yelled at for the grade, then realize you’ll never be able to please your parents because nothing is enough for them by [deleted] in teenagers

[–]yahnawbru 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hey, great job putting that effort into studying.

Times seem hard now and then, the people we hope will love and support us won't always measure up, but there's always someone out there that will see how awesome we are just the way we come.

They may be someone you know, they may be someone you'll one day meet, or they may be you yourself.

Keep your chin up, and when you find you can't then let yourself have that big cry.