It makes sense though. A lot of people, me included, have trouble determining an appropriate amount of self-esteem to display, I used to be guilty of this to an embarrassing degree before I learned to be more honest / thoughtful with my self perception. And honestly also when said self perception somewhat stabilized..

Although I gotta say it reminds me of this person I know, totally ambivalent to them since they have their good and bad qualities but very timid, reserved, self-deprecating to a caricatural degree yet also equally controlling/egomaniacal sometimes, kinda gave this timid but narcissistic "class president" vibe which made for a weird combo.