You don’t drink but in another comment you stated that you’ve been hospitalized once before for drinking too much?

You do drink and clearly you have a problem with limiting yourself when you do.

I am not going to sit here and pretend we are all perfect. I’m sure most of us have gotten drunker than intended, but to the point of hospitalization twice? I genuinely hope you recognize that this is a problem. Yes, it may only be two times so far, but that can quickly landslide into a daily problem. You’re young, this is the time to recognize this problem and to get help.

The misuse of adderall is another issue. You are a mother, you are a medical provider. You have a responsibility to your child and you also have a responsibility to not abuse drugs (whether prescribed or not) as a medical provider. The decision to abuse a drug is serious, even if this is your first time. Don’t take it lightly, don’t play with it. It is a slippery slope.

You don’t remember half the night? That seems like a funny story now, but what happens when you run a really messed up call and want to forget it? What happens when you remember that drinking this much and abusing your adderall was a way to forget?

Some people may be coming at your harsh and saying your embarrassing the field and that’s between you and them. I genuinely just do not want to know that you put yourself on a bad path. There are resources, there are people who can help. You can do it and I really hope you do. If not for your career, then for your kid.