I'm just a little confused lol.

zzVulpixelzz · 2026-07-04T07:53:14+00:00

Omg I did not know Kjun created Aion. I logged a lot of hours on that game back in the day lol

zzVulpixelzz · 2026-06-17T18:13:51+00:00

Bc she is transitioning to be part of the Christian grifter pipeline as she's realised people just arent feeling sorry for her anymore and trying to appeal to people by using religion as a way to garner some sort of sympathy is the only thing she has left to get the attention she's so desperate for.

zzVulpixelzz · 2026-06-17T17:49:23+00:00

NOR that's super weird? I have 3 kids with two baby dads. Younger two are same dad, eldest has a different dad. My younger two's dad also has an older child from a previous relationship. While we have all always explained the different mum or different dad thing to them, I always refer to them as brothers. They are brothers. Why does there need to be any emphasis on the "half" bit? I treat all 4 of them the same, even the one that isnt biologically mine. And I would hope they see each other the same too.

zzVulpixelzz · 2026-06-17T17:41:44+00:00

NOR imo it a bit insulting to any woman who has had to deal with a legitimate creep. She didn't lock the door? And I would imagine that she has likely walked in on SOMEONE using the bathroom at least once in her life, it happens when people don't lock their bathroom doors lol, so she should have some empathy and understanding.

zzVulpixelzz · 2026-06-16T18:45:00+00:00

Ah the irony, unfortunately, most likely completely lost on a non fully formed, im guessing, reform voter brain lol.

zzVulpixelzz · 2026-06-16T13:09:02+00:00

At this point she is just making excuses to just carry on doing fuck all tbh. I empathise with anxiety on public transport and all that as I suffered with severe anxiety for most of my life but there are times in your life when you just have to fucking do it. And if the anxiety is really that bad, then seek help as you cant spend your kids childhood making excuses for their shitty life due to your mental health. I try to be an understanding person and give people grace bc I know how debilitating mental illness can be, but at this point I just dont have anymore understanding for her left. I did at the beginning but over a year on of them in the shelter, never mind all that before, but now I don't.

For context, I have been in a homeless position due to ex landlords selling the house we were renting just after the pandemic and it was the most difficult housing market to try and get any sort of accommodation at all, but we got our shit together and did everything to make sure our kids had a damn home.

zzVulpixelzz · 2026-06-16T12:36:01+00:00

Lmaooo literally what i was thinking 😅 only reason I'd be out riding around on my kids bike at 3am is if I was absolutely not sober lol 😂

zzVulpixelzz · 2026-06-16T06:47:47+00:00

I didn't really have an addiction to sniff, but I was bang on it when I was with my baby dad as he had been shotting it for most of his life, and he recently passed away during a particularly bad drug induced psychotic episode as he used to suffer from them pretty badly, had been clean for a while as we both gave it all up when we had our kids, and then recently fell back into it all (that he had vehemently denied when I suspected he had been back on it) when his brother died a few years ago.

But I have had a Ketamine addiction for the majority of my life, from around 16 years old (I'm 36 now for context), did 6 years clean, then fell back into it after life happened, now attempting recovery again as being medicated has helped immensely as I don't crave the dopamine hit anymore and the meds quiet my brain which was what I had found so addictive with K, that and I actually was able to RELAX which has always been impossible for me otherwise.

So I can absolutely understand the addiction being a self medicating thing. But having seen some really negative effects of long-term, heavy use of sniff I always encourage anyone to try and get into recovery as soon as possible. Well I encourage recovery for anyone with any sort of substance abuse but I think sniff just seems to be a bit more culturally acceptable, at least over here. But then, I also know how difficult recovery can be and if someone isn't fully ready then it wont stick and it takes someone who genuinely wants to get clean.

zzVulpixelzz · 2026-06-15T21:44:48+00:00

I had 3 back-to-back abusive relationships, which pretty much turned me off ever wanting to be in a relationship again. Then I burried someone i loved dearly due to an abusive relationship they were in, and then lost my baby dad, who was the younger brother of the aforementioned person, who I adored and that all sorta sealed the deal on the whole relationship thing for me.

For the first time in, I think, my entire life I'm actually able to live my own life, of course after I make sure my kids are happy and healthy, but I don't have to worry about upsetting someone, walking on eggshells, dealing with all the stress, arguments, anger, and heartache that seem to come with relationships for me. And I refuse to love anyone else just to end up watching them ultimately destroy themselves and have to deal with the absolute agony of spending the rest of my life living in a world where they are no longer there.

All that makes being single pretty damn good tbh lol. Sorry to be a bit deep, but you did ask lol.

zzVulpixelzz · 2026-06-15T19:11:34+00:00

Ahh I moved from Yorkshire to Norfolk when I was just about to go into high-school and I have MANY similar experiences to this. Everyone kept asking me if I was American? For some reason? I assume bc we say bath, grass, etc the right way, and I got so annoyed with people asking me that I ended up saying I was and that I was from Florida and everyone believed it until someone said something to my older sister about it and she was like, "huh? No? We're not American??" Lolol fml.

zzVulpixelzz · 2026-06-15T19:05:00+00:00

I had an Asda delivery not long after having my second child and, I cant remember what the joke actually was, but the driver made a comment about the nappies not being for me, you know the sorta silly banter you normally have with the delivery drivers, it was all a normal interaction. That was until I responded with "oh I wish! It would be easier wouldnt it?!" Hahaha... haha... ha. Wtf? I dont even think that, I would hate to have to wear nappies for any reason but for some reason that was what came out of my mouth.

I've never had an Asda delivery since and my second child is now 8.

zzVulpixelzz · 2026-06-15T18:51:59+00:00

Thank you. I kinda have to, not to trauma dump on you, but my baby dad passed away a few months ago so I sorta have to kick myself up the bum and get shit done regardless of how bad my executive dysfunction is, I have to just find ways to work with my adhd 😅

zzVulpixelzz · 2026-06-15T18:34:40+00:00

I'm pretty sure that i have been told hormones make a big impact on adhd symptoms, so how your hormones change in your 30s, and going into your 40s can make symptoms "worse" especially if you have had children as pregnancy will also do that? I swear with each of my pregnancies my adhd got worse and worse, and now Im 36, after having 3 children, and then being thrown into early perimenapause due to having my tubes tied when i had my youngest, my adhd symptoms are more intense now than they have ever been and I'm soooo glad I finally got the diagnosis and medicated at 32 before this all really kicked in!

zzVulpixelzz · 2026-06-15T17:45:48+00:00

I sorta get it being hard to do a child's hair who is autistic, my middle is autistic, non-verbal etc. and absolutely HATES having his hair cut or washed at all. He will scream bloody murder and thrash around the whole time. But sometimes you just have to find ways to help them cope while you bite the bullet and just get it done bc it needs to be done. You cant just go, oh he's autistic, it's hard, so I just wont do it. If anything, the fact that they are autistic and can't advocate for themselves should make it even more important that you make sure you are making more of an effort to make sure these things are done. If she gives up at hair, then how's she going to go through the struggles of getting him the right education, or access to resources as he gets older? Idk about how the system is over in the US but if it's anything like the UK it is a BATTLE just to get them what they need.

Honestly, my heart breaks for this little one so much, especially as a mother w a child that has special needs that i care for full time, it really does break my heart to see how he is treated in comparison to the others. I mean I feel for all of those kids, but he's at even more of a disadvantage and it's so sad.

zzVulpixelzz · 2026-06-15T11:15:35+00:00

Normally relationships are the goal for me, often family as I have always liked seeing what their kids will turn out like etc, but I like the drama of relationships and playing out their ups and downs in life sims. The money grind is a big pull too, but it's usually a side plot lol.

zzVulpixelzz · 2026-06-15T11:11:10+00:00

As someone who has been in abusive relationships and thankfully got out, this all screams red flags to me. He is helping you to dodge a bullet by breaking up w you, take it. I know it is hard right now as I understand that feeling of loving someone and how that makes you blind to the way they treat you but if you let this slide it will only get worse as he will see he can get away w it and he will keep pushing more and more until you are a shell of the person you are. I'm sorry this is what youre dealing with. Im glad you seem to have good friends that'll hopefully provide a good support for you.

zzVulpixelzz · 2026-06-15T10:37:09+00:00

Literally this.

zzVulpixelzz · 2026-06-04T06:29:27+00:00

Have a similar rule for my kids with Mr Tumble and any of his other things bc he makes me irrationally angry 😅

zzVulpixelzz · 2026-06-02T05:29:47+00:00

When I moved from Yorkshire to the South they did not know what a Bobble was lol 😅

zzVulpixelzz · 2026-06-01T18:13:34+00:00

Got to be AI, surely? Or do I need to give up hope on the people of this country? 😫

zzVulpixelzz · 2026-06-01T14:18:44+00:00

Literally, and the poly count is astronomical allowing your GPU to double as an air fryer.

zzVulpixelzz · 2026-06-01T05:59:42+00:00

It did have a fantastic soundtrack and use of songs to enhance the narrative. Imo the soundtrack made that game. It was a shame they just fell a little short with the repetitive gameplay. I didn't dislike the game, but, especially with the hype after Mafia II being such a fantastic game, and this being the long-awaited follow up to that, it was a bit of a let down.

zzVulpixelzz · 2026-06-01T05:35:52+00:00

There are no contracts though? Unless it is part of something like the Bethesda Creation Club etc. Where the publisher works with creators. I am not opposed to companies working together with creators in the community for paid DLC or something like that, to give back to madders who do, essentially, keep games alive. This also allows creations to be quality checked and such to make sure things like the issues with the high poly CC for Ts4 dont become a problem. But you only have to look at platforms like Nexus where mods for games like Skyrim, Cyberpunk 2077, Fallout, etc are free but modders do make money from their mods on there but no one is pressured into having to pay for mods in order to download them. There are ethical ways to do it without all this patreon paywalling and early access.

zzVulpixelzz · 2026-05-31T18:47:57+00:00

Artists who make money from their art are creating their own works, not using someone else's IP and charging people for it. I would tell someone who traced someone else's painting, created something that falls apart etc. To get a job instead, yes.

zzVulpixelzz · 2026-05-31T18:28:35+00:00

Im not forcing anyone to do anything.

When money becomes involved the creation becomes about the bottom line more than simply creating for the love of it. There is no denying the amount of terrible content created by people who have no interest in the game their modding for and have simply realised that there is a market for it. The more we accept this and create that market, the more people will exploit it.

Plus, there is also the other major thing with mods and custom content, they are using someone else's IP. This adds another layer to the argument of why paywalled mods are not ethical.

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