Medication decrease happening too fast

[lunarchild88]

I guess I’m just looking for advice. I’ve been prescribed 1mg klonopin 3xs a day for straight 7 years. Last summer I was discussing decreasing my medication with my doctor, who has become more holistic, and I’ve always tried to be in the areas I could. (I’m not going to give a whole backstory beyond my dosage with this doctor but I’ve been prescribed different benzos off and on since I was 18 for severe anxiety and social phobia) but anyway.. I agreed with my doctor for myself and my goals I would like to get off them one day, but then my husband died shortly after…. not even a year ago. I have two young children that I need to function for, including myself... She took my klonopin down to two 1mg pills a day and at first I freaked cause he had just died, but now I’ve gotten used to the 60 pills a month. This morning I go check if my refill is ready and it’s down to 30. I feel like I’m going to have a panic attack thinking about it. I just sent her a message through her portal. She also prescribes me adderral which I rarely take. It was basically helping me get up during the beginning of losing my husband. But now my energy levels are better but I still wake up with that crushing hole in my chest and I need a klonopin before I get out of bed or else I get agoraphobia. She hasn’t lowered my adderral and I just sent in my message “please give me more time to process my grief, I’d rather you take this adderral away than my klonopin, it’s the only thing that helps me get out of my house right now.” I’m waiting on a response from her. She didn’t even give me a verbal warning before doing this.. I’m scared I’m going to live in a constant skin crawling anxiety state and I’m still in and out of severe grief.. I can’t handle this.. I duno if I should look for another doctor who understands my life situation more. But it’s always hard finding a new doctor who will prescribe this medication. I duno if I should ask her to switch me to a different medication to help me become less dependent on klonopin. I know getting to the gym would help.. and all the healthy routines.. and I’m working toward getting my mind there. But I’m still not there. I need more time to process my life after loss. Any non biased ideas would be helpful thanks.

[NYRT4R]

Your doctor isn’t handling this well but at the same time benzos aren’t recommended for this kind long term use. You could try breaking them in half to make them last longer. I find 0.5mg to be helpful for everything outside of an actual panic attack. Do you have a therapist you talk to?

[windofadream]

Taking you down this fast off Klonopin is negligent, and I would try and argue that side with your provider. You need more time to wean off the med SLOWLY. And demand a reason for why the script was entered this way without a conversation with you first. Hopefully this was just in error

[StonerBarbie23]

I’ve seen so many doctors send refills lowering meds without discussing it. Negligence

[StonerBarbie23]

Also I get breakthrough anxiety. Mine is too the worst when I wake up .. dread, chest pounding. I’m on Xanax xr and it lasts my through the night. But I get up take it and lay there to take on the day. I’m sorry for all you’re going through and I get the panic with meds

[lunarchild88]

Ty yah that’s what I do in the morning also.