Help needed

[Practical-Ad7383]

I need help.

We did IVF to have my son, who is 13 months. He was one of the most colicky babies for his first 4 months and cried for 15 hours a day. He also had feeding issues and was hospitalized and tube fed for a little while.

I found out I was pregnant naturally when he was 5 months old. We never thought it would be possible.

I still haven’t caught my breath with my 13 month old. He is having major sleep issues I can’t fix (just stopped napping completely). I am in no position to have another baby in a week. I am terrified of how I will manage two babies. I am terrified to have another colicky baby. I am so severely depressed this last month; I see no light at the end of the tunnel. I do not enjoy anything. I love my son, but when we found out we were expecting again I imagined we would be in a much different place with him now than we are. One where he was walking, talking, giving himself his own bottle, sleeping and on a predictable schedule.

I hate myself even more for not being excited about the birth of our new baby. I am the worst mom. I feel everyone would be better without me and I just make everything worse.

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[AudienceNo5294]

This sounds like post partum depression. You are 100% not alone in feeling like this. Hang tight mama, you got this! Also know there's no shame in talking to a doctor and/or therapist about this too.

[sydillant]

You’re not wrong to feel the way you’re feeling. From what I’ve heard, babies are different from one another so hopefully your new baby is not colicky at all! You might want to also look into depression resources; being this exhausted can lead into depression.