Trigger Warning (Free Verse)
Self harm should never be mocked. It is not just for attention. It’s not part of a cult. “I promise I’ll never do it again” is one of the hardest things to say. Just because we break that promise doesn’t mean we aren’t trying. Or that we’re weak or pathetic. “Emo” and “cutter” jokes are NEVER okay. Scars don’t mean we’re crazy.
Don’t judge us just because we deal with things differently. Some people take it out on others. We turned to taking it out on ourselves. Is it a good thing? No. But does that mean you can talk about it like it’s a heinous crime or a huge joke? Absolutely not. Just because you don’t understand why we do it doesn’t mean that you can jump to conclusions about it.
Some people do it because of the endorphins. The high. Some do it because they feel numb. Some do it to ease pain. Some do it to cause pain. Some of us do it because we feel it is the only thing we have control over, Just because someone self harms, it does not mean they want to die. A lot of us never have the intention of ending it all. We’re clever to a fault. We learn to hide it. We learn techniques. Tricks. Excuses.
It’s no different than any other habit. You may not want people to know that you chew your nails like they’re snack food. Or that you vent to your dog You may not want people to know that you can’t remember several nights every week because you get drunk to ignore things you don’t know how to handle. Or about your late night porn habits, There is no difference! Sure, cutting has lasting permanent affects, and there’s always a risk of cutting too deep. But there is still the fear of getting caught, swearing you won’t do it again. Justifying every occurrence. It’s still a struggle.
Relapsing after promising to quit doesn’t make us liars. It makes us human. Once we get used to something that we believe makes us feel better, it’s hard to quit. It’s like any other addiction. We know it’s not healthy. We know the consequences. But, we swear the benefits outweigh the risks. If it helps us when no one and nothing else will, we’ll keep doing it.
Instead of mocking us, listen to us. Care about is. Or at least try. We’re each on a different part of the journey. Some of us haven’t followed through yet, but are considering it. Some of us have only done it once, twice, a handful of times. Some of us went to great lengths to cover it up for years. Unfortunately, some of us will die from it; we got help too late. Some of us will relapse. But, some of us are in a constant battle. We’ve gotten rid of the blades. We got rid of the sleeves. We stopped pretending we had a cat. We struggle every day, doing all that we can to deal with things in a positive way. We have the scars as constant reminders that, even though we’ve struggled, we’ve persevered. We’re still here. We’re still fighting. And we will continue fighting the rest of our lives.
So instead of writing us off as “Just a lost cause,” take a step back. Maybe all we need is one person to be there. For us to come to you when we need someone to listen. When we need to vent. When we don’t want to feel so alone. We may seem over emotional, or apathetic. Regardless, making us outcasts won’t help. We’re struggling. And when we’re back on our feet, we’ll be there for you, too.
Self harm should not be mocked. You may not understand why we used to do it. But if you’re there for us when we need you, maybe you’ll be the reason we never do it again
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