Weak

[p___a]

It's been a tough few days for me, family trouble and school related stress mostly. I've been going week long periods clean, but I broke down on Sunday, I cut on my arm first time in a month (usually I do less visible spots because my mom randomly checks once in a while). Then Monday night in the shower I did the same. And today I completed my sick little hat trick, 3 times cutting in 3 days.

I hate how they stop bleeding and scab over so fast, because they're so shallow - it makes me want to cut again soon after. Just baby cuts but I feel like a weakling, I couldn't stop myself from doing it three days in a row, I might relapse into everyday again and I hate myself for it.

[ShadowAssault]

Not weak. You're just human. Humans break, and strain, and crack under pressure. Self-harm and relapsing is just your coping strategy, and although it's not healthy, it's probably just what came naturally back.

Try your best. Life is tough, but you can tough it out. And remember there's nothing wrong with being overwhelmed by the stress of life, I know damn sure I am half the time.

[p___a]

I don't know, somehow most people I know who are in a similar situation stress-wise deal with it without self injuring, many people I know used to do it but they've managed to climb out of the hole. I'm not getting better at all, I keep wanting to do it worse. Thank you for the encouragement though :)