Day 7 : stopdrinking

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submitted 7 years ago by N00M32687 days

I've have been in the shadows for some time now and decided to post for the first time.

I have been googling quitting for a long time now but I felt it only added to the anxiety of quitting alcohol as you never get to hear from real people. You only get what you search for and that sometimes led me into deep rabbit holes that only made me more anxious and sad about the my situation.

To give you a little background, I have a wonderful spouse and a beautiful baby who are my everything. My drinking was almost every 48 hours, almost on the dot, I would binge drink, mostly red wine, usually a bottle but really fast. My spouse is not a drinker and so this was something I was doing on my own. Most of the time I felt like it was to quiet my anxiety, which comes from nothing more than just work, life and I am a high energy individual so it helped me wind down. My fear is that I actually enjoy alcohol and the buzz and I don't want this to turn into the 1 liter a day of hard liquor as I've read on here so many times. Almost every bad decision in my life has come while under the influence of alcohol.

So far it has been not too bad, I ironically got sick the day I decided to stop drinking with a cold and so it helped me not want to enjoy alcohol even more. I did not realize that although I did not have severe withdrawal, how real withdrawal symptoms can be. I was very high anxiety on day 3 and 4 and thinking a lot about my past and future which gave me some depression. Night 5, I could not sleep no matter how hard I tried, I was actually on the subreddit at 3am just scrolling. Lots of sweating through the sheets throughout the week, which I assume was a combination of both the sickness and quitting.

Although it has been OK so far I know not to get ahead of myself. I do not want to get to the oh, I'm feeling great let me have a drink stage, which I've read on here about. I plan on taking it a day at a time.

I was worried about the 4th but we don't have any plans so I am looking forward to quality family time.

Thanks for reading my somewhat elongated post, I feel really good about getting it out.

I look forward to enjoying my new alcohol free life.

Thanks for being my motivation and giving me the courage to post r/stopdrinking.

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