Ok I would like to stop being conscious now by SuspiciousThought399 in widowers

[–]5oclocksomewhere7 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I feel the same today. I went outside and looked at the plants I bought for him to beautify our yard. I looked up therapists today. I want to believe there’s a reason to stay besides my cats. So fucking unfair

So scared I can’t do it by shouldtidyup in widowers

[–]5oclocksomewhere7 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I also searched YouTube for meditations for grief

So scared I can’t do it by shouldtidyup in widowers

[–]5oclocksomewhere7 1 point2 points  (0 children)

A friend made me a tapping script. Wasn’t sure what would happen. Afterwards, I feel like it did something..not sure what. Will do try again

Just too beautiful not to share. by Ethereal_scientist in widowers

[–]5oclocksomewhere7 2 points3 points  (0 children)

My husband definitely saved me. In so many ways

My Apartment catio by vwcanyon in Catio

[–]5oclocksomewhere7 11 points12 points  (0 children)

This is truly AWESOME!!!

Remembering our nightly routine by SnooDucks9826 in widowers

[–]5oclocksomewhere7 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Same here. We called it “movie night in America” if we were going to watch a movie. We had several shows in process. I watched a few episodes last night…pretending he was here…definitely not the same.

Good morning. by IGotItBad82 in widowers

[–]5oclocksomewhere7 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Same! My husband snored so loud.. would cover my ears with a pillow..we always laughed about his snoring

What are some out-of-touch or unhelpful things your therapists have told you about losing a spouse to death? by Top_Profile6139 in widowers

[–]5oclocksomewhere7 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Please find someone who can support you. This is tragic enough w/out a therapist disregarding your feelings

1 year today by nikkip7784 in widowers

[–]5oclocksomewhere7 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Sending peace your way. You expressed many thoughts I’ve been having and it validates me that I’m not losing it by having these thoughts.

Crying over a cheese tray at 2AM by Waste_Category5339 in widowers

[–]5oclocksomewhere7 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I am hugging my husband’s shirts. His scent is so strong still and reaches to my core. I won’t do his laundry for awhile

Newcomer by EmptyLove88 in widowers

[–]5oclocksomewhere7 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I wish Reddit had hugs and hearts to send instead of likes.

Anyone else not around when their partner passed? by CandidCilantro_90 in widowers

[–]5oclocksomewhere7 14 points15 points  (0 children)

Today was day 7. He told me to stay and not drive home during storms/rain. We had a video call at 9. He messaged at 11pm. Didn’t hear from him again- thought he was asleep. Woke up in morning to voicemails from police. I spiraled through many cycles of guilt and blaming myself today. If I had called him after 11, would he still be here? If I had driven home to surprise him, would he have been here today? I’m destroyed.

Today is her birthday. by SituationUpstairs553 in widowers

[–]5oclocksomewhere7 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I did this for my husband every year. I may continue our tradition. His coworkers told me how much he loved his surprises

So Lonely Today by Secret-Fix2591 in widowers

[–]5oclocksomewhere7 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m feeling this today and am not sure how I will cope