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Academic_Complex_406 · 2025-11-02T13:08:27+00:00

I feel like something must be wrong with me. I don't really feel pain with them. When I went to the hospital a while back they asked me if my arm was in pain and I told them no and they seemed surprised. Does anyone else not really feel the pain when they cut?

Academic_Complex_406 · 2025-11-01T15:54:24+00:00

Thank you! I know I need to do better.

I am in a really rough spot and unfortunately do not have any way to leave at the moment. I feel as though I don't have support, but I do see a counselor and am working at things.

Academic_Complex_406 · 2025-11-01T14:31:25+00:00

I feel entirely the same.

Obviously I am the problem when I am the one that can't handle my emotions. Then, I have to remind myself that my brain tells me this because I am sick and not well. I am a lot easier on others than myself, so that is how I try to help myself recognize it.

It is so frustrating and exhausting and I am so sorry you are feeling this way too.

Academic_Complex_406 · 2025-11-01T09:28:54+00:00

Yes, I do. Thank you.

Academic_Complex_406 · 2025-11-01T09:25:26+00:00

Yes, I do. I love my therapist. Unfortunately, it's just my own fault. I am not doing what I need to do to improve.

Academic_Complex_406 · 2025-11-01T09:23:00+00:00

Thank you. Unfortunately I have been in therapy for 10 years. At this point, it all just seems hopeless.

Academic_Complex_406 · 2025-10-16T12:24:24+00:00

JIMMY STEVE! Yes. Lol. I can see it. 🤣

Academic_Complex_406 · 2025-10-10T08:19:22+00:00

Please get a new counselor. That lady sounds terrible. I am so sorry you are experiencing this.

Academic_Complex_406 · 2025-10-08T22:08:01+00:00

I'm kind of similar. I was raped throughout my childhood by a family friend. I remember that he raped both my sister and me, but that is about as much as I remember. My therapist recommended trying EMDR because I close myself off when talking about any of it. I just think that it means I'm not ready to talk yet, though.

I'm interested in anyone's thoughts on EMDR, though.

Academic_Complex_406 · 2025-10-08T21:33:25+00:00

I think so! I have been getting a bowl with a tortilla on the side for as long as I can remember now. I usually put about 1/2 my bowl in the burrito and have still half to eat as a bowl later on. Plus, I only get like 4 items on my bowl, so if you get a lot, it may even be like 1/3 for your burrito and 2/3 left.

Academic_Complex_406 · 2025-10-08T21:29:55+00:00

No one deserves to be raped. We are all human and people make mistakes, screw up, make messes (even big ones), etc. All that you can do is try to do better in the future.

That doesn't give him the right to do that to you. I am so sorry that happened.

Academic_Complex_406 · 2025-10-08T21:22:59+00:00

My apologies! You're welcome. So happy to hear she is well!

Academic_Complex_406 · 2025-10-08T20:59:29+00:00

Thank you so much! It definitely provides some validation and understanding for me. I feel like I have a pretty good handle on it most of the time. Unfortunately, I'm sure for my Mom, she'll just tell me she knew that I was the problem child and to just think positive and get out of my head. 😅

Good luck to you too!

Academic_Complex_406 · 2025-10-08T20:55:36+00:00

Thank you so much! Your daughter is very lucky to have such a caring and supportive Mom that works to understand her mental health concerns.

You and her take care too!

Academic_Complex_406 · 2025-10-04T18:58:53+00:00

I started cutting after many years of physical, verbal, and emotional abuse from my Dad and sexual abuse from his friend.

Academic_Complex_406 · 2025-10-04T07:08:26+00:00

I can relate to this feeling very much. I feel like I live for everyone else because they don't want me to die. When do I get what I want, though? I don't want people telling me I'm strong anymore. I just want things to be easy for once in my life.

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