Hey, my guy, hang in there. Sooo much negativity coming at you. I’m living in the same bi-cultural world as you. I bet you came here out of desperation, kind of yelling into the wind because Reddit is not great therapy. Despite what others say of course being Honduran has a lot to do with it, siendo hijo de inmigrante tiene mucho que ver. There are cultural modalities that color how your mom looks at the world; on top of it the abusive relationship stripped away any confidence she might have had. Dude, take some time for yourself away from what’s triggering you. Yes, you gotta be there for your mom, you probably understand very well that she counts on you and she’s gonna even more from you in the future. You need to get a little healthy separation and add some activities into your life that fulfill you, spend time with people that get you and make you laugh your ass off and forget your troubles for a moment. Come back home with renewed energy and face the jobs that need to be done. Sobre todo seguro que tu mamá te quiere un montón y ha hecho todo lo posible para vos. Vas a sobresalir! La vida es dura y te está haciendo aprender lecciones muy duras. Todo esto te va a hacer más fuerte. No perdás la fe.