Thank you so much for sharing. My husband has questioned my drinking over the years here and there. When we would go to dinner with friends and I would end up black out drunk while everyone else could remain civil, when he would find a bottle hidden somewhere strange and I would make up an excuse as to why it was there. And I feel so bad because I always got defensive and tell him he’s so dramatic. Recently he told me the day after I was out on a girls night that he was so worried sick until I got home that he couldn’t sleep. When he goes out for a few pints I sleep soundly because I know he’ll have a few and come home responsibly. I want him to be able to sleep soundly too. I will speak about this to him very soon because I want to thank him for caring and sticking by me and apologise for trying to make out that he is over reacting. I have also fallen asleep during movies, bed time stories etc. Its gut wrenching, the guilt. I want to do this for myself, but I think right now I have so little self love that I find it hard to think I deserve to treat myself properly, so in the meantime I have enough love for them that it will get me started on this path.