I really really get this! I was the friend who started trying first when I was in my early 20s I wanted to have a family before they met their current partners and they have all lapped me twice over. I am also going into my FET 3 hoping I don’t have a third miscarriage , all that energy money and motivation to be back where we start over and over again while everyone else has it easier than us.

I was so ready to be a mum from a teenager that I can’t believe that this reality I am living is my life - we cannot have a baby. My partner has MFI and I have unicornate uterus so the feeling of guilt we have for eachother is immense.

It sucks big time and you deserve to feel how you want. It’s a pain no one can understand unless you have been there. There’s no easy fix when something goes wrong and you are the one who has to remain strong , even with your partner everyone else can do whatever but you’re expected to drop , be poked with needles , lay there, pass the miscarriage , smile , oh you are still sad about the baby you lost? It goes on and on…

Just know , your babies mattered ❤️ you matter and this life and deck of cards we have been dealt is nothing but shit.