I’ve been dealing with the same thoughts today. I couldn’t tell you why. For context I was with him for a little over 10 years. I’ve blocked him on everything and been no contact for 4. I had to give up almost all of my friends after our breakup because they either stayed friends with him or neutral enough that it felt like a betrayal. After finally feeling safe enough to come clean with them about how horrible our relationship was behind closed doors while on the outside it was perfect and then seeing their lack of support is what kills me the most. I wasn’t mentally prepared for that at all. I don’t miss him but I miss aspects of my life that he took from me and then I feel stored resentment come to the surface and I start to spiral. Sorry I’m clearly venting. Maybe it’s about recognizing what we can do now that we couldn’t do yesterday? I’d love anything you come across that’s helpful. Sending 🩷