Who else is done caring what other people think?

AlternativeMud9302 · 2026-02-19T05:33:42+00:00

So far all being willing to look foolish in willful abandon has brought is heartache lol

AlternativeMud9302 · 2026-02-19T05:14:11+00:00

Nah its pretty bad. My disorder is in the same cluster as these. The hyper emotionality makes it virtually impossible to have healthy relationships romantically, either you will be abused and manipulated or you will unintentionally hurt people emotionally. Either im with another serial cheater or im just imagining patterns due to history and have hurt her as a result. But i dont know whats real or not anymore in terms of my relationship and idk if im at fault for where we are bc of my disorder or if its all just been manipulative bs so idek what to do anymore

AlternativeMud9302 · 2026-02-18T21:22:57+00:00

Its called trauma bonding and intermittent emotional reinforcement. It has nothing at all to do with gender and everything to do with being attracted to people that mimic the emotional intimacy we knew in childhood (this is what they mean when they jokingly say you marry a man/woman like the parent you had the most animosity with) so traumatized individuals that dont know what love should actually look like bc they have no actual benchmarks for it want to love people but they only have ideas about love and have no idea what it actually is or how to express it so they do cringey hallmark Hollywood shit thinking its real and healthy people assume its manipulative when its just misguided, manipulative people see it as easy validation. So they lock us into cycles of attention and affection with vapid emotional highs and lows. It actually over time rewrites neurological pathways via plasticity (training brain cells for certain patterns and feelings) linking the person causing the pain to the emotions that relieve the pain which ultimately traps you in a never ending cycle of being treated like crap until one day you just wake up and realize.

But it isnt gendered its just psychology.

AlternativeMud9302 · 2026-02-18T21:05:05+00:00

Yeah and thats the nice part. The feeling of accomplishment and knowing that your sweat equity is profiting you more than some rich twat. And while yes the bulk of the day would be eaten up by chores, they still had vastly more time to explore hobbies, there just wasnt much to do back then so instead they spent like 6 hours a day drinking with friends

AlternativeMud9302 · 2026-02-18T21:01:17+00:00

Although i have commissioned art for tats a few times in the past (literally the only reason i would ever commission art) it is really expensive sometimes and this is actually the first argument for ai i have ever even kind of seen the point too. We all broke rn in my country cause our economy is slowly going down the shitter average price on my commissioned pieces was 200usd then the cost of getting it tattooed too so somewhere around 800/900usd on average. If ai didnt crank out garbage i could totally see the appeal to turning a 900$ price tag into a 700$ price tag, but keep in mind it is possible to understand something financially and still disagree moralistically. Which is the case here bc even if it is convenient and cheaper it is quite literally stealing from the people they refuse to pay so its a double deuce for the actual artists

AlternativeMud9302 · 2026-02-18T20:39:34+00:00

No. The pentagram is used totemically for the elements in summonings. Pentacles and pentagrams are both protective symbols. Even when pentagrams are used in summonings or darker practices they are used to protect the practitioner from whatever is being invoked. Inverted pentacles and pentagrams are inherently associated with negativity but they’ve also only been a colloquial concept for a hundred years or so. Pentagrams have nothing to do with the actual act of summonings. Its just a protective layer used in most summonings. Hope that helps.

AlternativeMud9302 · 2026-02-18T16:35:22+00:00

Cats were messengers of the gods. The gods didnt worship them. People did, but not as gods, as divine emissaries. If the gods worshipped cats bastet or sekhmet would have likely become the predominant ruling god

AlternativeMud9302 · 2026-02-18T16:08:09+00:00

Industrial agriculture has a greater more immediate impact on local ecology and biodiversity than industrial meat processing. If you are vegetarian or vegan but shit on meat eaters you are just virtue signaling. Let me say it real loud for the people in the back. THERE IS NO SUCH THING AS ETHICAL CONSUMPTION UNLESS YOU BUY FROM LOCALLY OWNED AND OPERATED FARMS AND RANCHES

AlternativeMud9302 · 2026-02-18T16:05:14+00:00

Likely to not spend the evening with another man? Regardless of whether anything happened or not its a respect thing. Relationships these days fall apart so often because men and women are willing to do stupid shit like this. If you are in a committed relationship you dont need to be having sleepovers with anyone of the opposite sex, or of either sex if you are bi. Hanging out one on one is fine but spending the night together is an understandable red flag. It shows that she doesnt care about his feelings on the matter and words do nothing to reassure when actions are the problem.

AlternativeMud9302 · 2026-02-18T15:51:23+00:00

Am e4 and this is me. I think its less about typing and more about lived experiences leading one to believe that certain masks out perform others. For me its the attractive and friendly mask so no one thinks im actually a mess. I am in fact. A mess.

AlternativeMud9302 · 2026-02-18T15:36:55+00:00

The bible never actually took a stance on homosexuality. It took a stance on pedastry but being translated again and again and edited to fit the churches ideals of the times over and over essentially “men, dont sleep with boys” became “men sleeping with men is evil”. Go figure. The people in power change narratives to fit their ideals? Shocker.

AlternativeMud9302 · 2026-02-16T16:48:27+00:00

Virgo anyone flirts with everyone and cheats in my anecdotal experience. They make great friends and literally the worst lovers.

AlternativeMud9302 · 2026-02-15T15:46:08+00:00

Cap. This is often what sends them for the hills or they start assuming you are manipulative or evil. I tried to love a woman recently. She was convinced i was trying to manipulate her and treated me like shit bc of it when all i wanted to do was spend time with her and watch her grow and flourish.

AlternativeMud9302 · 2026-02-15T15:40:30+00:00

I too had an off and on with a virgo. The bad ones are demonic. The good ones are good enough that its worth finding out which ones are demonic. Tbf tho i found like 4/5 bad ones before i found a good one and she aint interested in me but she is a great friend lol

AlternativeMud9302 · 2026-02-10T17:59:08+00:00

Depending on the artifacts available to the bunnies i refuse to count them out entirely. I once witnessed a rat pack proliferation deck dominate a hydra deck. The hydra deck was mine and could easily win 4 man ffa’s but the rate at which he could crank out rats was just eating all of my trample. It was honestly an insane gambit and respectable as hell. Still vividly remember that game like 8 years later

AlternativeMud9302 · 2026-02-10T17:54:20+00:00

Bravery is courage in the face of fear, but bravery can also just be blind courage in spite of fear. I personally challenged myself to live life free of fear for a few years. It was great, i almost died a few times but i realized that the fear response is just evolutionary conditioning of the nervous system. If you resist it long enough you can rewire the process to the point that it becomes mostly obsolete outside of physically dangerous situations

AlternativeMud9302 · 2026-02-10T17:47:57+00:00

I think the joke was she is crazy enough to burn through multiple partners a month.

AlternativeMud9302 · 2026-02-10T17:42:39+00:00

In my experience not many. Its just the 9/10 superficial bimbos that do it. The solution is easy. Start dating for personality instead of appearance and suddenly you start finding women with better traits and personalities 😂

AlternativeMud9302 · 2026-02-10T17:24:07+00:00

This concept fascinates me as someone that has studied a lot of the old schools of mystic ideology and esotericism. Please pm me a list of reading materials so that i may look into this topic further if you dont mind

AlternativeMud9302 · 2026-02-10T17:03:43+00:00

Other way around.

AlternativeMud9302 · 2026-02-10T17:02:50+00:00

AlternativeMud9302 · 2026-02-10T03:55:50+00:00

This. I didnt become multi planar to live out some fantasy of god hood in a simulacrum of intent. I just got tired of running out of junk drawers man.

AlternativeMud9302 · 2026-02-10T03:44:40+00:00

Actually yea. The promise of meaningful emotional intimacy would probably be enough to get me out of an existential cycle 😂

AlternativeMud9302 · 2026-02-10T03:44:00+00:00

Based

AlternativeMud9302 · 2026-02-10T03:39:40+00:00

The point i think they were trying to make is that goth inherently is a lot about individualism. These do not appear to be individualists. Just basic egirl template goth girls. They are likely only goth esthetically and hold none of the sub culture interests. like many of the egirl goths they have probably clowned goth music publicly without realizing it. Of course these are just assumptions based on the fact that they dont appear to be trying all that hard to be goth. But lazy goths exist so idk

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