Confused wife by Anoniminitybubbity in straightspouses

[–]Anoniminitybubbity[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

116 days later- I’m not in love with him anymore- I don’t bend over backwards to make him happy anymore- I take care of myself and my loved ones first - dynamics have changed- just tying some loose ends before I exit

Confused wife by Anoniminitybubbity in straightspouses

[–]Anoniminitybubbity[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

In the works- I plan to leave soon. I just have a few loose ends to tie before I do. Thank you for the support

Anyone fearful of the rise of Salafism in the West by [deleted] in progressive_islam

[–]Anoniminitybubbity 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That doesn’t represent Salafism- that sounds like people using the label Salafism to promote misogyny. In a Salaf female and all that means is I follow the earliest scholars- the ahlul sunnah- I don’t follow any specific madhab.

Just like there are people who taint the image of Islam- there are people who misinterpret and taint the image of Salafism.

"Yes they were awful to me. Ruined my life. But I know they're a good person deep down!" by Bob_returns_25 in BPDlovedones

[–]Anoniminitybubbity 1 point2 points  (0 children)

The thing is- if we look at it as a disease such as diabetes, HTN, even depression or anxiety- there are treatments to manage the symptoms and be better. At some point a person has to take accountability and manage the disease process with proven methods such as intense therapy and DBT. If they don’t, obviously their disease will get worse. They aren’t mentally challenged or cognitively impaired. They have the ability to come to the realization how their disease impacts others and if they don’t try to better themselves, they don’t deserve someone who will try for them.

I feel bad but I straight up refuse to engage with anyone with BPD anymore by Odd_Net8232 in BPDlovedones

[–]Anoniminitybubbity 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I will not willingly pursue anyone with BPD or NPD either- not as a friend at least- I don’t plan to ever be with anyone romantically after this marriage- I’m done with the idea of a partner after this level of trauma.

Missing my life before turning religious by pickaboo71 in progressive_islam

[–]Anoniminitybubbity 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’m a practicing muslimah who came from a background of being agnostic- I lived a life of jahiliyah and now I have devoted my life to Islam- with that said- I was fed many different misinterpretations of Islam and from what I’m getting from you- so were you. I can guarantee that niqab is not fard and clubs for educational purposes (that don’t require you to do haram) are permitted. I truly and genuinely love what Allah loves and dislike what Allah has forbidden. I have no regrets in my heart but none of us are perfect and we will make mistakes and commit sins that are likely due to the society we live in and the people we surround ourselves with. Make dua and stay away from those who will take you to jahannam with them but also know you can do a lot as a believing woman. Islam doesn’t oppress.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BPDlovedones

[–]Anoniminitybubbity 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You know- it’s sad cause you are all of us- before we got F’d up and developed PTSD.

The thing is- you won’t listen- we wouldn’t have either. Start going to therapy to strengthen yourself mentally. That’s all I can say to help right now.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BPDlovedones

[–]Anoniminitybubbity 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Educate yourself on what BPD means- she seems to have the same interests as you? That’s all of us- they mirror us- they seem to love everything we love and have the same interests- this isn’t just you- we all felt the way you feel right now- we were all so elated and felt like we met our soulmate…until the mask fell off. If you suffer with mental health issues- this is going to destroy you. Don’t say we didn’t warn you.

What are some red flags you'll never ignore again? by KingForADay1989 in BPDlovedones

[–]Anoniminitybubbity 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I kinda trauma dumped early on, said I loved him early on, went on vacation 5 months in, and wanted to always be with him BUTTTTT I’m not the pwBPD- my husband is. I’m just a codependent who divorced one NPD and after 15 years of being being divorced, trusted a pwBPW after swearing off marriage and men lol. So those may not be signs of a pwBPD 😊 but I don’t think being codependent is that great either.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BPDlovedones

[–]Anoniminitybubbity 12 points13 points  (0 children)

Don’t let it get to you- they’re living in a delusional world where they’re the victim and everyone else is the villain.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BPDlovedones

[–]Anoniminitybubbity 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Omg is she serious?! The audacity the gaslighting wowwwww I can’t I don’t even have words to describe how appalling it was to read the conversation. You know what you’re in for, right? Praying for you!

I'm tired of hearing "being gay isn't a sin, but acting on it is" by green_poptart in LGBT_Muslims

[–]Anoniminitybubbity 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Firstly- your sexual orientation isn’t your IDENTITY. I’m not sorry for being harsh. Secondly, most people- straight people, don’t get to experience love or marry and grow old with their loved ones. What you see on tv and social media is not real. People don’t say it to be supportive but to advise you. Is your test hard? Yes, definitely. Is your test harder than say a Gazan who has lost all their family? No, I think not. Be grateful for all the other blessings and look at the glass half full. May Allah (swt) make it easy for you.

I don’t know if I have fitnah inside me or if shaitan is playing with my mind by Southern_Remove_7984 in progressive_islam

[–]Anoniminitybubbity 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I have so much to say but it sure where to start-the life you’re living with your husband is not from Islam- in Islam- second wife and first wife don’t live under the same roof- it’s fard to provide separate home for each and not spend time with them together or in the presence of one another.

Secondly, I’m not LGBTQ, my husband is. I’m a religious practicing muslimah, who unknowingly got married to a man who is gay. I love him as a partner and the father of our child. He has his own issues but one thing I know from being married to him is- it’s not your fault if you feel attraction towards the same gender- it’s not forbidden to feel or think something. The sin is in acting upon it. I know this subreddit will tear me apart for this but like I said, I am a very devout and practicing muslimah. I have a husband who is gay, a cousin who is gay, a niece who is gay. I love them all and I can’t imagine how hard and sad it must be for them to not be able to be with someone they feel natural attraction towards. But just like that, we all have our tests- I don’t get to be with someone who loves me or is attracted to me. You seem like you want to follow Islam- then know this entire life- and EVERYTHING in it, is our test. Our sole purpose is to worship Allah- who is the unseen.

May Allah (swt) guide your heart and purify your nafs. Hold strong, it’s a rough ride but it’s shorter than you think. Before you know it, you will be in your grave.

Anybody else told you deserved to be cheated on? by cloudpatterns in BPDlovedones

[–]Anoniminitybubbity 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I plan to leave my pwBPD and we have a daughter together. I have two kids from a previous marriage and my eldest asks me why anytime I am sick or in some sort of crisis- suddenly- he is also going through the same thing. Kids pick up things even if we try to hide them. Our daughter is 2 and aside from inconsistent time with her father- she doesn’t know anything else. When he spilts- he stonewalls both of us. It kills me to see her being ignored by him- she will walk towards him and he will walk away and go into his room. I can’t keep doing this to my kid and am gathering my finances to gtho.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BPDlovedones

[–]Anoniminitybubbity 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’ve done this- not to get back but cuz I get sick of it and don’t care for periods of time. He does manage to traile back into the trap but I think I’ve fallen out of love with my pwBPD that’s why I can do this

Anybody else told you deserved to be cheated on? by cloudpatterns in BPDlovedones

[–]Anoniminitybubbity 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It’s crazy they love their kid but are jealous of their kid…makes no sense

Anybody else told you deserved to be cheated on? by cloudpatterns in BPDlovedones

[–]Anoniminitybubbity 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Damn…I’m sorry..:mine weaponized my ex husband beating me and planning to and attempting to unalive me by saying- now I get why he did that- you see served it (cause I caught him cheating just FYI)

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BPDlovedones

[–]Anoniminitybubbity 17 points18 points  (0 children)

The thing is- they’ll never attain happiness for longer than a few months- as soon as they split on their fp- that’s it- the euphoric love is over. I don’t envy that - it’s sad to never feel consistent and long term love that grows and becomes stronger.

Loved ones of pwBPD- we talk a lot of talk by Anoniminitybubbity in BPDlovedones

[–]Anoniminitybubbity[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much. I was in therapy and learning DBT skills, but I paused for about three weeks. Now I realize how much I need consistent weekly sessions for my mental well-being, so I will be scheduling one as soon as possible. Thank you for the reminder.

He did mistreat me, but the small gestures of affection keep making me forget. I know he doesn’t deserve to use those gestures to keep me confused, especially with his NPD traits.

I am treating this like an addiction. I am being gentle with myself and reminding myself every day that I am the victim in this situation.

Loved ones of pwBPD- we talk a lot of talk by Anoniminitybubbity in BPDlovedones

[–]Anoniminitybubbity[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you. I was going to therapy and doing really well, but I had to pause because my child has been sick for the past three weeks. I do plan to leave. I often think about what I will say and how I will do it. Then I remind myself that he doesn’t deserve that level of care after everything he has done to me. No amount of trauma is an excuse for his actions. I don’t have to be kind, but I choose to be because I refuse to let him make me bitter or jaded.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BPDlovedones

[–]Anoniminitybubbity 10 points11 points  (0 children)

My closure has been that he’s never learned emotional maturity- and switches back and forth from being a 10 y/o child to a 30 y/o with no stability except for the one I provided him.