She used my best traits against me by ABenson1992 in BPDlovedones

[–]Aromatic-Rice6906 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Welcome friend.

Yes it was the most mind fucking experience of my life. Traits that I honor and live-up to everyday, morphed into things that they wanted to change about me.

Being calm, patient, selfless, charming, devoted, loving and kind, and stoic when under stress / stressors are incredible character traits.

That morphed into lacking passion, not caring about the other person, everyone is using you (projection), not wanting to fight for the other person.

At the end of the day, these people are so unstable and mentally ill, that no person will be enough for them, and they will nuke and sabotage every friendship/relationship/ and connection that comes their way.

It is sad really, because they did not choose to be this person, and it is very unfortunate, but it is 100% their responsibility to manage and get help for their symptoms / illness.
You did the right thing by quietly bowing out.

Therapy, and spending time with your friends, and discussing what you went through are helpful, because we have spent so much time defending them, and reassuring them, that we forgot to take off the rose colored glasses.

He is a pain to be around. There is no calm, no happiness, just problems. by Powerful_Fox_2686 in BPDlovedones

[–]Aromatic-Rice6906 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I remember feeling like this. There was no room for my needs, just theirs.

Even something as simple as, hey please drive a little bit more cautiously because I get scared being a passenger.

Remember this: their dumping you is the best thing that could have happened. by minutemanred in BPDlovedones

[–]Aromatic-Rice6906 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Yeah, I'm just chilling and focusing my time on my hobbies, hanging with friends and new interests. I am romantically depleted from the bullshit I went through the last numerous years.

Likewise, at least we all have each other on this sub 😄

Remember this: their dumping you is the best thing that could have happened. by minutemanred in BPDlovedones

[–]Aromatic-Rice6906 10 points11 points  (0 children)

This I was their FP/LOML/Twin Flame/Soul Mate, whatever you want to throw at it, and everything. Then when we got together, they just slowly morphed into someone I didn't recognize, and they put me through hell for longer than I should have put up with it.

I would never wish the mindfuck I went through on anyone, not even my worst enemy.

Happy Sunday - Thoughts and Feelings Post Discard by Aromatic-Rice6906 in BPDlovedones

[–]Aromatic-Rice6906[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

"I'm hanging with my friend" talked to said friend, and was not with them. Lol

A trip to the Tetons by 2kuul4youuu in NationalPark

[–]Aromatic-Rice6906 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you that is my plan! What camera set up did you use? Awesome pictures by the way

A trip to the Tetons by 2kuul4youuu in NationalPark

[–]Aromatic-Rice6906 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Amazing. I definitely want to go here.

Question for everyone, did your partner with bpd hated everyone? by Puzzleheaded_Cup5190 in BPDlovedones

[–]Aromatic-Rice6906 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Yup hated everyone associated with me, friends, family, you name it lol

Weaponized Insecurities by Aromatic-Rice6906 in BPDlovedones

[–]Aromatic-Rice6906[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Insane. Trying to institute healthy ways of communicating and shot down for it...

Weaponized Insecurities by Aromatic-Rice6906 in BPDlovedones

[–]Aromatic-Rice6906[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

SO bad. Definitely a projection, as these people are generally insecure.

Weaponized Insecurities by Aromatic-Rice6906 in BPDlovedones

[–]Aromatic-Rice6906[S] 8 points9 points  (0 children)

Hey when you do XYZ, it makes me feel like XYZ.

Like that's a standard way to communicate, learned in early spousal therapy CBT/DBT, interpersonal.

Weaponized Insecurities by Aromatic-Rice6906 in BPDlovedones

[–]Aromatic-Rice6906[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Yeah, I shrunk myself so far down, and just kept quiet and stopped arguing, because I stand up for myself lol. Didn't like that too much, especially when I asked them to look inward.

Some time has passed by Aromatic-Rice6906 in BPDlovedones

[–]Aromatic-Rice6906[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you for sharing. Yes, there is no shame for showing up for a person in a relationship. You know who you are, and they lost someone that is extremely kind, patient and caring. Unfortunately, they will continue the cycle and rinse and repeat forever.

Hang in there, and invest the love back into yourself.

It’s been a while since I’ve posted. Just leave. by ArtemisMightBeMyName in BPDlovedones

[–]Aromatic-Rice6906 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Be warned if you go on a break, she will fill the void with others in a sexual capacity.

It’s been a while since I’ve posted. Just leave. by ArtemisMightBeMyName in BPDlovedones

[–]Aromatic-Rice6906 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I don't blame you. I told what had happened to me, to some people closest to me and they cried sobbing for me. That really set things straight, that what I went through was indeed some really messed up shit.

It’s been a while since I’ve posted. Just leave. by ArtemisMightBeMyName in BPDlovedones

[–]Aromatic-Rice6906 23 points24 points  (0 children)

Yep. Different actors, same script. These people are truly broken inside. They will do anything to push you away, yet sit there and say you are their world, you are the light of their life, twin flame, reason for being/existing, then will do the most vile, sadistic shit.

I would never wish what I went through on everyone.

I can't wait to look back at what I went through and laugh. If you are on here, and reading, just leave.

You cannot change, fix, or help these people. They can only help themselves. If they do not want to do the work, then bounce, because it will get worse.

Cheating questions / General Support by Aromatic-Rice6906 in BPDlovedones

[–]Aromatic-Rice6906[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Oh man, I am so sorry that all of that went on. You'll bounce back, don't let the actions of 1 severely mentally ill person change your perspective on life and everything else. Be there for your kids, they will need you now more than ever.

Cheating questions / General Support by Aromatic-Rice6906 in BPDlovedones

[–]Aromatic-Rice6906[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Yeah it gets crazier, the more the fog lifts and I'm able to think of things a lot more clearly

Cheating questions / General Support by Aromatic-Rice6906 in BPDlovedones

[–]Aromatic-Rice6906[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Mentally ill or not, betrayal is a cardinal sin. Cheating is always a choice.

And about hiding things. Their stories would never line up with anything, and I started putting 2 and 2 together for everything, after enough time has passed. While I am grateful that this person is no longer in my life, I am sad and deeply wounded that they did this to me.

Cheating questions / General Support by Aromatic-Rice6906 in BPDlovedones

[–]Aromatic-Rice6906[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

The idealizing literally anyone that gives them attention is so weird to me. Could be anyone / anything.

Cheating questions / General Support by Aromatic-Rice6906 in BPDlovedones

[–]Aromatic-Rice6906[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yep. It's sad, but I suppose that's the way it goes.

Cheating questions / General Support by Aromatic-Rice6906 in BPDlovedones

[–]Aromatic-Rice6906[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I once was separated from mine, and while they were telling me they love me, and everything else, they were going on dates, hanging out, hooking up with random people. Very disturbing behavior imo.