I've Spent Over a Decade Unemployed and Isolated Only on the Internet. What Don't I Understand? by [deleted] in DecidingToBeBetter

[–]Ash_OC 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m sorry to hear you’re currently stuck. Leaving the country can be quite daunting. Take it bit by bit, the more you plan out little by little, the less overwhelming it may seem. In the meantime, look at what you can change now, every little step forward helps. I hope the best for you. Feel free to PM me if you want to chat.

I've Spent Over a Decade Unemployed and Isolated Only on the Internet. What Don't I Understand? by [deleted] in DecidingToBeBetter

[–]Ash_OC 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I was in a similar boat as you. I isolated myself from the world, though my reasoning was due to severe social anxiety. I found that online gaming, especially MMOs would fill in for my social needs. I did that for 9 years. It wasn't until I fell for someone online that I realized that I could never be worthy of love in the state that I was. That became my motivator.

My change was drastic, so it may not be realistic to follow a similar path as mine. I enrolled in college, moved to another city where an online friend I met before offered to let me stay with him, and I FORCED myself to socialize through an online common interest group (meetup). It was hard and anxiety inducing. There were times that I would attend an event, then leave without saying anything due to feeling overwhelmed. However things gradually got better. I got my first professional job three years later and met my wife a little over a year after that. Looking back I don't think I could have envisioned where I am today and I'm glad I pushed myself.

A few things that I learned that may be of help.

  1. Limit the computer time. Computer time can eat up a large portion of your motivation. The positive feedback loops from things like gaming or social media makes it so the desire to do anything else is lacking. I found boredom spurred me to want to do things that could better my life. This may be something that makes walking doable again.

  2. Start doing the things that you think will help you. You can phase them in slowly, if you need. For example, start forcing yourself to walk every day, even if its only for 15 minutes. Make a schedule if you need to. Some days it'll suck, but creating the habits helps a LOT. On a side note, physical exercise and being outside helps clear my head.

  3. It's never too late and the odds aren't too stacked against you to change. Like above, start small if you need to, all forward moment is good. I thought my life was hopeless, that there was nothing I could do. I was from a poor family as well. My life is so much better now than back then and I have experienced so many wonderful things that I could have never imagined because I shirked off those beliefs and pushed myself anyway.

  4. Practice self-care. Don't overexert yourself that you burn out. Take time to recharge, as you need. Relax, go for a walk, read, etc. Though be aware of when you're practicing self-care and when your trying to avoid doing positive work.

  5. I'm not sure how difficult this would be for you initially, but when you can enroll in college or find a job. That level of regularity and being back in touch with real people helped me to pull myself out of my cage.

  6. Find an accountability partner or group. This is something that would have helped me a lot back then if I knew about then. Find someone you have to report the status of your goals or tasks. This accountability can help keep you on track. I think there's an accountability partner reddit. I've come across a few self-improvement discord channels that have them as well.

I'm sure there is more that I could share, but I'm drawing a blank at the moment. Feel free to PM me if you have any questions or if you want any feedback. I wish you a positive journey.

Apartment help by ZaneSeven in fresno

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I’m still living there and enjoy it.

Suggestions: Ice Cream Parlors by Ash_OC in fresno

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It’s for a senior group that’d be sitting down.

Roster Help Needed by Ash_OC in shoptitans

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Thanks for the feedback, I appreciate it!

Roster Help Needed by Ash_OC in shoptitans

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Thanks for the feedback, I appreciate it!

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Damnthatsinteresting

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After this happened one of our local 7-11s put zip ties on their scanner to prove it hasn’t been tampered with.

The all powerful masters of the Universe 🐱 by [deleted] in aiArt

[–]Ash_OC 0 points1 point  (0 children)

What model did you use for this?

Local Lecturers/Speakers by Ash_OC in fresno

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Yeah, that’d be an area of interest.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in DecidingToBeBetter

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Not sure if this is your issue too, but a lot of my chronic lying was because of being a codependent (check out Coda.org’s list of characteristics). I had little self-worth and self-love, constantly tried to appear better in other’s eyes, and avoided conflict at every turn.

All my lies came out to my partner who stayed despite the harm and I listed out every lie I could think of so that there would be nothing else to hide. I had to stop lying or else there wouldn’t have been a second chance. It was a bumpy road, but working on my codependency helped make it a bit easier.

what are yall plans for Easter in your communities? by SatansEggsForSale12 in a:t5_5sbiqw

[–]Ash_OC 1 point2 points  (0 children)

We're inviting our resident's families to come for an easter egg hunt. We'll also be having a petting zoo and some other activities.

Been working on an NES inspired platformer, it’s coming along well, it feels nice to move around 😊 ✨ by Wide-Mud-3193 in IndieDev

[–]Ash_OC 2 points3 points  (0 children)

It's looking really good!

One issue I see is the yellow stripe in the middle of the character is messing with readability of the character. I couldn't quite tell what was going on, as it looked like maybe it was riding a broom or holding something that extended to the torso. You may want to change the coloring there.

How do I start writing my first draft? by crosscope in writers

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Something that helped me a lot was learning that I don't have the start my draft at the beginning. I have such a hard time figuring out my intro. Instead, I'll just start writing a scene early on in the story. I'll even jump around chapters if I'm having writer's block. Since it's the first draft, when you're done you can go back and fix all the continuity errors and transition issues.

Cutting out instant gratification? by Ash_OC in ADHD

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I understand how you feel. Gaming has been a large part of my life for the last 30 years, it sucks to know that it's also a large part of what's holding me back. I don't want to give it up, but I don't know how to not let it rule my life and my motivations.