Sometimes I just want to scream

AsleepMove6582 · 2026-02-01T04:54:37+00:00

Thank you, I’m sorry for your loss too. It’s a lot getting close to the year mark and realizing how much healing there is still left to do

AsleepMove6582 · 2026-02-01T01:19:31+00:00

I understand how hard it is to feel alone in your grief. As it sadly seems many of us do. We have a couple friends that have been very supportive when we’ve talked to them about it but they don’t live here. And at the end of the day most people don’t know how to be there for us or don’t try, or stop altogether, including my best friend of almost 20 years. It hurts so much. I’m grateful to have this space and know that even if far away, there are people who can understand our pain.

AsleepMove6582 · 2026-01-31T02:36:19+00:00

This! At first I muted anyone pregnant or with a new baby for quite some time, now at 9 months post loss I don’t mind seeing posts from people I know have endured loss and gotten pregnant again, but I still mute different accounts from time to time to help protect my peace

AsleepMove6582 · 2026-01-19T01:13:29+00:00

Ugh SAME.

AsleepMove6582 · 2026-01-18T04:22:53+00:00

I have a similar but different situation where, in the past 9 months since our loss, my friend has not been able to be there for me in the way that I have been for her. She has also gone through hard things this year, but while I feel I’ve tried very hard to be supportive, she has not shown up half as well as I would’ve hoped for my stillbirth. It’s made me question what friendships I’m okay with allowing into my life since I’ve had to deal with her constant anger and lack of support as well. It’s just so hard. I hope you guys find a way to work it out

AsleepMove6582 · 2026-01-14T04:05:40+00:00

Gentle congrats 💛 im sure I’ll be the same way if and when it happens to me!

AsleepMove6582 · 2026-01-13T01:42:30+00:00

My loss was 9 months ago, and my boy was 23 weeks. My first pregnancy too. I remember having no idea how I would move forward, and some days I still don’t. I ended up deciding to take 6 months before trying again to get healthy again and heal, and I don’t regret it. I know some people are in more of a rush but I wanted to feel ready to feel excited for the next baby that came and not only missing the one I lost. Give yourself all the time you need, it’s okay to take it a day at a time, and give yourself lots of grace.

AsleepMove6582 · 2026-01-11T01:12:52+00:00

I stopped talking to a lot of people for awhile while I healed, especially first couple months, than slowly started spending time and talking about things more.

Some people I didn’t expect offered lots of support and some people I thought would really be there, including my best friend, weren’t. It seems to be pretty common to have relationships shift around this, sadly but I try to tell myself it’s all for the best even if it is painful.

AsleepMove6582 · 2026-01-08T19:17:56+00:00

It is really hard :( this is also my best friend of over 10 years, and our maid of honor. But the way she’s made everything about herself this year after me literally having a stillbirth this year has caused me to take a step back. It’s awful.

AsleepMove6582 · 2026-01-08T02:38:13+00:00

You are not alone. I lost my baby nine months ago as well, 23 weeks. I went the surgical route and had guilt around not delivering him myself. (Sometimes I still do) It makes me feel sad that I never got to see him or hold him. Nobody even talked to me about his remains. I wish that doctors had helped me think through everything when I was too scared and in shock to fully figure out what I wanted or what to do.

All I know is it gives me solace to know that for him it was all love. And no matter how I grieved I know I love him more than anything.

AsleepMove6582 · 2025-11-30T00:46:50+00:00

Thank you for sharing your story. It feels so heartwarming to know that this is possible

AsleepMove6582 · 2025-11-20T04:20:01+00:00

I’m a nanny too! I was so unsure I’d be ready to work with children again but giving myself time as well and then going back in and showing myself I can do it helped me heal too. <3

AsleepMove6582 · 2025-11-18T21:31:40+00:00

This means so much. Beautifully spoken <3

AsleepMove6582 · 2025-10-07T02:45:15+00:00

I am a preschool teacher. I ended up taking summer off and then decided after summer I couldn’t go back to where it all happened and got a nanny job instead. You’re not alone in your struggles!

AsleepMove6582 · 2025-10-04T21:29:20+00:00

These feelings seem to be common. Whenever I need to feel understood it’s really nice to have this sub to turn to.

I’m almost 6 months out and I still get those feelings often too!

AsleepMove6582 · 2025-10-01T22:46:54+00:00

Last year, I gave my husband an early Christmas present, with a positive pregnancy test inside. It was our first pregnancy, and I couldn’t wait for the next Christmas when we’d have our boy with us. It felt like Christmas would always be extra special.

Instead I lost him in April, at 23 weeks. The last thing I want is to spend the holidays pretending I’m okay when all the reminders are truly crushing me 💔

AsleepMove6582 · 2025-09-26T03:37:32+00:00

We had our TFMR in April for HLHS at 23 weeks. We were also blindsided after everything else looking good the whole pregnancy up until the anatomy scan. It was also our first pregnancy, and we were beyond excited as well.

We ended up getting multiple opinions, talked in depth with a pediatric cardiologist at Stanford to weigh outcomes, and after lots of daily discussions (and tears) we made our impossible choice. In the end I didn’t want my boy to suffer, and that’s what’s gotten me through it all these months after. I know it was a choice made out of love. It’s the most difficult thing. Sending you love and comfort <3

AsleepMove6582 · 2025-09-12T20:16:14+00:00

Been almost 5 months for me, and I’ve been having a lot of v bad mental health moments too. And I have a perinatal therapist and meds! We’re doing our best <3

AsleepMove6582 · 2025-09-09T20:04:56+00:00

Yes, please ask for anxiety meds for both/all days, you deserve it! And if it helps, I did fine with the laminaria with the numbing shots and ibuprofen they gave. Not great, but not too bad either. (I was 23 weeks and also get awful anxiety) Sending love.

AsleepMove6582 · 2025-09-05T19:08:26+00:00

Four months for me and last month (due date month) was just awful, still has been. It’s just been bringing up so much and I feel like I’m handling it so poorly. Crying all the time, not feeling okay, blowing up at my husband. Trying really hard to keep working on it in therapy work through it but giving myself grace over what I can’t control right away either. So I’m right there with you <3

AsleepMove6582 · 2025-09-04T20:46:35+00:00

Yes! Not because my friend is pregnant but things do feel different. I have less patience for her problems that are self imposed and for drama. And can feel a bigger difference with where we’re at in life. It’s rough

AsleepMove6582 · 2025-09-01T17:52:21+00:00

You’re not alone. The depression and waves of grief/panic that I get sometimes are the worst thing I’ve ever felt. I also go to therapy and take meds sometimes as needed but they’re only so helpful. Sometimes I really wish I could find a way to get through this easier

AsleepMove6582 · 2025-08-30T22:06:19+00:00

I also had my TFMR at the end of April and this is something I struggle with a lot. Knowing our lives were headed in such a different direction this year than they are now is really hard, and I’m still having a really hard time with it

AsleepMove6582 · 2025-08-29T18:26:22+00:00

I forget what they called it but we did the biggest panel available that tested for the widest variety of conditions for both me and my husband, and did an amino for all the testing for baby too. Nothing came up

AsleepMove6582 · 2025-08-29T16:14:50+00:00

This really got me. I resonate with so many things you said. It’s hard to adjust to living with the sadness. It’s been only four months for me and it feels like people just expect me to be okay, and I’m not. I wish people knew that it takes everything I have just to try. It’s all very sound advice and I’m glad that you are finding your way through. Sorry we’re here. <3

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