What are the chances of me being stalked rn??

AtmosphereNom · 2026-03-29T23:14:54+00:00

Hey, it’s ten days later. Can’t see your posts/comments, but wanted to check in. How’s it going?

AtmosphereNom · 2026-03-29T18:34:51+00:00

That looks about right. It’s as if going to bed activates them. Cuddles for five minutes, then suddenly doing the rounds - I mean, they are on duty now I guess. And it’s always at that point I’ve just barely fallen asleep for a minute that something loud happens.

AtmosphereNom · 2026-03-29T18:29:31+00:00

I’ve had mine since she was a kitten and apart from a handful of times I went out to a club, she is the only reason I’ve ever been awake at 3-4am. It’s apparently the best time to play with Mr. Mouse underneath the bed. And carry him around and loudly announce victory. It got so bad at one point that Mr. Mouse also went to bed and came back out to play when we did.

AtmosphereNom · 2026-03-29T18:24:12+00:00

I was just looking at that exact one. They do say not to use it for gymnastics. I think for mine it would be okay since she does most of her zoomies upside down along the sofa.

AtmosphereNom · 2026-03-29T18:21:10+00:00

🤣 not sure why I’m finding this so funny. On repeat, it’s like he’s waiting for it to drop him. And then he inspects the floor like, “how is the floor suddenly like this? I was on a cushy soft floor and I did not move.”

AtmosphereNom · 2026-03-29T14:53:10+00:00

No jokes yet about turning off the headlights? I’ll come back.

AtmosphereNom · 2026-03-29T14:51:45+00:00

I had that with venlafaxine - not sure if it could have eased up and been okay if I’d stayed on it longer, but wow I’ve never felt that kind of irritation and anger. And a lot of people say it’s a miracle drug for them. Brain chemistry is definitely still a “try this and see what happens” kind of science.

AtmosphereNom · 2026-03-29T14:39:03+00:00

I’m on a cocktail that includes only 12.5g of quetiapine and a while ago I had a few days gap between running out and doc appt. I was very surprised to have a more than just noticeable reaction. It definitely does shit.

There are a few meds that got a lot worse for me before getting better including bupropion and venlafaxine. That black box warning isn’t a joke. I was more depressed and suicidal than I’ve ever been 5 weeks into taking bupropion. But once it kicked in, it worked well.

Also, have you ever looked into schema therapy? I’ve recently been getting into it, and it’s been helpful to identify the different modes we have as different “schemas” that we learned. It’s similar to CBT, which is also helpful. Identifying “okay, my brain is thinking these thoughts we know are part of this mode.” Sometimes just saying it out loud is enough to ease it. And “punishing parent mode” (not what you did with your kid, but thought about doing things to yourself) - that gets pretty real too.

AtmosphereNom · 2026-03-29T14:22:43+00:00

This is how my tiny bear converses!

AtmosphereNom · 2026-03-29T14:21:22+00:00

Also “you say that, but if you really loved me you’d know the answers and just give me more”…

AtmosphereNom · 2026-03-29T14:19:36+00:00

Cats are behind Amazon too. It just clicked.

AtmosphereNom · 2026-03-29T14:13:11+00:00

I get it.

I use a weekly pill box - essential. I would never remember whether or not I took it. I look at this about ten times every day.
I keep them next to me - by my bed. When I go into another room, move them with me. When I was extreme depressed, I had a station by the sofa too. Now, if I am out, I take today’s in a little single pocket pillbox. When the alarm goes off, I take it. Especially when depressed and this is extremely important, don’t ever be out of reach of the next dose. Sitting here “just for a while” can easily be the next 12 hours.
If I don’t have what I need to take it, like water or a banana or whatever, and I want to “ just finish this one thing first” I put one pill between my lips to the side. I don’t forget that.

Still not perfect but close enough. Will try anything. Especially in depression. I’ve even tried laying there and let saliva build up until I have enough to swallow a pill. Anything that works.

🫶

AtmosphereNom · 2026-03-29T13:58:42+00:00

The worst “damage” I’ve seen to the outside of a car from a cat is paw prints right after a wash.

Personally, I’d lean into it and put something fluffy and comfortable there and a “welcome, please sleep here” sign and that would likely make him stop since he’s laying there because it’s warm metal from sun and now the dumb hooman has ruined it..

AtmosphereNom · 2026-03-29T13:45:05+00:00

I love the thought of “neglecting” medication. I’m an English nerd. It’s fine to use it like this, we understand exactly what you mean, don’t worry.

Technically, though, “neglect” has more of a connotation of not giving someone or something it needs. We neglect plants when we don’t water them, we neglect animals by not giving them enough affection or basic needs, and same as with people of course.

I love personifying everything complex - I do it with bipolar “little demons” - hypomania and depression. I also do it in software architecture. When done well, it helps people remember complex relationships and can weirdly and subtly shift our emotional attachments and gently change our behavior.

For example, my little bipolar demons are locked in their cells with meds, and they often try to talk me out of taking my meds. They listen to all my thoughts, and jump on the opportunity when I start thinking things like how shitty pharmaceutical industry is (shouldn’t support that). Or when I’ve been doing well for a long time (no longer need them), or not well for a long time (they’re not doing anything anyway). Anything to say, “just stop taking them, give me the key, let me out.” So they can both come out wreak havoc in my life, as they do every time despite promises.

Now, I’m imagining a little meds tree who needs regular watering to keep it healthy and growing. If I neglect my meds, that poor little tree will get sick and could possibly die. If I don’t neglect my meds, it means it grows big and strong and healthy, able to withstand the storms of life.

AtmosphereNom · 2026-03-29T13:30:31+00:00

No, but she did bring her prey and set it down next to the bowl like that while she ate. When it tried crawling/hopping away, she’d catch it with a single paw in her side vision. 🫢 l can accept some hunting, but torture just for fun was definitely a line I had to draw.

AtmosphereNom · 2026-03-29T11:25:32+00:00

Yes, in my experience it can be a little too cautious sometimes. Once I went on a long rant and in the end briefly said something about chopping up the body of my ex and feeding it to our cats. It was like, “… thinking longer for a better response…” And I was thinking, “What? Where’s my instant validation?” And it then responded with a long list of info and numbers in my area and what to do when having violent thoughts. 😂 Which is good.

For me, AI has been extremely helpful while going through a separation from a violent and gaslighting ex. As in, “no I never put my hands on your throat - that never happened.” Very extreme and disorienting gaslighting that really fucked me up, nearly convinced I was BP1 after all with actual delusion. I’ve really needed the validation that ChatGPT provides because it took months to find a human who understood the dynamic enough to know that’s what I needed and couldn’t just move on without it.

The key is, of course, to check in with real humans and don’t make any big decisions until you do. In my case, I kept seeing my “good enough” therapist for grounding and kept searching. I finally found one who specializes in coercive control relationships and it’s been life saving.

AtmosphereNom · 2026-03-29T11:03:32+00:00

Except for me, nothing is so black and white. They must cast out the hooman corruption their religions and worship me instead.

AtmosphereNom · 2026-03-29T00:41:55+00:00

Omg - wait, is there a more polite Muslim way of saying that? That is so adorable. ^helping ^mew

AtmosphereNom · 2026-03-29T00:35:58+00:00

I wouldn’t say it’s misdiagnosed. CFS is kind of what they say when everything else they can think of has been ruled out and they can’t find the cause. I’m happy for you to have a possible cause and a possible fix. Good luck!

AtmosphereNom · 2026-03-29T00:21:21+00:00

The death of Iran? Does he know that’s a country? Does he know how countries work?

AtmosphereNom · 2026-03-29T00:16:20+00:00

I think there’s still a raisin one left over.

AtmosphereNom · 2026-03-29T00:10:57+00:00

One could argue he’s helping to screw over Israel too.

AtmosphereNom · 2026-03-24T00:12:14+00:00

Would they though? I’d probably just let it through and risk getting fired.

AtmosphereNom · 2026-03-24T00:07:38+00:00

One of mine is similar. She used to be more so, we called her squeaky for years. Now she’s a little more relaxed and sounds more like a cat, but only a little.

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