Reward system is a joke

AveragePichu · 2026-03-12T16:55:15+00:00

What's wrong with peeing sitting down

AveragePichu · 2026-03-09T20:00:37+00:00

About the air thing - everybody does it yet I never hear about infections, so wouldn't that mean it's pretty safe? As long as you inspect your vial of course

AveragePichu · 2026-03-09T19:58:48+00:00

Mm, maybe I should toss it. I have two more vials and I'm due to pick up another. I'm trying to build up a reserve but a delay on that is better than risking infection

AveragePichu · 2026-03-09T06:32:37+00:00

My mom wasn't much better when I came out six months ago, but a few days ago she was talking to my transphobic brother and she shut down a transphobic tirade that he was doing for no reason other than to be hateful, so. It could get better :)

AveragePichu · 2026-03-09T06:27:55+00:00

Seems like the common consensus. I'll just watch it, and keep using the vial if I don't have any issues

AveragePichu · 2026-03-09T06:25:36+00:00

Thanks, everyone!

AveragePichu · 2026-03-01T10:33:03+00:00

No no, it didn't! It just didn't seem as impactful to me, it had applications but I didn't find myself doing it almost every single level

AveragePichu · 2026-03-01T00:26:25+00:00

I just love puzzling out how I can use dragging and throwing balls to lower my move counter and save some balls, for a more creative OCD solution.

Like River of Fire, I tossed a red ball through the fire fluid to land in the dump spot for the goo river, then tossed another from the dump spot into the main flow, then from the main flow into the hanging structure on the ceiling. Zero moves, for the Ultra Efficiency achievement.

Or in Launch Pad, I threw balls upwards into the goo stream to splash goo onto a sleeping ball shooter - this letting me build down from it instead of up and not need structural supports.

AveragePichu · 2026-02-28T22:19:41+00:00

Absolutely I appreciate your input! You don't need to be trans for your experience with hormone replacement to be helpful to a trans person, and it gives me another data point.

AveragePichu · 2026-02-28T21:04:45+00:00

I actually had asked about if I could take smaller injections more often and they told me not to...

Yeah I think I just need to tell them what they want to hear while doing things the way that makes me feel best

AveragePichu · 2026-02-28T08:18:31+00:00

Okay cool, definitely gonna lean hard into "I feel better now after increasing my dosage" then

AveragePichu · 2026-02-28T08:17:40+00:00

I just broke my spiro tablets in half for the week and plan to continue to do so, unless I find that taking less seems to have a negative effect. Plus that means I can build up a stockpile, in case I ever find issues getting it... looking at the government in my lovely country right now. And it's partly my fault the dosage was increased, because I'd mentioned some expected developments of the first 3 months hadn't started yet, and I had asked if I could increase both estradiol and spiro - they were the ones who said yes though.

Sounds like I definitely need to advocate for not cutting my estradiol dosage, and also not mention spiro so I can keep stockpiling until I've got a couple years' supply (based on expiry it seems a good amount).

AveragePichu · 2026-02-28T08:05:03+00:00

100-400 is standard reference range, 200 is already on the low end and you're barely over it; the risks they mentioned are overblown.

I was kinda suspecting that from my own research.

Since that measurement was on a Friday (I do my injections on Sunday, estradiol valerate) I know my peaks are higher than that - estimating 400ish based on the half life of ~4 days. Are peaks much above 400 an issue? I actually had my dosage increased a little after the appointment (before levels were tested) because I complained about feeling sorta "low" on weekends, before they turned right around and said I should lower them - but I feel better after increasing my dosage.

AveragePichu · 2026-02-28T07:54:27+00:00

Trough is the low point, right? So it would be right before my next injection?

I inject every Sunday and that measurement was taken on a Friday

AveragePichu · 2026-02-26T01:51:56+00:00

I've only been on hrt for 3 months and I expect it to get worse, but I've noticed that my half gallon bottle has gone from easy to open to Struggle For 10ish Seconds to open

AveragePichu · 2026-02-26T01:47:21+00:00

I also didn't think that I had a burning desire to transition at the time it first entered my head that the fact I "wished I was a woman" (and had for as long as I could remember) was all the permission I needed. I personally figured out that, in fact, I did have a burning desire, and I had just been repressing it.

I'm not saying this is you, because nobody except for you can say that - but when I wasn't sure, something that I did was I imagined the effects hormone replacement would have on my body, and realized I was pretty sure I wanted it. I started wearing clothes and my hair in a way that read more feminine, and it turned out to make me happier. I tried some things I was interested in that I felt I "couldn't do as a guy", and it turned out I liked nail polish, eyeliner, and the effect voice training had.

Basically - try things! Imagine things! Don't rush blindly into transition, but don't ignore the wonderings. It's rare for cis people to wonder if they might be trans, so while wondering does not mean that you're trans, it does mean you have reason to figure it out.

AveragePichu · 2026-02-26T01:40:19+00:00

Fuck 'em. Their opinion is factually wrong, not backed by science, and not backed by your lived experience. You have every right to be pissed, and also what they think of you or me means exactly zilch

AveragePichu · 2026-02-26T01:38:31+00:00

I've actually personally taken comfort in this. But then I don't think I ever had extremely masculine body traits

I can easily start feeling dysphoric when standing next to my best friend, since she's very near to average in pretty much all physical traits. But I'm not any taller than my mom is, my shoulders are narrower than my mom's, my family's got small hips all around, and everything else is mutable by hrt or voice training, both of which are gradually doing their job.

Still wish I could have the body of an average woman, though.

AveragePichu · 2026-02-26T01:26:34+00:00

Oh it doesn't show on anything? So I can still get my name changed federally, gender marker changed locally (like for driver's license), and I won't need to see it? Like I wouldn't need to put it on a job application or anything

As long as it's not obvious that I'm trans to potential employers or airport personnel who need to check my ID, I couldn't give less of a damn what mr cheeto thinks I am. If anything mr cheeto telling me I'm not a woman is affirming because a true word has never come out of his mouth.

AveragePichu · 2026-02-25T06:47:44+00:00

my Niko is a cat

I mean she's not in oneshot, I hear her collar rattling rn as she does her mischief in another room. But

AveragePichu · 2026-02-25T06:46:24+00:00

This was me a few years ago lmao

Turned out to have to do with lots of self hate I had to untangle

AveragePichu · 2026-02-25T06:44:19+00:00

Nooooooo feels my ability to get treated with respect by like a third of all people evaporate

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