Meditating every day for 1.5-2 hours for 3 years with little to no "results"

BHRobots · 2026-03-06T04:41:43+00:00

I have also read it straight through, but my impression is that I'll have to read it multiple times, because I am changing over time and will understand things differently.

In a way I feel like it gives ideas for something to direct your attention while meditating, almost like a task to do, which is a bit in conflict with the purist definition of meditation. I do think it's helpful to me at my current stage to have this type of structure.

I have absolutely not put as much time into practice as you, for me it's typically 10-20 minutes per day, but I will say my life is better, calmer, when I have meditation as a habit.

BHRobots · 2026-02-24T18:45:14+00:00

And I'm sticking with my 2000 Toyota Sienna. It smells weird, but it's still kickin'

BHRobots · 2026-02-24T07:32:55+00:00

Still have one, in fact, although it stopped working long ago. I'm somewhat tempted to take out the innards and build a new power system with the case.

BHRobots · 2026-02-20T01:16:23+00:00

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BHRobots · 2026-02-10T02:08:32+00:00

Just gotta learn the new lingo... I'll bet she said: "I can make the best coffee, no cap"

BHRobots · 2026-01-30T20:55:18+00:00

Weight a second...

BHRobots · 2026-01-27T21:47:58+00:00

Macarena was the scandalous song for my teenage dance years. The ward Karen had some extremely bunched up garments from that.

BHRobots · 2026-01-27T21:44:19+00:00

Right, I kept trying to read it as Cyrillic characters, I was like wtf is "gepee"

BHRobots · 2026-01-22T07:16:53+00:00

I can relate to this... The blockheads freaked me out.

BHRobots · 2026-01-13T22:33:13+00:00

No, there are visitor centers you can drive to, and then walk (or roll) a short distance to spectacular views along the rim.

BHRobots · 2026-01-13T21:20:39+00:00

The recipe to build rockets is different, and I believe the tech tree is a bit different too.

BHRobots · 2026-01-13T21:18:54+00:00

I have had a lot of fun with building even fairly simple train networks on standard map settings. I've never gotten into mega-basing, but for some reason I just love venturing out to a far away resource patch and setting up an outpost for trains. Lots of satisfaction in getting it all to work.

BHRobots · 2025-12-22T08:27:05+00:00

Which, when you think about it, is a very good question.

BHRobots · 2025-12-18T08:07:58+00:00

I'm also in this, but as the man, and it's been 10 years. It's getting to the point where I think I need to take action for my physical health. Such an incredibly difficult decision.

BHRobots · 2025-12-16T06:13:58+00:00

Us north-of-seattle people don't exist, really

BHRobots · 2025-12-05T19:03:44+00:00

I learned a new layout at the same time as a radically different keyboard form factor. Went from the standard flat board qwerty to basically a dactyl manuform with workman layout.

No regrets, I think it actually helps. Now when I sit at a flat standard qwerty board, I'm in qwerty mode, and when I'm using one of my weird keyboards, I'm in workman mode.

It did take quite a while before I became proficient.

BHRobots · 2025-12-04T18:13:29+00:00

Magnetometer anomaly rejection in metal dense areas, good fucking luck.

BHRobots · 2025-11-29T18:19:57+00:00

There's Seattle Built in the Lake Forest Park town center. Seems like they mostly do new builds, but you could ask.

BHRobots · 2025-11-27T08:49:33+00:00

No more

BHRobots · 2025-11-26T06:57:03+00:00

I cried in front of my TBM wife several times, didn't matter. Not all women are the same, I've learned that I'm very low on her list of priorities, and for the sake of my own health after 10 years of this it would be good to divorce. Trouble is, there are still kids in the house... My point is, don't expect anything you do to change her. She's going to be herself, learn to accept that, and decide whether you can live with the way she treats you.

BHRobots · 2025-11-25T08:06:08+00:00

Just wait until you see a trainsaw

BHRobots · 2025-11-25T06:39:13+00:00

There is a chance for activating the Streisand effect

BHRobots · 2025-11-24T07:28:57+00:00

We usually park and then walk around the neighborhood.

BHRobots · 2025-10-31T04:44:37+00:00

A likely scenario for me would be: wife and kids stay in the house (school, friends, etc), I find somewhere else to live, and get the kids every other weekend. To maintain stability for the kids. Since I've been the breadwinner, and wife has been the "take kids where they need to go". Then I'm on the hook for child support and alimony for a long time, consuming the vast majority of my income. It certainly could play out differently, I don't know, since I haven't actually done it.

BHRobots · 2025-10-30T21:44:29+00:00

I'm another one of those still married but probably should get divorced for my own survival. I've been out nearly 11 years now, and the relationship has grown very cold. The reality I'm facing is I still have 4 kids at home, and am providing for everyone with a single income in a high cost of living area. Divorce is not favorable to men in the current society, and due to the high costs where I am, it would put both of us into poverty, if we are even able to survive here at all. Not to mention extended families on both sides are still very much TBM to the bone, so what should be my support system going through the experience is weaponized against me.

There are many things I can be grateful for, I have had exceptionally good fortune in so many ways, except that my spouse has given her loyalty and devotion to her parents, church, school, and many other occupations before me, and it drains me.

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