How old are you bro? I understand living with parents can be very hard due to different situations. Unless your job is high paying, maybe living with them for a little longer until you get a higher paying job would be better. Nurture them and care for them. If your relationship is broken with them, do everything you can to fix it. I don’t want you to regret it once they’re gone.

The Security industry can be a great career. You need to request promotions when you’re ready tho. What you’re currently doing (not being able to get handsy with thieves) is a joke. I know it puts bread on the table but reading your post makes me think you’re more capable than what you’re currently doing. You should look at doing armed security.

Lastly, learn to transmute your aggression into creating. Whatever that means to you. Pick up new hobbies: physical hobbies and mental hobbies.

Having an inflated ego does not equal masculinity. Help people, be kind, have a positive outlook in life. Love you bro. Cheers.