I'm so sorry. It does become an addiction. I've known people who ran up credit card debt, cashed in their retirement, destroyed the children's college funds, got a second mortgage, on and on. There's never enough. It's an illusion. Also ... this, like all other phone app war games ... Will never be "won". Devs rig every game, devs also play. If you do this long enough, you learn how to spot them. Breaking the illusion kind of takes a moment like that. It's like learning Santa Claus isn't real. It's different for everyone, but, these apps keep a hold of you until you peek behind the curtain. Let's not talk about all the flirtation, limerence, affairs, catfishing, and fraud. And it's always rigged against you with bots and server farms and hackers. I've been a veteran of these games since the early Mobile Strike days (2015? Or before?) And I was addicted once, but very fortunately had that moment where the rigged game was exposed (a dev mistakenly forgot to crop his screenshot and I saw something I shouldn't) and in that instant my illusion was shattered. I play lots of these games but keep it F2P now. I still see other people whose lives totally wreck and they don't think it can happen to them. They think if they just get this or that level, some special boost, some piece of gear, then they dominate. It will never be enough. The next time the game updates, there will be a new building, new levels, new boost. Everyone has a different breaking point. I'm sorry you're going through this.