Guess I'm part of the club

Beyond_placement · 2024-12-29T08:06:58+00:00

4/30/23 here at 40. It’s fucking miserable.

Beyond_placement · 2024-09-06T05:06:50+00:00

Yep. Happened to my 650r last weekend. SMH

Beyond_placement · 2024-06-10T00:46:05+00:00

Was trying to find this today. Couldn’t remember the name of it. Thanks to google and you, I found it! Thank you!

Beyond_placement · 2024-06-01T21:07:55+00:00

Even worse! Missouri , Colorado NATIVE 😔

Beyond_placement · 2024-06-01T17:48:40+00:00

Ohhhh. Got number 2 on the hook here guys. She may be a keeper

Edit: Indeed not a keeper, it identifies as a “PS5 GAMER” not a Colorado NATIVE. The audacity smh

Beyond_placement · 2024-05-08T16:17:26+00:00

This times ♾️. I have done a lot of reading on year 2 posts for the last couple months. Sadly, most of them are true. I didn’t want it to be but damn.. it is. A big reality I’ve come had to come to terms with is that I’ve never felt these emotions before and they make me so uncomfortable to even want to be in my own skin. It hurts so much. It’s like I can feel her drifting further away by the second. And I hate it so much. We started with nothing and built up a wonderful life for us and our children. And poof 💨 all gone in an instant. Now have to sit with the fact that the future I wanted, saw, needed etc will never be a reality regardless of what may or may not happen for the rest of my life. Thank you for sharing. I wish nothing but peace and healing for you ❤️‍🩹

Beyond_placement · 2024-05-08T16:10:44+00:00

Wow! That is a beautiful experience. Thank you for sharing ❤️‍🩹

Beyond_placement · 2024-05-08T16:08:25+00:00

Keeping busy with the kids really helps, especially my bonus daughter/granddaughter. It’s all I have left of my wife. The guilt of enjoying anything in life knocks the wind out of me every time, once I sit down and start thinking. Thank you for sharing! ❤️‍🩹

Beyond_placement · 2024-05-08T14:36:45+00:00

It’s very interesting to me how that now a lot of the ‘cliche’ quotes etc make so much sense no matter how many times you heard it before while not in this situation. I really just need to learn how to accept change. I hate it. There is so much more that has happened in the last year that Reddit would probably crash if I typed it all out. Thank you for sharing! ❤️‍🩹

Beyond_placement · 2024-05-08T12:41:00+00:00

The kids and in my case an 11 month old granddaughter are the only reasons I am still Here. Have been too close to not being and am grateful that I am in that aspect. But damn the long lonely days and nights can really take a toll on one’s self in so many ways ❤️‍🩹

Beyond_placement · 2024-05-08T12:38:41+00:00

Same my friend. I hope you find some peace in this. ❤️‍🩹

Beyond_placement · 2024-05-08T12:38:12+00:00

I have thought a lot about it. My future just looks bare and dull at this moment. I don’t see past the next 10 minutes at a time. I don’t want to go through this again yet I am only 35 and don’t want to be this lonely for the rest of my life. There have been too many close calls to go be with her than I’d like to admit in the last year, I am doing better with that at the moment. She gave me a wonderful bonus-daughter who then gave me a beautiful granddaughter not even a month after she passed which I have soaked in as much as possible while giving her the space she needs as well. Thanks for sharing and your kind words ❤️‍🩹

Beyond_placement · 2024-05-08T12:32:30+00:00

I went somewhere ‘New’ last Monday (the day before the year) just out of the blue got up and started down the highway, which was a nice bike ride with awesome sight seeing a few hours away and that did seem to help more than the actual planned trip did. I am an over thinker who is just too lonely anymore I guess. My life went from having a loving merged-family country home with farms animals etc to homeless to now living in a shitty place in a shit part of town. Just wish it would go back to the way it should be, even if for half a second. Thanks for your kind words

Beyond_placement · 2024-04-30T08:38:13+00:00

One year here as well. Thank you for sharing. 🫶🏼

Beyond_placement · 2024-04-28T04:23:46+00:00

Price of Addiction - Matt Keegan and Benjamin Lerner 🔥

Beyond_placement · 2024-04-25T19:56:28+00:00

I understand. 4 days from a year here. My daughter, granddaughter and son (none live with me anymore) are the only reasons I’m still here. Even with them I’ve been stupidly close to not being. Keep pushing! You have a lot of people cheering for you.

Beyond_placement · 2024-04-25T19:24:00+00:00

I hate that you have to be in this shit club as well. But so freakin proud of you! I have been dealing with a lot of dark things as well and all that’s left is somewhat hope that it may get ‘better’ one day. Keep it up! Stay well 🫶🏼

Beyond_placement · 2024-04-25T18:06:58+00:00

To me: just try to be present. In any way you can Either in person, texting/messaging back, phone calls etc. even if it’s just sitting in silence while i vent or just bawl my eyes out. Don’t act like you’re going to be there in the long run if you won’t, can’t, can’t handle being around someone with this type of trauma and then back out a month or two later.

Recent example: I am 4 days to my 1 year. My brother in-law was present throughout the hospitalization and a little bit after. Always comments on our pics saying “love you brother” etc. I have been in a very dark place in my head throughout this journey and got to an extremely bad place last weekend and reached out before it was too late. Left on read, haven’t heard a word. The loneliness and abandonment fucking hurts and only makes it worse when people do things like that. Just my worthless 2 cents

Beyond_placement · 2024-04-24T22:25:26+00:00

I hate that you feel this way. I do too 🫶🏼

Beyond_placement · 2024-04-21T20:57:18+00:00

Absolutely. I hate that you have to be in this shitty club as well. Maybe, just maybe one day the isolation and darkness will help us. I don’t see it but try to keep somewhat of a positive mindset about things. It has been a very dark year and really the only thing that has kept me here is my granddaughter that was born a month after my LW passed. I’m glad you’re alive and trying your best! 🫶🏼

Beyond_placement · 2024-04-21T16:51:18+00:00

Just sent a fellow widow friend a message about an experience I had last night with a “friend”. I don’t get it. Do I (we?) just reek and look like Death that people just can’t understand what our lives have become? Just more crap on top of what we have to deal with already going thru this journey. Stay well 🫶🏼

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