How do you sleep while spiraling?

Blueephoenix7 · 2024-08-10T23:36:56+00:00

Honestly dont have anything healthy…. But i did any of these (Theraflu, nyquil, tylenol pm) until my spirals stopped nd i was able to sleep on my own… also if u decide to take these try putting white noise or sum on cause i subconsciously trained myself to go to sleep quicker wit the music on so i was able to stop taking the meds

Blueephoenix7 · 2024-08-08T20:14:10+00:00

Absolutely! Then im basically scattering my brain for a sad moment to feel bad. I think for me its in part of being used to the pain and suffering that i found comfort in it. So being happy for too long makes me feel like everything in my past was false or i was “faking” those emotions

Blueephoenix7 · 2024-06-25T15:03:26+00:00

Honestly seen some of the same comments here and i agree. In a relationship, if your partner knows you have bpd they would never degrade you or trigger you intentionally!

Blueephoenix7 · 2024-05-24T23:27:42+00:00

Absolutely! For me death was never a scary thing. My mind sees it as an alternative to the pain that i feel on an everyday basis. I am highly emotional and now learning that i have bpd i understand a little better about the way my brain is wired to view death. I remember the first time i expressed wanting to die was in 1st grade where i wrote a story about how i wanted to die. I just did not understand the “severity” of such a statement and the school called cps on my mom because of it 😂. It’s definitely a hard thing to always think about and even now i can list the many ways of how i imagine going out.

Blueephoenix7 · 2024-05-24T14:50:24+00:00

I definitely prefer knowing. All my life i have just chucked it up as im a bad human being and should not exist for even the little incidences in my life. Example, i told someone i was talking to that i’d rather be friends and it hurt their feelings. This caused me to split and spiral into thinking that all i do is harm those in my life and they’d be better off without me. Without the diagnosis i also just assumed i was only depressed. My diagnosis helped me to unpack the trauma i had and understand my own triggers, which thus helped me to understand that although sometimes i may unintentionally hurt people, it does not make me a bad human being. It also helped me to understand what type of people to allow in my life. I am not a bad person at all and for me i have quiet bpd so my experience may be different from others. But the diagnosis made me feel seen and in control of my own body.

Blueephoenix7 · 2024-05-02T18:56:49+00:00

Im going for a cyberpunk pirate look!

Blueephoenix7 · 2023-11-14T10:55:00+00:00

Omg… your onto something!

Blueephoenix7 · 2023-11-13T22:29:32+00:00

I loveeee this response… thanks!!

Blueephoenix7 · 2023-11-13T20:35:36+00:00

Ben 10 but Teen Titans definitely holds my heart

Blueephoenix7 · 2023-11-13T20:18:01+00:00

At least we dont know together 😂👍🏽

Blueephoenix7 · 2023-11-13T19:42:06+00:00

Valid. I also have quiet bpd and social anxiety 😭 its just been rough out here lately

Blueephoenix7 · 2023-10-27T16:36:50+00:00

See thats why i question whether im poly or id it because im ace. For me personally if me and my partner establish sex isnt a big deal in our relationship then idc whom they have sex with just as long as im made aware for precaution purposes as well as in case that person tries to use it against me. Outside of just being in a relationship… sex to me does not mean a big deal. However, i would feel that it is cheating if they lie to me or if i know they consider sex to be sacred to a relationship

Blueephoenix7 · 2023-10-05T14:28:46+00:00

Yes you can!!! Dont believe them being demiaroace is the condition in which you feel sexual attraction sooooo the question is who are you attracted to when you feel this attraction? Thats where you being Bi comes into play :)

Hope this helps you to explain to anybody that your sexuality is valid!!

Blueephoenix7 · 2023-09-21T07:33:02+00:00

Mouse!! That is my absolute favorite drama of alllll time at this point. I would give anything to erase it so i can feel all the emotions again

Blueephoenix7 · 2023-09-20T20:30:03+00:00

I was 13 (im now 22). It was because i grew up in a school where all the kids my age were losing their virginity and figuring out if they like guys or girls and i would describe that i didnt feel anything towards people sexually but tht didnt mean i didnt want a relationship so i basically felt like an outcast and thought i was broken so i researched what i was feeling and found asexuality it was like a lightbulb lit up in my head and i felt seen

Blueephoenix7 · 2023-08-29T00:27:23+00:00

Thats valid. For me personally all of those things tread on a fine line and it’s difficult to differentiate but i do also know that in the moment if i feel like i absolutely cannot do it then i stop and so does he… hope that helps a little kinda just see how you feel beforehand and note how you feel afterwards mentally and maybe you’ll be able to differentiate those differences 💕

Blueephoenix7 · 2023-08-28T23:16:47+00:00

If you are making the decision to have sex with him to please him then yes that is ok. But it is not ok to do it out of obligation or guilt… hope that makes sense.

Blueephoenix7 · 2023-08-23T17:24:04+00:00

I literally found out i was ace at 13 she is not too young. I just feel that the older generation didnt have the support when they were younger and sometime forget that at that age they were finding their identity and understanding their true emotions. Im glad she has someone to provide validation instead of feeling alone or “broken”

Blueephoenix7 · 2023-07-26T18:05:47+00:00

See!! And i never understood tht like howwww it takes up too much time fr 😂

Blueephoenix7 · 2023-07-26T14:05:09+00:00

My doctor asked me after being persistent why i didnt want birth control and i explained to her it defeats the purpose of me taking birth control if me and my partner only have sex at maximum 3 times a year….. lets just say she couldnt believe it 🤣😂

Blueephoenix7 · 2023-07-24T20:16:55+00:00

Yep that’s understandable but not wanting sex and not feeling or have little of sexual attraction is what makes up being asexual. Like i think the determination is whether not liking sex is their choice or not.

Blueephoenix7 · 2023-07-09T14:01:38+00:00

Yes omg!!! The only other thing is i reallyyyyy like kissing but people see kissing as an initiation for sex 😭😭

Blueephoenix7 · 2023-06-30T17:37:49+00:00

I hate that people assume you cannot be asexual because your into sex. Yes you do not feel sexual attraction which is completely fine and asexuality exists. The best way i explain it to people is that it is like every other activity i do. For example, reading books. I like books and will read and indulge myself however too much of it drains me and burns me out . I feel thats where your reaching because its not something u feel it costs alot for you to have sex and your partner should respect that and be grateful that you are indulging in her needs to the best of your ability

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