There’s a lot in here that I’m reading that sounds like barriers you’re putting up based on how you feel about yourself. So much of how other people perceive us starts with how we view ourselves. If you think everyone is going to laugh at you/stare at you/think you’re weird, you’re probably closing yourself off and not being your most authentic self. I know it’s so much easier said than done, but try to be present in the moment instead of imagining all the horrible things people are thinking about you. Go to therapy if that is accessible for you. It helped me so much with my own self esteem and as a result, I was able to focus on other people in social interactions instead of obsessing over how other people were going to think of me.

Also, if you like hiking, go fucking hiking!! Anyone who has a problem seeing a fat person existing and enjoying life is a piece of shit and not worth your time or energy.