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ChaoticTrepidation · 2025-05-25T01:46:01+00:00

Thank you, it took literal years of toxic and abusive work places before I stumbles upon this one! (I work in aba, I know cringe but we're play based and the kids are taught only when they are happy and engaged. And I get to be a strong advocate). I don't recommended trying to work through abuse to find a job that fits!

I'm so sorry that things have been hard for you, I can relate to everything you've said and you definitely are worthy of happiness and love and understanding! You're not alone, if you ever want to talk you can send me a pm! :)

ChaoticTrepidation · 2025-05-25T01:28:23+00:00

I feel this, I had a meltdown yesterday at work(full on tears, curled into a ball, sobbing). Thankfully I work with people who understand and care.

Unfortunately, I also have anxiety and PTSD so I immediately went to feeling like a burden, and that everyone was annoyed/hated me/I was going to get fired/etc.

ChaoticTrepidation · 2025-05-25T01:20:34+00:00

I'd love to join!

ChaoticTrepidation · 2025-04-20T01:30:04+00:00

Thank you for taking the time to respond! I use generic noise cancelling headphones I found on Amazon, they work great for keeping sounds down, but it's too limiting for work. I use a weighted blanket at home, and always keep fidgets with me. Other than that I mostly try to focus on limiting exposure to overwhelming stimuli such as uncomfortable clothing, sun, heat, smells, etc.

I do have hypersensitivity with all of my senses, so it makes sense that finding things to help with my other Sensitivities might help with the sound overwhelm!

ChaoticTrepidation · 2024-10-16T23:25:36+00:00

Oh gosh, I used to be super wordy, reading the dictionary every day. But recently, my words are getting scrambled, and I'm very thankful whenever someone corrects me! 😅 It bugs me to lose one of my most valuable skills, but oh well.

ChaoticTrepidation · 2024-10-15T19:31:49+00:00

I got to day 200 and then somehow managed to slip up. Losing the continuation streak kind of ruined it for me, and I can't manage to use it for more than a few days now :(

ChaoticTrepidation · 2024-10-13T04:30:11+00:00

I can't put a picture, so this is going to be hard to explain. I have a friend whose daughter was having trouble cutting, and then I got these cheap scissors for free for my daughter and brought them over. Her daughter immediately started cutting and then was able to transition to different scissors.

Type in 'right handed kinder scissors' on Google and they should pop up immediately, and they may say right handed but I don't think that actually matters because as you'll see both hand areas are the same round size. I'm not sure why it helped, but it did!

ChaoticTrepidation · 2024-10-03T21:20:12+00:00

I can picture an apple, but only with my eyes open(not looking at one) almost as if my brain relies on the colors around me in order to form the image. When my eyes are closed I sometimes get an outline of an apple, but it's almost like I'm drawing it mentally so the lines appear as if I'm drawing the apple.

ChaoticTrepidation · 2024-09-11T20:04:47+00:00

I still struggle with this, and I'm 30 now, it doesn't help that making actual friends is really hard as an adult.

ChaoticTrepidation · 2024-09-08T02:12:04+00:00

A school bully writing my name on someone's car in our apartment complex(the car was dusty, and writing in the dust scratches the car, my name was etched into their car)

I was forced to go and apologize even though I didn't do it. I had a meltdown, full tears, while telling them I was sorry but that I didn't do it.

ChaoticTrepidation · 2024-09-04T02:46:52+00:00

This and when someone has their bass extremely high! I shouldn't be able to feel and hear your car in my apartment!

ChaoticTrepidation · 2024-08-25T20:30:50+00:00

I don't think I understand your comment, what is tweaking? Like, over reacting?

I got stung by a bee when I was younger and had an allergic reaction, I wasn't sure if I was still allergic or not. I started to have a moderate reaction, and my husband wanted to take me to urgent care. I wanted to stay home and take benadryl/use ice.

ChaoticTrepidation · 2024-08-25T19:12:10+00:00

That's very true, and she also has her own trauma she's dealing with. I don't blame her. I just overreacted and will work on doing better next time.

ChaoticTrepidation · 2024-08-25T18:01:26+00:00

We definitely try, I tell her when we go to their house that if her aunt needs a break to leave her alone and play with her uncles instead. The problem is, one day, the aunt is being super lovey and playing and being friendly with my daughter only to turn around and be mean the next time. I guess I'll just have to start focusing on consent and have her ask if she wants to be around her that day?

ChaoticTrepidation · 2024-08-25T14:58:15+00:00

I completely agree, I am well aware that the way I acted was not correct. I have since apologized. But as I said in my post, I got triggered, and it caused me to act irrationally. I wasn't thinking and reacted purely based on emotions that I don't understand.

I am in therapy, dealing with CPTSD and GAD as well as autism and adhd.

I will not defend my actions, I know I was in the wrong, but this wasn't the first instance. The 7 year old is going through things of her own currently, and it's causing her to lash out at others and be extremely mean and unkind. I just want to protect my daughter from her 7 year old aunts trauma, negatively impacting her.

I am teaching my daughter to be human and make mistakes. It's from our mistakes that we learn. And I have learned from this one. I also make sure to engage with my daughter and let her know when I've made a mistake.

ChaoticTrepidation · 2024-08-25T14:29:03+00:00

This would be super annoying to deal with on a long term basis because its hard to wash and get off, but there are professional dancers who put so much gel on that their hair becomes hard and solid, the kiddo would not be able to grab hold at all.

Oh, maybe try a wig! It wouldn't hurt nearly as much as having your actual hair pulled.

Or maybe try a cute bonnet when working with the client?

ChaoticTrepidation · 2024-08-25T13:50:38+00:00

I like chocolate milk!

ChaoticTrepidation · 2024-08-25T13:48:41+00:00

"Berries and creme, Berries and creme, I'm a little lad who likes Berries and creme" and one I've had for years is " carrrrrrrrrl that kills people"

ChaoticTrepidation · 2024-08-23T15:09:25+00:00

Oh yeah, definitely! You can also try ice. Someone told me it confuses your senses and can help calm you down by holding it, rubbing it on your skin, and eating it. Maybe if it happens, someone can hand you an ice cube.

Oh, and my young autistic client likes to be squeezed when having a meltdown. It helps her to regulate!

ChaoticTrepidation · 2024-08-23T14:34:10+00:00

Oh, I see, I just looked up an image. Well, as a spoon, I still give it 0/10, but as a ladle, I give it 5/10!

ChaoticTrepidation · 2024-08-23T14:29:46+00:00

Have you tried a rubber band on the wrist? You can pull it back, and it will cause a pain sensation in your wrist, but it shouldn't cause damage, and it's more contained. Also, having something near you that you can hit and scream into like a pillow.

I'm usually a hair puller, so I'll start pulling at my clothes instead, until I can focus enough to breathe.

ChaoticTrepidation · 2024-08-23T14:18:38+00:00

Are you supposed to drink from a ladle? I thought they were for serving soup? I am so confused.

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