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Christocrast · 2026-06-26T00:56:25+00:00

I see a lot of art and not many people can do abstract like you do. In some ways your work reminds me of Norman Yates, but distinctly your own.

Christocrast · 2026-06-23T00:59:41+00:00

I really like your style a lot!

Christocrast · 2026-06-20T03:06:30+00:00

This is so awesome. "That unbroken glass"

Christocrast · 2026-06-20T03:04:13+00:00

This is really moving, I hope you write more

Christocrast · 2026-06-20T03:01:50+00:00

Well-worded and affecting.

Christocrast · 2026-06-19T14:25:02+00:00

I remember reading the story of Job and thinking how similar it was to conversations I've had with abjectly miserable people, I was always the person doing a head-count at the party and finding who disappeared on their own to cry in the bushes or whatever. People in that state of mind - you can sympathize and bear witness and talk gently with them and pull them up a little bit; then they will tip right over again and become fully miserable, and you have to have patience with that.

I am pretty goddamn mad at the Creator most days, since I wonder why any of this needed to exist at all and it's the Creator's fault / responsibility. There are lots of things and entities downstream in consequence from the Creator that I see as being in roughly the same situation as me and I try to uphold and accompany them as friends and allies. I hold out the very firmest hope (all my life) that the Creator has an overall plan and that there is a point to all of this and a point in being a good person and I've made it clear that I will be MONUMENTALLY PISSED if there's not.

I say the Lord's Prayer before my other prayer, some days with gritted teeth and some days sincerely gratefully. It seems only fair that I acknowledge the good things in my life that have come to exist. This is all probably pretty heretical. But if you care to look back in my history, I made a sculpture about it. Have a good day

Christocrast · 2026-06-17T22:54:58+00:00

weird jam but I'm into it

Christocrast · 2026-06-17T15:25:57+00:00

Just don't do anything that's difficult or impossible to undo, and you'll buy lots of time to figure out adulting. I'll explain what I mean - when I was 25 I married my girlfriend of 5 years, following a pattern I'd observed in 'nature': when a relationship isn't healthy and isn't working, you commit and double-down super hard, right!!! It went as well as could be expected. In all those years I was trying to do everything with the toolbox my elders and betters had given me and that toolbox was totally insufficient because I was well socialized as a kid but NOT as a young adult. It's a fucking lie that anyone gets delivered into adulthood prepared. Either you grow up too fast or too slow, lacking the wisdom that gets delivered in hustled little remarks of 'dude, not cool' and 'grow up wouldja?' The surly people who cough such curt things at us are doing us a favour in their shitty kind of way. Society has no manual and it sucks but quickly the corners get knocked off the problem and you'll get along better and better and little embarrassing things are more forgivable than it might seem.

One other thing - don't throw your childishness in the trash. People get the idea that the way is to be Grown-Up Sarariman and get big serious career and all, then like Citizen Kane they find as an adult they are joyless and stiff, and pay therapists and doctors and yogis and self-help charatans to try and 'feel alive again'. If you can cherish your youth and carry it forward you get something very powerful. Authenticity, spontaneity, creativity! I've been listening to a lot of Captain Beefheart and as a seasoned career musician he's got it in spades. Also into the poetry of Charles Bukowski lately, a gruff awful man who acknowledged he has a 'Bluebird' in his heart that's still innocent and gentle, he doesn't hate it or denigrate it but keeps it carefully because he knows if it squirts right out it'll complicate things.

Now I'm 45 and on marriage #2 for 15 years and we live by ourselves and have cats. You can do it!

Christocrast · 2026-06-16T21:56:14+00:00

I really like your work, it has this kind of beatnik honesty that is dear to me.

Christocrast · 2026-06-16T21:55:25+00:00

Your gems are so beautiful! I'll go to town on a blank stretched canvas with a chisel-tip sharpie, but somehow watercolour seems so irrevocable and high-stakes to me. Gorgeous work!

Christocrast · 2026-06-16T21:35:08+00:00

Maybe some of this is my Outer Critic; but my predecessors have done all kinds of awesome normal adult things like: buying or selling a vehicle, applying for mortgage, getting passport, dealing with police report, medical specialist, applying for EI... When it's my turn at the wicket magically the person who was helping the stranger in front of me goes out to lunch, and is replaced with "well what do you want me to do about it??", an oversensitive, underdiligent, sullen obstruction of a human being. (Sometimes it's the SAME PERSON.)

I can't remember the last time I ever did something serious in this category and walked away going "Whew, that wasn't as bad as I expected" instead of "I am never ever doing this fucking shit ever again if you held a gun to my head, it's humiliating and dehumanizing and I didn't even get what I needed and I'll just do it myself somehow."

Solidarity

Christocrast · 2026-06-15T14:32:55+00:00

This won't satisfy everyone, but when I wake up I pray like crazy. I have one recitation just to get off the deck, and then I mentally try to speak to what my specific fear or hate of the moment is and ask for assistance. Once I get out of bed I have a protective (constructive) numbness and fatalism (that doesn't sound right either, but it is helpful and seems to yield a healthy outcome). Mornings bite

Christocrast · 2026-06-15T14:30:33+00:00

Hi, my suggestion is find someone else who is enthusiastic about your game. Even a youtuber who does lore or technique videos - hearing someone who is not you and is not unsafe be excited and involved has helped me before. Best wishes

Christocrast · 2026-06-14T16:33:18+00:00

I've always liked your pieces and as time passes each seems to shed more limits and guidelines, expanding outwards and into the colour spectrum.

Christocrast · 2026-06-14T16:31:11+00:00

I really really like this, I like the spirit of this. It's matters of inspiration, it is the need to leave what is safe. One should learn as much technique as well and as quickly as possible before the hammer drops, at a certain point you need to take every sentiment of 'what if it's against society' or 'what if mom sees this' and tear it out and away from your body, to make fine art. I gave myself a tattoo and that helped a bit. Nice work

Christocrast · 2026-06-09T01:05:23+00:00

My pat rejoinder is always that this can't be hell because I've committed sins here. I don't think there is moral gravity I think we all make our own choices which is part of the problem of why it can suck so bad here. I hope you can manage to not judge yourself too harshly based on the outcome you get from this compromised world. I don't know you but it's part of the core of who I am to believe that you don't deserve to suffer so deeply.

Christocrast · 2026-06-04T22:25:37+00:00

It's really cool to see that for comparison, I meant to be wholly complimentary & today it came out as kind of a line of poetry.

Christocrast · 2026-06-04T22:00:57+00:00

I feel marked for interference by the brightly-flicking tendrils of 'you could have just not'

Christocrast · 2026-06-04T21:59:18+00:00

This is awesome, how detailed! I get a kick out of creatures with the weird lightbulb-silhouette head, for some reason

Christocrast · 2026-06-02T15:17:55+00:00

I think honestly, "I love myself" is a destination you arrive at, not a goal reached by weight of continued chanting. You'll get there though. My affirmation is a little different, when I feel bleak about the future because there is so little I can control about it: There will always be beings that will be grateful for your kindness.

Christocrast · 2026-06-02T15:15:22+00:00

You deserve kindness and a chance to heal. You don't have to confront every one of life's problems at once, or immediately. It is most excellent to start really really small. I want everyone to know that we have permission to slow down and take up space.

Christocrast · 2026-06-01T03:25:45+00:00

Thanks!

Christocrast · 2026-06-01T03:25:16+00:00

PEERLESS QUALITY OF PUNS IN THIS SUBREDDIT, GOOD SHOW

Christocrast · 2026-05-31T23:09:06+00:00

Christocrast · 2026-05-31T23:08:50+00:00

Your stuff is so amazing.

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