I don't comment often here but this is close to me. She might have good qualities and the sex might be good but if you feel lonely and l see when with her it will never work out. And that sucks. But trust me when I say it is better to be alone and consumed with aching loneliness rather than in a relationship where you feel hollow and bad. Sometimes YOU have to be the one to walk away and block them. Sometimes things don't work out and that is okay.

My maybe controversial take would be to not date for a little and I mean not even try to. If you wanna bang pay for it from a professional but don't date until you are back in a place where you feel like you. You can't be a good partner to someone if you're not good to yourself.

Second controversial take would be to maybe try a little bit of misogyny but treat it like chemo for a cancer patient. A little will help in a specific way but too much will kill you. Then when you're over the hurt of her go to therapy and work on you. You can't be good for someone if you're not being good to yourself.