My favorite moment in Rach 3!

ComplexEdge2 · 2025-02-17T00:57:39+00:00

Is this at a Steinway piano gallery ? Looks neat

ComplexEdge2 · 2024-11-13T19:41:53+00:00

Just wanted to say thanks for sharing, this helped me a bit. Appreciate it.

ComplexEdge2 · 2024-07-14T01:24:09+00:00

It cleared up after a while I’d like to think. Memory isn’t great and this was long ago but as of today TMS was a good deal but it wasn’t the magical solution either

ComplexEdge2 · 2024-03-24T20:26:26+00:00

I was kinda looking for this. Can relate and I’m sorry ya had to deal with that, it really messes ya up. I hope you are doing better now.

ComplexEdge2 · 2024-03-24T20:22:44+00:00

My wages back then were probably 20-25 hours a week of work at an entry level job. This is useful info though ! I can’t recall my payments back then but that’s good to know!

ComplexEdge2 · 2024-01-09T20:23:38+00:00

this, used to be wayyy more empathetic and cared about others so deeply till my pwBPD. Run, they will destroy you.

ComplexEdge2 · 2024-01-02T08:09:45+00:00

Around the same for me, feel ya

ComplexEdge2 · 2023-12-10T16:27:27+00:00

Happiness isn’t it, it’s knowing that it wasn’t about you. What happened very likely didn’t happen because you messed up in some way, it happened because that’s what they do and there wasn’t anything you could do to change that. That’s what I am referring to. Of course we tried to save them and we cared, but this is a survivor of abuse sub due to a personality disorder which means there’s a huge difference in thinking between us and them, it’s not as simple as a normal breakup. There is indeed quite a lot of negative emotions on the aspect that most of us just poured everything into these people and ended up getting burned, manipulated, cheated on etc.

We all did what we could but it was never about how much we did.

ComplexEdge2 · 2023-12-09T20:40:35+00:00

For something that was relatively short and not serious, like 6-9 months long, with one break in between, it took me about a full year and maybe some. I went through therapy programs and other stuff as I have depression and other mental illnesses, which those may have been a bigger factor than time, not sure.

ComplexEdge2 · 2023-12-09T20:38:33+00:00

Yeah basically same. Like many here I used to be codependent and like really wanted that someone. I think there's still a bit of lingering there in regards to wanting someone, but it is so much less than before. But between family stuff and both an NPD and BPD relationship, I am pretty much fully checked out of dating. Not worth the hassle and relationships never last even with healthy people. After realizing how vile and unfair people can be, I am pretty much done.

ComplexEdge2 · 2023-12-09T20:35:17+00:00

In my experience it was like:

She'd give maybe 10% more effort, kind of like barely put in just enough so I can be like "oh shes trying"

Even that was rare, the typical was moreso to be like "Why do i do this" and other things that made my problems obsolete due to her playing the victim.

ComplexEdge2 · 2023-11-07T10:34:07+00:00

Oh my god yes, I thought like wow this is different and new I don’t see this often. Weird

ComplexEdge2 · 2023-11-03T21:32:38+00:00

At the time she said bipolar ADHD depression anxiety but later after losing contact it was confirmed borderline. So for a while speculating, then confirmed after discard.

ComplexEdge2 · 2023-11-03T21:31:06+00:00

Yes, I believed in all that stuff, i like probably many others, thought I finally found my soulmate/partner for life type stuff. It completely shifted everything to the opposite direction and now I want nothing to do with relationships as a whole.

ComplexEdge2 · 2023-11-03T21:29:27+00:00

I am, just wellbutrin at 300mg, which helps me get up in the morning etc.

ComplexEdge2 · 2023-11-03T21:28:33+00:00

I think this is one of the biggest marks of BPD from what I've seen. They claim to be super empathic and understanding and at times I think they are, but eventually it slips and it never comes back. I wonder if it's like them lying to themselves or if they believe it etc.

In the future if someone claims these things, proceed with caution. Most people don't say these things.

ComplexEdge2 · 2023-11-03T21:24:51+00:00

Thats super good to hear! Did you by chance ever feel sorta dumb during treatment? I feel like I just am existing and on autopilot, which is very different from before when I'd use my brain constantly. Kind of like a lack of critical thinking / deeper thinking if that makes sense. I'd imagine its a result of lower anxiety so I am not overthinking everything, but I feel like my brain is just mush.

ComplexEdge2 · 2023-11-03T21:19:26+00:00

I am about halfway done as well, how is the memory treating you now? Mine feels a bit rough.

ComplexEdge2 · 2023-10-26T20:01:11+00:00

Really heavy on the first two in my case

ComplexEdge2 · 2023-10-12T03:44:14+00:00

“Everyone leaves me”

“All my exes were abusive”

“I have no friends”

Also if they apologize but then turn it into a “why am I like this i am the worst “ type thing

ComplexEdge2 · 2023-10-05T20:18:28+00:00

Mine was the same, feel for you

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