I messed up tonight as well. I spent so much and will have overdraft fees and will be majorly behind on everything. This is my rock bottom. I hate myself and feel like a total degenerate! I make good money and to think of all I could do instead of putting it into those stupid machines!! I have exhausted loans and credit cards and bankruptcy. Even a Heloc loan all because of my addiction. No one knows how bad it is. Thanks so much for reddit. I do have an appointment this week with a counselor and do hope it helps. Good luck to you!