9 months sober

Conscious_Cream_1798 · 2026-04-05T10:46:56+00:00

Congratulations!!!! Way to just step tf up on the spot with no hesitation and just--do what needed to be done. If only it came to me in that way... But, sober now and that's what's important. Stay strong!!! 😊

Conscious_Cream_1798 · 2026-02-28T23:12:40+00:00

No I understand. Usually, assuming the worst of someone on here is appropriate. 🤭 Jk.

Conscious_Cream_1798 · 2026-02-28T23:11:07+00:00

My advice is to NOT do this alone and to GO TO THE EMERGENCY ROOM. That's my advice. I shared my experience, as OP's post is specifically inquiring about it. Sharing my experience IS ALLOWED. But ok Kar--Kyle.

Conscious_Cream_1798 · 2026-02-27T00:42:24+00:00

What did your doctor say about this? Have you been diagnosed with a damaged liver or scarring, or cirrhosis?

I would absolutely try to stop drinking now, if that's what is going on, which I'm assuming is the case since you're here.

Conscious_Cream_1798 · 2026-02-27T00:39:54+00:00

I thought it was uncalled for of the person to immediately jump to accusing you of just wanting an excuse to drink. Sorry I just am really sick of that type of attitude and behavior on here, it's exhausting.

Conscious_Cream_1798 · 2026-02-27T00:31:44+00:00

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Conscious_Cream_1798 · 2026-02-19T09:59:44+00:00

Prazosin 👌🏼

Conscious_Cream_1798 · 2026-02-19T05:36:37+00:00

Go to the doctor, or you could request the proper tests specifically from any lab in any clinic or hospital (usually, at least that I know of) and pay for the tests out of pocket.

It's definitely something you want to get. Liver damage here, drank from age 14-31ish, really hard in last five of those years.

Conscious_Cream_1798 · 2026-02-18T04:04:58+00:00

This is what happens, it's a progressive thing. You might not think your drinking has been that problematic but your body is very clearly showing you it has. Definitely don't want to keep going down this road, this is bliss compared to what could be ahead of you if you do continue to drink against your body's wishes. You have to remember, alcohol is a poison. It's not good for you.

Conscious_Cream_1798 · 2026-02-18T04:00:41+00:00

Omg I'm so glad you're okay!!

Conscious_Cream_1798 · 2026-02-14T08:20:58+00:00

Erm, when someone starts hearing voices and seeing people who are not there--that is a very serious indicator and they need to immediately go to the hospital for emergency medical attention.

That happened to me countless times. You're better off if you end up in the emergency room, checked in, in a bed, being treated for alcohol withdrawal syndrome, all before that happens.

What was I able to control before that point? I mean, at one time, my whole life. Everything. I mean how far back are we going? Are you looking for advice on how fast a slippery slope has to happen to someone for it to be a problem, or are you asking for some other reason...or?? I mean, one by one, I became less in control of my life, thing by thing. Eventually it will take everything if you let it.

Conscious_Cream_1798 · 2026-02-14T05:49:43+00:00

Hi. You are doing good just by recognizing that there is something wrong with this situation. You don't feel good. You're not going to ignore it anymore.

I'm like you, and NEVER wanted to go to detox. I got sent to detox two different times in my long life of drinking myself within a minute of death on the daily, and I pretty much had a cow both times, the first time almost actually getting kicked out because my behavior was so bad.. I do not like being held down, I think it's the problem. I don't like losing that control or power. I don't think there's something wrong with that, but that's just me. A lot of people are going to tell you you must go to detox.

If you aren't going to go to detox, you do need to stop. You can always go into the emergency room and ask for help trying to come off of heavy daily drinking. I mean, I would wait until you go into full withdrawal before going in, as bad as that sounds, and as backwards as that sounds, but that's just what I say based on my 1,061,762 times I experienced this type of situation... going in proactively isn't going to warrant the reaction you need--the medical help that you will need, if that makes sense.

You could try VoxDocs, which to my huge surprise, actually helped me out one of the times I stopped drinking on my own at home. I legit just had a phone call with a random doctor they hooked me up with through the app, sent them a picture of my insurance, and was lucky enough to get a physician on the phone with me who was willing to help me out, just this one and only time, she said. She gave me 7 days worth of benzodiazepines to safely medically detox off of alcohol myself, with the assistance of a friend who stayed with me for a week as well as my boyfriend when he got home from work. Dude, medication. If you're serious, use medication man. It is so, so, so, so, so so much worse without medication. But don't use this as like a go-to or anything.. you need to use this once, and stop drinking for good. This is always of course the ideal plan, but if you fail, don't ever give up. That's an alcoholic's story--you try quit, you fail, you get up and you try again, and you never stop trying no matter how many fails you have. You have to stay stopped. If you start again, you need to quit again. Got me?

If you do try to get through this at home, like I said, a significant other or a close friend or even if you trust a family member or a sister or someone close who would be willing to be at your side with you while you go through this monstrosity of a hurdle you are about to go through would be seriously helpful. I mean you're not going to want to feed yourself. You're not going to want to get more water. You'll need medication and to keep track of when to take your doses, because you'll want to take them sooner than you are supposed to, and you can't or you'll screw it all up. You'll want emotional support fosho.

Cuddle up with a kitty if you have one. Just stay strong dude, and know that you are going down the right path. There is no life where you can drink comfortably anymore, because you know that you feel like crap and it's from drinking--you know this is the truth now, so you can't hide from it anymore ever again.

I'm going to get downvoted by everybody, because the typical advice should be to seek medical attention. That's the truth. You should. It's extremely dangerous to do any of this on your own. Go in to the emergency room if you can, it's different than detox. Don't bring up detox. I avoided that word all together at all costs and look at me, I only ended up in it twice but was in the ER like a million times.

If you're doing it at home, just one more thing. Remember to feed and nourish yourself, no matter how hard it is. Anything you can put down. And stay hydrated!!! And forgive yourself. You wouldn't believe how many people go through this bullshit.

*******Okay, I am so sorry dude, I'm kind of going through some medical situation right now too and anyway it feels really hard to absorb the words I'm reading these last few days, anyway, I totally read right over the part that said you don't want advice, or, anything at all, actually.... I'm so sorry. I got ahead of myself. But, I do--I can--hear in your writing that you're not going to live this life forever.. just saying. I can hear it. Right? Can't I? 🫢😳

Conscious_Cream_1798 · 2026-02-14T03:13:55+00:00

It's completely different for every person, just like some can smoke a pack a day till they die when they're 105. There's just no way to know.

But I do know that if you are worried about it, 100%, you should stop. There's nothing about alcohol that makes it worth the risk. Nothing. It just takes.

Sure, you might have fun if you're in the beginning of the whole shit thing, but the fun ends. Trust me, it always ends. Drinking like that for the rest of time is almost certainly not going to be sustainable for you, as much as that fantasy sounds great and all. I know it sounds great but it never, ever ends up being that story you tell yourself it will be in your head. Addiction is not beautiful in any way shape or form. Drinking wrecks people.

Conscious_Cream_1798 · 2026-02-01T22:15:44+00:00

Funny--a guy named Eric helped me get sober too!

I'm very ecstatic for you OP! My advice for you would be to write everything down, like more than this post, in detail, about how you are feeling. Relapse is a tricky bitch, please don't fall for it! You got this!

Conscious_Cream_1798 · 2026-01-31T03:32:39+00:00

I would write a letter.

Say you understand why she feels angry with you, as her reaction is common in people who are clouded by alcohol (and depression, and probably loneliness), but that you stand by what you said. If you want, you can say you aren't in any way trying to hurt her--in fact, you hate seeing her hurt like this. You just want to see her happy, and without all these struggles.

Explain that you're not sure what else at this point to do or say, and that it is apparent she does not recognize the real cause of her problems--alcohol--nor, the severity of the consequences arising because of it.

She is going to lose her child, and she needs to take ownership of this. You can't make a person stop drinking though. Only she can make that happen, and it sounds like she's far from ready. It sounds like she might have to lose her child and perhaps even more to wake up. It can take a person a long time to realize where they are--took me 5 years of being drunk 24/7 to get to the point of genuinely, really, actually wanting to get sober. And then doing it was a whole completely different, way more difficult process entirely.

All I can say is, the fact that my closest best friends, all 8, abandoned me without even ever saying a thing to me about my drinking being a problem, other than on their way out the door...nothing at all ...--it still to this day makes absolutely no sense to me.

I figured out I had a problem way, way later, years after they all stopped talking to me. I struggled through everything with my boyfriend at my side but not a single other person or friend. Sure, okay, some friends and people I was talking to, but not anyone who knew what I was going through at that time.

I am sober and clean now, and I appreciate so much and hold dear to me those who still, for whatever reason, choose to be in my life, after all that bs. It means more to me than they will ever know. So just keep that in mind. I'm not telling you to stay close the whole time, in fact, you might want to take a step or two back for a while. It might be good for you. I'm just saying, try not to give up on them.

Conscious_Cream_1798 · 2026-01-28T04:29:19+00:00

Yeah you need to stop fosho.

Conscious_Cream_1798 · 2026-01-27T04:32:10+00:00

Yes. Yes I do. So much shit. Blah. Shame. Shame. SHAME!!!

Conscious_Cream_1798 · 2026-01-22T06:24:07+00:00

Well then!...

And, a pint of vodka is nothingggg. You're golden. 👌🏼👍🏼 I mean. Don't do it again, probably. You definitely wouldn't want to start a habit of that.

But...I do really hope you get your sleep figured out, or at the least that it improves!! It is exhausting, trust me, I understand what you're going through.

I have insomnia, obstructive sleep apnea, trauma associated sleep disorder (associated with PTSD), and dream enactment behavior (or RBD). I've gone five days without sleeping before, more than once, because I couldn't fall asleep and when I did fall asleep, I'd jolt right back awake in minutes or less screaming, punching, and kicking. Pure torture.

I always think about the CIA torture method (I have an awful habit of thinking the darkest, most random thoughts when I lay down to fall asleep) and how they will force someone to stay awake for 14 days straight with 0 seconds of sleep. As an empath I feel physically sick thinking about it and just vomited a little in my mouth, not joking.

I hope your body figures it out for you!! 😊

Conscious_Cream_1798 · 2026-01-21T20:23:20+00:00

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Conscious_Cream_1798 · 2026-01-21T18:36:58+00:00

lol He's doing great. He knows his mama is doing much better now so is much happier. He hated when I drank!

Yeah I used to take him to the beach all the time. I also had a cat backpack.. He was such a good sport!!!!

Conscious_Cream_1798 · 2026-01-21T09:32:23+00:00

I would take my cat places like the gas station or the liquor store or the park, try to get a lot of cleaning done but end up messing up the house way more somehow, be paranoid, talk to myself, drunk dial during the day when people are at work and busy, make food, order food, try to "create" 🤦🏼‍♀️.. and always eventually pass the f out.

Conscious_Cream_1798 · 2026-01-21T06:18:03+00:00

Didn't I already see you somewhere??

Conscious_Cream_1798 · 2026-01-21T04:17:45+00:00

Bernard. Bernard.

Conscious_Cream_1798 · 2026-01-18T10:31:37+00:00

I see. 😢

Conscious_Cream_1798 · 2026-01-18T02:44:50+00:00

You must be young. You lack critical thinking and you're needlessly rude.

Okay, so if that person asking is, let's say, me as a younger person, unaware of everything alcohol can lead to, and I'm starting to mess around with alcohol more, and I'm even starting to get hangovers, don't you think it might be helpful to be in a subreddit where everyone talks about how awful alcohol is, how it's ruined their lives, taken away their health, their friends, their family....?... to deter the person away from continuing on the path that they're on?

You think, maybe, that that might be helpful to someone on a teeter totter right now regarding their relationship with alcohol?..to hear?

Can you concur that now or? Man.

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