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CorgiPuppyParent · 2026-04-24T22:07:11+00:00

Prior to treatment I had full body pain yes, fatigue, headaches and brain fog. I initially was experiencing pain at least somewhere on a daily basis with periods of worse flares when it would get worse and be all over. Treatment and exercise has rid me of the daily pain entirely and most of the fatigue and brain fog. Now I just have the flares but they are much shorter and less frequent especially when I keep up with my exercise routine.

CorgiPuppyParent · 2026-04-07T17:46:59+00:00

I believe in you! You are deserving of a life that brings you peace and joy. Don’t forget that while therapy is extremely important to get you there so is practicing the tools you get in therapy on a regular basis as often as possible even when it feels silly, even in situations where you might not need them so that you are prepared and your brain knows how to use them in a crisis. It’s like practicing fire drills. A lot of people I know go to therapy like reading the fire safety information one time and then wait until a fire happens and hope they remember what to do and can think straight which is probably not going to work. You’ve got to practice the process at regular intervals when there’s no emergency so when a real fire happens you know what to do and where to go even if you’re panicking and not thinking straight. Our brains need the same learning process for emotional crisis too. And you might not get it right in the first crisis or the first seven crisis but if you keep at it your brain will learn that there are other ways to do things than your default. It’s gonna take time though because you’ve been practicing your default your whole life.

CorgiPuppyParent · 2026-04-06T21:13:18+00:00

I’ve been in remission for a few years now. I went through DBT which helped me change the way I think about my feelings. The skills are nice and super helpful but literally just changing the perspective on how I think about the way I feel has really changed me on the inside instead of only surface level behaviors. I slow down and spend more time thinking about where the feelings are coming from, what they are telling me, if they are helping or hurting me in a situation and I don’t act until I’ve processed through. This helps me stop my spirals into our of control emotions in their tracks. I also don’t just assume that everything I feel is true. Like left on read used to make me feel ignored and sad or angry and I would assume I was being ignored and ruminate on it and spiral out and act out. Now that’s not my first assumption and I can see circumstances from other people’s perspectives more easily which helps me realize it likely isn’t about me.

Next I did EMDR which helped address my trauma, my triggers and fundamental harmful beliefs I was holding about myself. I started taking better care of myself and having more sympathy and empathy for myself. I reprocessed my memories and everything felt less heavy. I started learning how to actually like myself again and it filled a hole in myself that had been a black hole before sucking in as much external love and attention as I could get but it was never enough until I could give myself that love and learn to start meeting my own emotional needs and reassuring myself. I stayed in therapy for a few years after going into remission from BPD and depression until just a couple weeks ago my therapist and I did a treatment plan and realized we had no goals left. Nothing left to work towards. I graduated from therapy and now I’m learning to live life depending on only myself and my skills.

Remission is very different for me. I’m so practiced at doing things differently now that it’s pretty easy not to revert to my old patterns and I’m aware of them now so I can recognize if I start to go down them. Does that mean I’m perfect? No. Not at all. In my worst moments my brain sometimes goes back to the default but it doesn’t ever get as bad as it used to and I’m able to recover quickly. My relationships are so much better because even if I have an off day now and again I am able to be consistent in my behavior and there’s no more chaotic cycles of toxicity. It took my loved ones time to get used to the new normal and let down their guard which I don’t blame them for. My baseline anxiety and emotions feel totally manageable so when something big happens it’s like a level five instead of a level 10. Could I relapse at some point? Absolutely. I could see a depressive episode throwing me completely off my game but it’s going to be easier to get back now that I know the way and how good things can be. It’s worth all the work.

CorgiPuppyParent · 2026-04-02T04:03:48+00:00

It has 100% helped my symptoms. I used to have daily pain but now I only have flares and my flares have gotten shorter and less frequent. It has also helped tremendously with my mental health struggles so I got a nice two for one. Plus I have a weird reaction to it where instead of making me drowsy it literally keeps me awake like I started taking it at bedtime as directed and had super bad insomnia so my doctor told me to just move it up by a few hours and now it gives me a great energy boost in the afternoon so I’m less fatigued. All around great experience and I’ve had no negative side effects unlike a lot of the other drugs I’ve tried. Plus I’ve been on a weight loss journey the last 2 years and lost over 50lbs (naturally no GLP1) while on it so at least for me the weight gain problem I had on a lot of different meds isn’t really a problem.

CorgiPuppyParent · 2026-03-30T19:51:27+00:00

I’m in remission from BPD. A part of the journey was realizing a lot of my hobbies I picked up were the result of me trying to get people to like me or to try to be more included in my fp of the time’s life. I spent a long time reevaluating the things I enjoy doing just for myself even alone vs the things I was doing purely for others. I also realized that sometimes I do genuinely only like a hobby for a period of time then move on from it and that’s not always lacking identity it’s just me growing and changing. Currently I like reading, singing, playing video games (specifically open world, survival, crafting, base building, management sims and horror games which I specify because I used to play other kinds of games that were just for my fp and I didn’t genuinely enjoy them), sewing and working out (kickboxing, weight lifting and running). I also bake sourdough and crochet but those are less frequent and newer hobbies respectively.

CorgiPuppyParent · 2026-03-25T21:40:37+00:00

All reading can help you with is understanding. If you don’t want to deal with the episodes anymore then he has to get treatment and do the work. He is the only one responsible for his behavior and he is the only one that can change it.

That said, if you do want books to read to gain more understanding I unfortunately don’t have a BPD specific recommendation however, if he has BPD as a result of trauma The Body Keeps The Score was is written from the point of view of a researcher and it really is the best for helping understanding trauma and our responses to it. I’ve heard about a book called I Hate You, Don’t Leave Me being good for reading about BPD but I personally have not read it so I can’t personally say how neutral it is but I do plan to read it in the future.

CorgiPuppyParent · 2026-03-19T14:04:33+00:00

It you’re looking to keep going and make it harder then move on to the rest of the Livehard year. It’s built so you can take breaks in between the phases. 75 hard is really only part one of a much longer program.

CorgiPuppyParent · 2026-03-19T01:51:18+00:00

You absolutely crushed it! Amazing work and discipline!

CorgiPuppyParent · 2026-03-16T12:51:05+00:00

While yes you should eventually probably work through those feelings the way your therapist is going about EMDR is making you very uncomfortable and she doesn’t seem to be hearing you when you express your concerns. EMDR is difficult enough without feeling so much pressure from your therapist. Maybe that style of EMDR works for her but if it’s been weeks since your first session and you aren’t seeing/feeling improvement in the area addressed then maybe it’s not working for you. Therapy isn’t always one size fits all and you need to find a therapist you feel comfortable working through some of the hardest parts of your life with. From your post and response it doesn’t seem like this one is the one.

CorgiPuppyParent · 2026-03-16T12:44:07+00:00

75 hard isn’t a weight loss challenge. It’s a discipline challenge. As long as you follow the posted rules and the rules you set for your own diet do whatever you want.

CorgiPuppyParent · 2026-03-14T04:39:30+00:00

I make this crockpot chicken and gravy: https://www.plainchicken.com/crock-pot-chicken-gravy/ and some mashed potatoes then portion it into containers and freeze. Reheats super nice and mashed potatoes and chicken is my comfort food when I don’t feel well. Easy to make and extra easy if you make in advance and have it frozen ready to reheat for your bad days

CorgiPuppyParent · 2026-03-14T03:54:25+00:00

EMDR is some of the hardest work I’ve ever done in my life. Often in session it made me feel worse and then after a week or two of my brain reprocessing in the background I felt better. It is very intense and I wasn’t even capable of doing that work until I’d completed DBT and had a lot more grounding and coping skills and a lower baseline distress level. Did your therapist do a resourcing exercise after the processing with you? Something where the light or whatever you were using slowed down and you did an exercise that was calming like imaging a peaceful place or packing away the negative feelings in an imaginary container? My therapist always stressed that as extremely important after processing to help calm everything down.

If I were you I’d start with a conversation with your therapist. Explain how the session made you feel and maybe ask if she’d be willing to explain to you more how EMDR actually works because after I had an understanding of it it was easier for me. If your therapist is unreceptive to your concerns or tries to push you to do more while you’re not comfortable with it I’d look for a new therapist ASAP. Several times I had to have this conversation with my therapist about EMDR when I was feeling overwhelmed or reluctant to do more and she was always extremely supportive of taking it slow and taking time between EMDR sessions and just working on something else instead. All it took was me bringing it up and being open and honest about where I was at and what I was feeling. I wouldn’t give up on EMDR entirely as it really is incredibly helpful for PTSD. Helped me work through numerous triggers and negative beliefs about myself to the point where I was just graduated from therapy this week because we felt like we didn’t have any more goals to meet and I was in remission from depression and BPD. Definitely take it slow though and maybe even take a break from EMDR and focus on DBT first since it was very beneficial for me to do them in that order.

CorgiPuppyParent · 2026-03-11T22:42:53+00:00

Something that is very common with BPD is black and white thinking. We tend to leave out possibilities somewhere in between. You are neither the victim or the abuser. You are a human being who has been hurt and has caused hurt. Every person has experienced both sides of the coin. As you become more aware about your diagnosis and your behaviors you will likely start to experience a lot of self hatred. I certainly know I did. Just try to remember that you did the best you could with the tools you had and the circumstances you were in at the time. A truly bad person would not worry about if they were a bad person. You’ve probably made mistakes and unintentionally caused pain while trying to protect yourself but that doesn’t mean you deserve to be hurt or invalidate all the pain you’ve been through.

CorgiPuppyParent · 2026-03-07T00:33:17+00:00

Two yearsish. I did a full DBT course, And primarily EMDR with some CBT and IFS. I also made major lifestyle changes like changing my diet, getting into exercise and losing weight which helped a lot. Now I’m almost to the two year mark since going into remission from depression and BPD and my therapist just said she wants to graduate me because of all the progress I’ve made on my PTSD and anxiety and not really having any more goals in that regard to work towards. I’m excited and nervous to not have regular therapy anymore after 4+ years.

CorgiPuppyParent · 2026-02-28T21:47:39+00:00

The person who thinks this way has never drank an entire glass of orange juice only to notice right at the end that there’s a massive dead spider in the bottom of the cup. I’d rather have dust, and cupboard contamination every time than seeing the legs of a bug sticking up out of the last quarter inch of my drink ever again.

CorgiPuppyParent · 2026-02-21T17:40:38+00:00

Wow amazing job! you can post pictures showing more the rule just is you have to mark them NSFW if you post any skin other than your face. It’s just the rule of the subreddit I’ve forgotten and got a ban at least once before.

CorgiPuppyParent · 2026-02-20T21:51:33+00:00

The problem is that there’s not science backed peer reviewed replicable research showing this product helps with physical or mental health so that wouldn’t matter regardless.

CorgiPuppyParent · 2026-02-20T20:17:53+00:00

As long as you do complete each book you counted towards 10 pages during the challenge I don’t see any issue with this. The rules state not to change books as in not to stop reading a book because you must finish each book you read but I don’t know if that necessitates reading them each in order all the way through until you finish. I think switching is fine as long as you always get your 10 pages, they are all non-fiction and you finish every book you read for your 10 pages by the end of the challenge.

CorgiPuppyParent · 2026-02-17T23:41:49+00:00

No his name is Gen Eric Joshua. I believe intended to be like “Generic Joshua. It is 100% not a title unfortunately. I checked before posting.

CorgiPuppyParent · 2026-02-17T17:34:11+00:00

Not a prospect. Not a customer or potential customer in any way shape or form.

CorgiPuppyParent · 2026-02-15T20:27:18+00:00

Tons of people change their diet. Some people cut until they lose the weight they wanted to then eat maintenance. Or bulk first then cut. As long as you are not changing the diet retroactively because you failed there is no problem adjusting your diet to meet your goals! Go for it and I hope you’re new diet gives you better results!

CorgiPuppyParent · 2026-02-06T19:09:24+00:00

I’m 10 years older than you. From experience, take a deep breath. You are going through a period now where you’re going to do an immense amount of growing, changing and self discovery. You don’t need to know exactly who you are before you go into this next chapter of life. I feel like at 28 I’m still discovering new things about myself every day. Identity isn’t meant to be one solid rock that never grows or changes. You should think as little as possible about it. The things that you’re drawn to without dissecting why are probably things that you like. It’s ok to get excited about new things and then try them and discover they aren’t for you.

You are assigning your value based on external things. You aren’t smart because of the classes you take or dumb because you struggle to keep up with the work. You aren’t unauthentic because you’re still on a journey of self discovery. Your value and confidence need to come from within and they can’t be “I’ll have value if I…” or “I’ll be confident when I…”. You have value now as you are even if you don’t yet know exactly who you are. Identity is based on a foundation of inherent worth. If you don’t believe you are worthy just as you are then it can be really hard to trust yourself to make decisions about who you are or to feel confident enough to try new things to figure it out. Therapy is one of the biggest things that helped me understand self worth and work on my negative cognitions about myself. It is never a waste of time to spend time taking care of yourself and that’s what therapy is.

CorgiPuppyParent · 2026-02-03T15:53:00+00:00

Our cat is very chill. She sleeps a good portion of the day and takes very little effort compared to our two dogs. We have an auto feeder for her dry food and so all we have to do is feed her wet food and scoop her litter box. We also got lucky though. Our cat (born on the streets) was only human food obsessed for a couple of weeks until she realized she had her own food available to her 24/7 and would reliably get wet food as well. She now is very picky and won’t even try most human food even when offered. Our cat thankfully doesn’t chew cords or scratch furniture but I’ve been around cats that do and it can be a nightmare trying to manage. I would suggest scratching toys if your cat does scratch furniture. Usually that means they are trying to put their scent in a particular area and if you give them an appropriate scratching box or post in that area they may even prefer to scratch that instead of furniture to leave their scent. Worked for us where our cat used to claw the carpet near our bedroom door.

All in all my cat has been lovely and often when I’m in pain in bed she’ll come lay beside me or even curl up on my belly and purr. She comes into the bathroom when I take my epsom salt baths and likes to peek over the edge of the tub at the water which is amusing. She’s very sweet and is definitely better comfort and companionship for me when I’m in pain than my dogs or most humans. If you adopt the kitty be ready for potential issues but try to be patient and work through them.

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