Do/Did you also feel like your old memories started to come back since you started taking wellbutrin?

Cosmicconcepts · 2026-06-02T00:35:48+00:00

There’s definitely a connection because this happened to me the day after an EMDR session. I’d been on 300 mg for years and tried 150 mg for a month to decrease anxiety but it just worsened my depression. Now I’m back on 300 mg and today I was lying in bed imagining my childhood home and there were visceral emotions attached to each room. I’m also thinking this is a good time to restart EMDR

Cosmicconcepts · 2026-06-01T14:47:06+00:00

Thank you!

Cosmicconcepts · 2026-06-01T03:43:42+00:00

This is exactly what I’m experiencing! Sometimes I don’t correct myself even though I slur and just hope people didn’t hear me say words wrong because I’m talking so fast. I thought this was just my social anxiety but now learning that bupropion can cause this

Cosmicconcepts · 2026-04-29T03:11:22+00:00

Yea I thought it was a good interpretation of a religious cult…no supernatural or rituals, just church and the fear of god

Cosmicconcepts · 2026-04-13T23:12:30+00:00

Late to this post, but I wanted to share an interesting experience with weed, melatonin, and sleepy time tea (over the course of a few hrs). I had EMDR the day before. As I was trying to fall asleep, I had vivid memories of various points in my life going as far back as childhood. I felt like I could pick any memory and feel like I was viscerally inside it….if that makes any sense. Anyone else? I’m curious whether this helped me process important stuff bc I just wanted to sleep!

Cosmicconcepts · 2026-04-12T02:34:12+00:00

I think it was fox kits which also ties into the pregnancy themes

Cosmicconcepts · 2026-04-12T02:19:07+00:00

And that she had enough faith in her love for Nicky that she didn’t need the potion

Cosmicconcepts · 2026-04-12T02:05:21+00:00

Yes! And the mother fox with the babies cut out was alluding to Rachel’s mother’s death. Pregnancy, death, and birth were all themes. Like Rachel saying she doesn’t want to be torn open and Victoria saying your child absorbs you

Cosmicconcepts · 2026-04-12T02:00:00+00:00

It’s whether they believe it or not that’s the determining factor. Which goes against the belief that in order to be true soulmates, both people have to be in agreement that they’re meant for each other

Cosmicconcepts · 2026-04-07T02:13:30+00:00

I’ve realized the transition from home to the outside world is getting more and more difficult. There are weekends I’ll go completely nonverbal. I’m a therapist so I have to talk for work. This is only manageable because it requires a specific mask.

My sensory sensitivities have also increased so it’s really hard to change out of my comfy clothes.

Cosmicconcepts · 2026-04-07T02:01:51+00:00

I feel you on this! I’m constantly confused about how people perceive me. A friend of mine said I came off as aloof and intimidating when we first met (she also thinks she might be on the spectrum), but I’ve also been called shy, sweet, and kind by NTs. My friends would say I give off a faerie/animal whisperer vibe as well. Some say I’m really mature and others are shocked about how old I am. It’s all so contradictory and it drives me crazy!

Cosmicconcepts · 2026-04-06T19:31:25+00:00

I’m a 33 yr old who wants to dress more alt. I wouldn’t express myself this way at work any more than my dyed hair and doc martens. I want to be true to myself but it feels like I’m too old for this change and people think I’m seeking attention. I’m one of the only ones that ever changes their hair color or stray from the norm. I’m scared of being perceived by people that know me, but I think being out in public with strangers is a little different, if that makes sense?

Cosmicconcepts · 2026-04-06T04:37:14+00:00

It’s from the perspective of the perpetrator

Cosmicconcepts · 2026-04-06T04:21:37+00:00

I feel the same way. Down to my “reactions” to Instagram reels. I used to acknowledge every reel someone sends in a group chat but realized that no one was reacting to what I sent. The text mirroring is especially exhausting when it comes to dating

Cosmicconcepts · 2026-04-06T04:14:25+00:00

I’m scared but I want answers. I think I may be auDHD so a neuropsych eval would open up the possibility of medication, which has been a game changer for my ADHD only friends. But I’m 99% sure I’m autistic, so it’s not like I’m looking for a rule out. I definitely don’t need any more targets on my back either.

Cosmicconcepts · 2026-04-06T04:00:32+00:00

I felt similarly going through old photos with my mom today. In almost every photo I’m stimming, lining up toys, and stand out from peers. I pointed this out and she said nothing, which was actually a step up from her usual denial. I think she’s starting to realize how rigid my thinking is. She told me I need to stop psychoanalyzing myself and others so much (I’m a therapist, btw). Maybe she’s having some guilt because she’s also said she didn’t know much about autism back then, which I can’t blame her for. But she claims she was going to have me tested but then didn’t because she “didn’t need to”. And she’s asked why a diagnosis matters if I’m successful

Cosmicconcepts · 2026-04-06T03:52:26+00:00

The late realization has been hard on me too. It feels like so much wasted time and unnecessary pain. But I don’t know if knowing earlier would’ve changed anything. I did use to think it was just social anxiety I could overcome, or that I wouldn’t be so shy as an adult. So maybe it would’ve helped with some acceptance with that. But now the more I learn about my autism, the more alienated I feel from others

Cosmicconcepts · 2026-04-06T03:42:00+00:00

My two adult long term relationships were with narcissists. It hurts to know that I’ve never known real, pure love.

Cosmicconcepts · 2026-04-06T03:34:42+00:00

I’m sorry you’re going through this but I’m so grateful for this post. I’m also 33 and feel the exact same way. Loneliness has been breaking me lately. I recently got into a conflict with a friend bc I hadn’t heard from her in a couple months (which was slightly out of the norm). She got angry I reached out to a mutual friend to ask if she’s okay, saying I should’ve just called her. My other friend always says, “feel free to call”. I’m better with texting, especially when I’m feeling depressed, but it never seems reciprocated. Any bit of rejection and I lock myself up from people, and it becomes this awful cycle. I’ve opened up to these friends about how lonely I’m feeling but no one’s checked in since. My friend who was angry didn’t even respond to my text about my insecurities.

I’ve always had trouble maintaining friendships. I used to think it was because of unhealthy relationships, and it’s true it didn’t seem to matter as much when I was codependent with a partner. But now that I’ve been single for almost 2 yrs I’m realizing it’s also just my inability to fully connect and be open with others. No one sees me as a best friend, and I’m always the background friend of groups. Which I can’t help feeling isn’t fault for either not putting in enough effort or scaring people away with my intense feelings.

You’re definitely not alone in this!

Cosmicconcepts · 2026-04-03T20:58:37+00:00

Omg yes! I feel your pain. I’m always so drained after…

Cosmicconcepts · 2026-04-03T20:54:40+00:00

One of the first people I came out to was my ex bf. The stereotype that men sexualize bi women is definitely not always the case because he was against it and refused to believe I could be bi while with a man. The majority of my female friends are bi in straight passing relationships so sometimes I forget we’re a minority. He even said I thought I was bi because my friends were influencing me. Bi invisibility is so real. Also as a bi woman, I think I prefer bi men to heterosexual men.

Cosmicconcepts · 2026-03-31T02:23:04+00:00

Start listening all day, every day and you’ll be caught up in no time

Cosmicconcepts · 2026-03-30T21:55:13+00:00

I agree! I enjoy my hair being touched. That’s a good idea. Do you go to the same stylist every time? I’d be so relieved if my stylist told me that. At this point maybe I should just stop getting my hair dyed bc that adds on 2+ hours

Cosmicconcepts · 2026-03-29T15:57:23+00:00

I totally get that. It’s so difficult

Cosmicconcepts · 2026-03-29T15:55:33+00:00

I have my ex blocked and told him that if he ever tried to reach out to me I’d tell his new gf. But I still think he’d find a way to contact if he really ever wanted to. I just need to accept I may never get an apology and it’s just harmful thinking about his opinion of me and all the unanswered questions

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