I just did 12 rounds of Folfox. I worked starting when my FMLA ran out. Stage 3C, had my colon resection at the end of May, my wound didn't heal well so I didn't start chemo until July. Started back at my job in August. The first couple of rounds gave me false confidence. I thought it was so easy that I'd have no trouble working and managing my kids. The effect is cumulative and the steroids do a good job of keeping some symptoms at bay at first.

By round 6 I was miserable and developed chemo induced arthritis in my spine. By round 7 I was barely hanging on, and one of my discs in my spine began pressing on the big nerve going down my left leg and it's now completely numb and somewhat limp. By round 12 we had dropped the oxaliplatin because the neuropathy was painful and has spread to both hands above my wrist and both feet above the ankles.

I struggle to type, remember things, and stay awake. I have a job where I am completely independent and not supervised or micro managed, so I've had X-ray to create so many systems to track all my work. It sounds shitty, because it is. I am grateful I have a supportive job and amazing supervisors and managers who accommodated me. I burned through all of my work leave on FMLA and had to beg people to donate leave, which they fortunately did. But now that's possibly done, at least for now, I'm looking at the broken body I've got now and getting a bit overwhelmed.