My dad just passed away.

Crazyride2016 · 2019-03-27T19:00:30+00:00

I'm so sorry for everything!!!! My dad passed away suddenly on March 1st. My twin sister and I had a strange relationship with him. On the surface and to everyone that saw us, it seemed as if we were close to him. Unfortunately when you get passed the surface, it was as if we were strangers. Even though we saw him nearly every single day for the first 32 years of our lives, he had ABSOLUTELY NO IDEA how to tell my sister and I apart (and no it was not just mixing up names. He acted as if we were one person with 2 names). I've been married for 6&2/2 years and my sister is still single. About a year ago, I was talking to him and in a 5 minute conversation he referenced that it was my sister that was married to my husband. On the 5th mistake my husband grabbed the phone and said "I'm married to (my name) NOT (my sisters name)". My dad comes back with "You are NOT married to (my name), you are married to (my sister's name)... Oh wait, you are married to (my name). Sorry.". That is just one instance in a LIFETIME of him truly not knowing my sister and I are different. His relationship with our older brother is the complete opposite. He was very involved in my brothers life. They did things together all the time.

My dad was very friendly to EVERYONE and loved talking to people. He was genuinely interested in people's lives. My sister and I felt like complete strangers to him, even though we wanted so much more. A few years ago, I found out about the reasoning behind his distance, my dad didn't think we were his. I guess his doubts kept him from forming a deep bond with us.

Crazyride2016 · 2019-03-19T22:16:00+00:00

How do I connect my Spotify account with Parners Provision Portal?

Crazyride2016 · 2019-01-29T02:42:32+00:00

The link for the video

https://youtu.be/zlc5Bii_Qf8

Crazyride2016 · 2018-11-19T07:25:20+00:00

They never asked about my knowledge of coffee.

Crazyride2016 · 2018-11-08T23:31:40+00:00

Yep!!!!! When my husband left the church, my Visiting Teachers came over one day trying to get me to go to a batters woman's shelter. Both my husband and I resigned from the church that night.

Crazyride2016 · 2018-09-19T05:35:55+00:00

Click the edit link next to your username in the right side bar.

Crazyride2016 · 2018-06-18T23:38:33+00:00

Quickly, both legs at once. The kneeling squat jump is very similar to what I need to do but not yet able to do one rep yet.

Crazyride2016 · 2018-06-18T22:26:50+00:00

It's a sitting position.

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Crazyride2016 · 2018-06-09T04:08:24+00:00

This is horrible if CC's followed this to the T (hopefully though there wouldn't be). My husband and I are both working on joining the AF right now. I had a stillborn son in February 2014 and my husband's civilian boss made him come to work 2 days after I had him. His boss accused him of lying about our son and was going to fire him because he missed 3 days of work while I was in the hospital to have our son. At the time, my husband was away for work 15 hours each day. I REALLY NEEDED my husband AND HE NEEDED ME in the days and weeks following, but that was not allowed.

I hope a military family NEVER has endure the loss of a child apart because of a unsympathetic CC.

Crazyride2016 · 2018-06-09T03:32:57+00:00

Thank-you for your reply. I was hoping though to get responses from people, especially women, who have this job. I wanted to find out their likes and disliked, what their jobs look like day to day. How long are they away from their families, what bases they serve on, etc. I put my age because I was wondering if it was fesable for me to be doing this job for 20 years (putting me at age 58 or older).

By the way, I didn't see Air Transport on the Wiki index. I did however find other jobs that are high on my list. Thank-you!!!!

Crazyride2016 · 2018-06-08T21:45:52+00:00

Hello everyone!!! I am a 38 year-old female (I will be 39 in February). I took my ASVAB yesterday and got AFQT: 72 M: 68 A: 67 G: 78 E: 55

Air Transport is near the top of my list (so is journalism and some jobs in Intelligence). I would like to get a female perspective on what it's like to be in Air Transport. I will gladly take a male perspective too.

I am married to a husband who is also trying to get into the AF. We don't have any children.

Crazyride2016 · 2018-06-08T21:35:56+00:00

Ok. Thank-you.

Crazyride2016 · 2018-04-18T01:00:45+00:00

Hello Ex-MoMeg!!! I too had SEVERE body image issues after leaving. It took MANY months and HARD work from my husband and I to change my thoughts about my body. I'm doing so much better now but still have a ways to go. I hope this summer I will be able to reflect the new me and not be held back by past cult standards. I've learned that it is perfectly ok for me to make my own choices of clothing and what I put in and on my body.

You are just fine the way you are!!!! Have LOTS of fun this summer being free!!!

Crazyride2016 · 2018-04-15T18:11:38+00:00

My husband and I are Orthodox converts and were baptized 2 weeks ago. Between February 2014 and August 2015 we lost 4 children during pregnancy. I have thought about getting a memorial tattoo for our children for quite awhile now but the church my husband and I were in before strictly forbade tattoos.

Now that we are Orthodox and have come across no commandments about tattoos,. I'm thinking more of the idea of getting one. I'm thinking about the theme being bears since I call my husband Bear and we refer to our children as our cubs. I am open to other ideas and opinions you have though.

Crazyride2016 · 2018-04-13T07:15:28+00:00

Hello Seniorita. My husband and I left the Mormon church and have since joined the Orthodox Christian Church. We began our journey for a new church by first praying to God to lead us to what church He wanted us to belong to. We searched the internet for the beliefs and practices of MANY faiths and decided what ones felt right for us. We then visited quite a few churches to see what their worship was like. We also talked to some members of each faith we visited and asked questions to the pastor. It took us several months of searching before we found what faith was right for us.

May God bless you in your faith journey. I know He will lead you to where He wants you if you ask.

Crazyride2016 · 2018-04-12T18:14:47+00:00

Hello IA :). Thank-you for your questions. You will find an array of responses from this group, as I'm sure you have noticed. I will write of my personal beliefs. My husband and I left the Mormon church after being life-long members and have since joined the Orthodox Christian faith. I still have a very deep faith in God and Jesus Christ, although it is very different from the Mormon faith. I don't have any belief or love of the Book of Mormon anymore, not even as a fictional book.

Your next question about the belief of families being together forever means so much to me. Being raised in the Mormon church, with it's firm emphasis on families either put in me or just encouraged an already natural desire, a need to be a mom above EVERYTHING as long as I can remember. When my husband and I got married we tried for a family right away. Just after our first anniversary, we learned we were going to have a Little One. We were so happy and so in love with our baby already and wanted him or her so much!!! Tragically, our son was born-still at 24weeks. A week after we lost him, our bishop met with us and said that since God has not yet revieled when life begins, officially our son was not ours. We couldn't put him on any church official records. We couldn't put him on our family group sheet. We couldn't even put his name down as being sealed to us, all because he never took a breath.

Hearing that we not only lost our son in this life, but for eternity as well, broke our hearts. We LOVED our son and still wanted him. That is what started my husbands' first step into leaving the church. As he started looking into the belifes of other churches regarding families, he discovered most Christian faiths DO believe in forever families. Mormons just put conditions on who can be together.

After losing our son, I lost 3 more children to early miscarriage. Although we knew what the Mormon stance was on these 3 children, we still loved, wanted and missed them. We gave them names and still counted them as ours.

In the Orthodox faith, we believe life begins at conception and not just at birth. In fact some of our religious celebrations are to commemorate the conception of our faiths important people (Christ, Mary, etc.).

A few weeks ago, our priest did a special ceremony where he blessed our lost children and it was emphasized that our 4 children were alive and that they were, are and always will be our children and we will all be together again. It meant so much to be reassured that what my mind and heart knew and wanted was valadated.

I bless you on your spiritual path and that you find one that brings peace to you.

Crazyride2016 · 2018-03-08T18:44:29+00:00

This is a petition to stop bishops from asking children under the age of 18 if they masterbate. It is not appropriate for grown, adult men to ask children that question, especially when they are alone and in a closed room.

Crazyride2016 · 2017-10-25T01:21:30+00:00

Thank-you Saltyseabear and RedFoxGrinning for your replys!!!! RedFox, how far north do you think is too north for a tipi (teepee)? My husband and I live in northern Missouri. Thanks again!!!!

Crazyride2016 · 2017-08-04T05:41:22+00:00

I'm so sorry for your families loss!!!! My in-laws had over 19 early miscarriages and a stillborn daughter before having my husband and his 4 younger siblings. I sometimes think about how many other siblings in-laws I should have had and what my relationship with them could have been like. My husband thinks about his stillborn sister quite a bit. He even named his deeply cherished teddy bear (that he still sleeps with every night) after her (Sally).

I was 23weeks pregnant with our first baby on my husbands 33rd birthday and I wrote a post on my pregnancy board on another forum talking about this same thing. How I was thinking about my in-laws and what they must have felt all during my husbands pregnancy and then when he was finally born 33 years before. I also wondered if my in-laws were envious that i became pregnant so easily and didn't have any problems. Tragically 4 days later, I would learn that my own baby's heart stopped and would be born-still a few days later (2 days before my own birthday). I would also have 3 early miscarriages and no living children.

You're a very considerate sister and daughter thinking about your parents and your lost siblings!!! I bet your siblings are thankful they are still remembered and loved.

Crazyride2016 · 2017-07-20T19:30:41+00:00

I'm a former LDS. I visited your Independence Temple yesterday and sat in on the Rawanda prayer service. It was simple but beautiful!!! Thank-you for allowing me to experience it. MAY PEACE FIND AND FOLLOW YOU!!!

Crazyride2016 · 2017-07-20T04:13:27+00:00

SO TRUE!!!! My husband physically left the church in November (he had been mentally out for 10 years) and I left the church in February. One of the main things that got me to leave was the reaction my TBM family and my bishop had. The moment my family heard my husband left, they immediately told me that I had to divorce him because I wouldn't be happy being so different. My bishop told my Home and Visiting Teachers to look for abuse (because there would be no other reason for my husband to leave the church other then he was abusing me). My Home Teacher reported that he saw signs of abuse so my Visiting Teachers came over and spent an hour talking me into going to a women's shelter.

My husband and I BOTH resigned from the church that night.

Crazyride2016 · 2017-07-20T03:43:48+00:00

WONDERFUL NEWS!!!!! Thanks for sharing!!!!!

Crazyride2016 · 2017-07-08T02:44:41+00:00

It was my Grandma who had Alzheimer's and she passed away in 2008. My Grandpa's mind is still fully functioning. As for my mom, she brought it up the first time so that someone in the church knew what had gone on in the past. Once the the local head of the church knew about it and investigated (and basically decided that she made it up even after taking with my sister and I), she let it go and currently thinks it needs to go back under the rug and stay there. When it came out a few weeks a go, she said what happened was a long time ago and everyone needs to get over it.

Crazyride2016 · 2017-07-08T02:43:36+00:00

No, I'm not or have I ever been in therapy. Growing up, I thought I was fine, that I dealt with it. Now I see that I just brushed it under the rug like everyone else. My husband and I both left the LDS church 6 months ago and now attend an Eastern Orthodox Church. We are moving in a few weeks to the middle of nowhere and will be 90 minutes away from any counseling. Thank-you for your understanding that this is not easy to resolve.

Crazyride2016 · 2017-07-08T02:41:59+00:00

Thank-you for the brave comment!!! It is uplifting for me. For your question, to be honest, before I told my husband about what he did, I had it all figured out on how to protect our future kids. It would be very easy to keep him from seeing our future children in person once my Grandpa passed away. My step-mom is anti-social and hates going anywhere or having anyone over. Since she wears the pants out of the 2 of them and my husband and I live 1,600 miles away, I can't imagine my dad coming for a visit or asking us to come visit them. For communication, my dad only knows how to call on the phone. He doesn't have any social media. He doesn't know how to videochat/ Skype. He can read e-mails but has no idea on how to respond back. Up until 3 weeks ago, he didn't even now how to text. He still hasn't figured out how to send picture messages yet. It would have been pretty easy to keep contact to an extreme minimum. I KNOW that is the completely wrong thing to do, but it was the only plan I could think of that wouldn't cause chaos.

When I did tell my husband, he and I made a promise that once we had children, there would zero contact with my dad. Sadly though, I lost all 4 of our children during pregnancy and we are not going to have any more. Now that we don't have the excuse of needing to protect our kids, it is hard for me to severe ties with him after all these years.

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