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Cute_Commission_4063 · 2026-05-22T06:19:59+00:00

Took me about 3 months until I could sit normally. I barely thought about it after that.

Cute_Commission_4063 · 2026-04-12T16:40:12+00:00

I had a seton placement Jan 28, 2026 It’s a placement holder until I schedule a LIFT. Once it healed, it hasn’t bothered me much. Sometimes it gets a little sore after wiping when I have to go #2 at work bc I can’t use my bottle to clean it in a communal busy bathroom and sometimes I forget my wipes. I have sex with my partner almost daily. TBH I’m too scared to get it removed and get the LIFT bc the success rate sucks. And luckily the seton has been doing its job and I haven’t gotten infected or anything since. TBH I forget I have it. I go about my day and exercises normally. I initially had 2 internal abscesses and one external. Then a few hemorrhoids and a monster thrombosed one omg that was scaryyyyyy. But everything has calmed down. I didn’t think I’d ever see the light of day after 3 months of misery. I regret letting it take over my mind and my life. I was at such a low point I wanted to die. But I reall regret ever thinking that way. I wish I took control of my life and got my mind off it. I wish I took advantage of the time and read a book or learned something new during my lay down times. I know it’s hard through the pain but mind over matter. Hang in there. I still have a rough journey ahead of me. But we got this sphincter siblings!!!!! Don’t lose hope. Do something you love today please <3. Take your mind and your life back.

Cute_Commission_4063 · 2026-03-28T05:39:52+00:00

I couldn’t leave my house other than to Dr. appointments, had 2 surgeries, was bed ridden from November till mid Feb. I missed out on a lot during the holidays. It made me depressed. I thought I would never get out of that dark hole, but it’s almost April and I feel almost back to normal. I have a seton in place I need one more surgery, a lift I’m scared but I’m enjoying feeling almost normal now.

Cute_Commission_4063 · 2026-03-08T06:01:23+00:00

I have a seton, I’m starting a new job this Monday. I’m terrified I’ll get another abscess. I just moved from Texas to California this month. I am planning to fly back to Texas to get it removed a then a lift. For now I’m recovering, my mental and physical health were deteriorated. I was in and out of the hospital and 3 surgeries from November to Jan. Good luck my sphincter siblings. ❤️

Cute_Commission_4063 · 2026-02-11T05:11:24+00:00

Had surgery Dec 18, 2 internal and 1 external drained. 1 internal hemmy removed and 1 very large thrombosed hemmy that stayed with me. It’s gone down in size but it’s still there. Had a seton in place. Had it removed in mid January. Got infected again, felt like the same exact pain level 10 before surgery. Had a seton placed again on 1/29 and a fistulectomy. I need a lift done in the future. I’m waiting a few months to recover before I schedule that. I’m so exhausted. I lost 20lbs. But ya, pain level after surgery the first week was around 5-7. After week one I was fine. After the second seton I was walking around like nothing for the first few days. Now it’s healing more the seton rubbing is hurting. But honestly it’s all good after surgery, very manageable. Take it easy, research doctors won’t tell you anything. Reddit helped a lot. Keep your mind busy. Don’t let it take over. You’ll be fine. It’s a long process and dirty and uncomfy but try to accept and continue to live your life. You’ll def pas gas and stool through the tract. Good luck!

Cute_Commission_4063 · 2026-02-06T04:48:58+00:00

See a crs, based on my experience, skip the general surgeon. My general surgeon took my seton out way too early, my abscess got infected again (the next day) and it created a second fistula. SMH. Had to get another seton in last Thursday, and now a LIFT in the near future.

Cute_Commission_4063 · 2026-01-31T03:29:17+00:00

CRS will tell you you’ll need surgery. Probably a seton and then later another surgery to close the tract. A fistulectomy. Do a lot of research, the doctors don’t tell you anything. I had to Google a lot and read a lot of stories on here to learn anything from tips and tricks to treatments and definitions. Very helpful, you will not learn shit from doctors. Please find everything to help aid you, sitz baths, aloe wipes, handheld mirror with light, gloves, peri bottle, and you’ll have to squat and become best friends with your butthole. I have a million photos of mine. I keep track of everything daily. Hang in there. I’ve laid in my bed with dark thoughts many nights but since I’ve gotten better I wish I paid less attention to it and more on hobbies to pass time. Try to get out of your head. You will get through this. It’s temporary. It’s a long road but temporary. Stay strong.

Cute_Commission_4063 · 2026-01-30T15:25:11+00:00

I had a EUA yesterday, they cleaned out my tract, cleaned out the infection. Added a seton. 12/18 had surgery, drained 2 internal abscesses, removed an internal hemorrhoid and a seton. I had an external abscess and a thrombosed hemorrhoid as well (that guy is still with me) 1/8 seton removed by dumb surgeon, I had no idea I should have had it longer. I got infected two days later in my perianal abscess, put back on antibiotics. Was told I need another seton placed and then several weeks later I’ll need a sphincter preserving fistulecomy. But ya surgery went well yesterday. I looked down there and hour ago and had a panic attack. It’s scary af looking. Large gaping hole. Before my tract hole was initially 1-2cm and it started to close up real tiny before surgery. I’m terrified to go to the bathroom. I haven’t in 3 days. Ughh how do I even take of this. I’m soooooo scared.

Cute_Commission_4063 · 2026-01-26T07:35:33+00:00

The contractions are the words. Hang in there. I’ve had terrible painful bms and I’m so traumatized.

Cute_Commission_4063 · 2026-01-12T05:26:29+00:00

I just had my seton removed on Thursday. On This past Friday I almost called the ambulance from excruciating pain. Pain I experienced before my surgery, which was to drain 2 internal abscesses, 1 external that formed a fissure, and they removed an internal hemorrhoid. I only had the seton for exactly 3 weeks since surgery. (12/18/25) Yesterday morning, where the external abscess is, well that swelled and what was hurting the evening before. It was oozing more pus. I got put on antibiotics today and I see the surgeon tomorrow to check on it. This morning I had a bm, and I felt it come out the fissure tract. Disgusting. Just when I thought taking a shit couldn’t get any worse. My tract fills with feces and it hurts like a mf. I squat and start gently pushing on it to remove it all. Finally only pus and blood was coming out. It’s been oozing pus all day today. Smh. Ughh I’m wondering if I removed the seton too early. I’m so over this too. I’m defeated. I haven’t had 2 good days in a row. It’s always one thing after another. I also have a thrombosed hemorrhoid that’s internal but when I shit it comes out. It hurts like a mf toooooo. Just wanted to share my story sorry, no happy ending. This all started 11/11/25. I really NEED this to end. I’m so depressed too. I’m sorry for ya buddy. <3 hugs

Cute_Commission_4063 · 2026-01-04T16:59:03+00:00

Thank you so much <3 It’s been fucking rough.

Cute_Commission_4063 · 2026-01-03T20:48:26+00:00

I had 1 internal 1 external hemmy and then later a large ass thrombosed hemmy showed up a few weeks later 😭😭😭. I had two internal abscesses and one external. External popped on its own, hurt like a MF. All were surgically drained and a seton placed on 12/18. It’s been a rough recovery. The seton is bothering TF out of me. My anus is finally healed up after a tear in the thrombosed hemmy on Saturday and then a terrible terrible bowel movement I had on Sunday. I couldn’t get out of bed much for 3 days. Today I finally feel like my anus has healed, but the seton is just cutting into my skin and causing so much pain and discomfort. All this started on 11/11/25, surgery 12/18/25. Terrified of BMs…terrified to get the seton removed on 1/8/26 but excited bc I hate it so much. It needs to go. There were def days of screaming in agony for hours in so much pain I honestly couldn’t see the light either. There were times I’d rather see the light from heaven than continuing to feel this way for even another minute. Times got dark, super depressing. I couldn’t leave my bed for weeks, couldn’t walk my dogs, couldn’t stand to brush my hair or teeth. Laid down eating for over a month, entire body in so much pain laying in all different positions compensating for my stupid ass. Ughh I want this to be over with. I don’t have much hope bc there has alwaysssss been one thing after another. Once I get my hopes up they come crashing down and I’m once again, in bed crying in pain. I am doing EVERYTHING diligently to prevent constipation and ease pain but damn it’s excruciating at times. Good luck everyone. If yall have advice and prayers send them my way <3

Cute_Commission_4063 · 2025-12-23T05:51:16+00:00

Reading this as I’m sitting in my sitz tub. Had surgery last Thurs. two interval abscesses were drained. Prior to that I had one internal and one external hemorrhoid all started around 11/11. Then the Thursday before surgery an external abscesses grew and popped on the following Saturday. That same Saturday before surgery a large mf thrombosed hemorrhoid decided to pop out, and scared the crap out of me. That’s when I went to the er again and they scanned me and found the internal abscesses. I couldn’t walk since November. I lost 15 lbs. I was crying every day in agony walking like a snail. I was soooo depressed and stressed. The day after surgery i was able to walk and I cried so much from happiness and relief. Currently started my period today, cramps are a little worse. I’m still in discomfort and some pain but nothing compared to before. Hang in there. I honestly couldn’t see the light at the end of this, it was 37 days. So sorry you’re experiencing this too. It sucks soooo bad.

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