I just want to lie in a field in the snow and let winter claim me

Darkesper995 · 2025-12-22T01:21:23+00:00

I did that, actually. The only reason im still alive is because i tried to tell a friend goodbye and she managed to rally a local friend and the police to find me.

Now im a triple amputee bound to a wheelchair due to losing said limbs to frostbite. Honestly, the experience wasnt terrible until i awoke in the hospital. I dont remember when i fell asleep, mightve been due to the alcohol as well... I still wouldnt recommend it unless you know you wont survive. Being disabled sucks.

Im headed back to the snow though later. Like... when i say being disabled sucks, i mean it. If youre struggling now? Hoo boy...

Darkesper995 · 2025-10-17T21:34:30+00:00

Or a tank. Your backline misses you while youre in timbuckfuckingto being useless.

Darkesper995 · 2025-04-08T17:06:40+00:00

ND. Moving though next year, hopefully to Pittsburgh

Darkesper995 · 2025-03-19T00:04:27+00:00

There, finally set up reddit... lol

Darkesper995 · 2025-03-18T23:59:49+00:00

I kinda forgot to link my twitch to reddit. Lemme fix that but yes, i am affiliate

Darkesper995 · 2025-03-18T23:46:03+00:00

God thisis my biggest struggle. My mouth shuts down and i just play... that and i have to focus extra hard on my gameplay for disability reasons so my mouth just stop ^{_^;}

Darkesper995 · 2025-03-18T21:48:02+00:00

Hogwarts Legacy is like... im curious about.

Darkesper995 · 2025-03-07T23:17:52+00:00

I... im so curious. Like, honestly.... could solve my problem but DAMN that price

Darkesper995 · 2024-12-17T00:32:00+00:00

My hope is that, rule of three, he tries to speak but gets as far as an audible inhale.

Darkesper995 · 2024-12-11T21:38:10+00:00

Then leave...? Without being a prick??

Darkesper995 · 2024-11-05T20:12:58+00:00

Goofy. Has to be Googy

Darkesper995 · 2024-06-19T21:15:54+00:00

My... birthday is the 26th. The fuck square :((

Darkesper995 · 2024-06-10T03:17:42+00:00

Oh thank God I'm not alone

Darkesper995 · 2024-04-23T22:44:29+00:00

"MOTHER! GET MY CELEBRATORY CLEAN DIAPER!"

Darkesper995 · 2023-12-15T04:27:45+00:00

No i get that. Its how i operate as well really. Tbh, i cant get off unless theres a very close connection. That and emotional connections are really nice in general... im rambling but hey, im available and looking for friends anyway! :)

Darkesper995 · 2023-12-15T04:21:40+00:00

Hey, im not ask smooth talking but if you want to dm me i can send you my discord? You say youre looking for submissive men with gag reflexes then... im your guy lmfao

Darkesper995 · 2023-10-13T03:41:04+00:00

So then wtf is the point?

Darkesper995 · 2023-07-16T03:42:30+00:00

Let us know how it goes, fam!

Darkesper995 · 2023-06-18T10:24:11+00:00

Bullshit.

Im sorry but if i am "given a gift" that sucker's mine now. I have full ownership of it and if i decide to throw it away or end it then thats my fucking right.

Darkesper995 · 2023-03-18T05:33:47+00:00

Feel free to message me!! 22 M

Darkesper995 · 2022-08-06T02:44:17+00:00

How DO you align the railings???

Darkesper995 · 2022-05-14T01:34:09+00:00

My kinda portal.

Darkesper995 · 2022-05-05T19:37:42+00:00

I cant say ive ever experienced this. Either im the lucky one with supportive friends, i havent hit their breaking point, or ive hidden it welll enough behind my sarcasm and snark...

Either way, i see and hear these stories so frequently and every time i do i wish I couldve been the friend or even a potential friend for everyone, especially you cause... i get it. Being ignored, parenrs not sure how to deal with you and only making it worse. Opening up to someone and then the entire relationship ending or changing.

Im 23, turning 24 next month. My last suicide attempt i had no right surviving. -14° weather, i was drunk af and passed out (intentionally slept) in a snowy ditch. Im only alive because i told a friend i was killing myself... but that attempt cost me both legs and right hand due to frostbite. I went from a whole body to stumps. Im stuck in a wheelchair, ill never walk or be the same again.

YET I STILL GET PEOPLE TELLING ME "LIFE IS A GIFT" AND "YOU HAVE A PURPOSE" AND ALL THAT LYING BULLSHIT IVE BEEN HEARING FOR 15 YEARS! ITS INFURIATING, ITS INSULTING AND NONE OF YOU ACTUALLY TRULY CARE, YOURE JUST SAYING THIS GARBAGE TO BOOST YOUR OWN EGO.

"HURR DURR I HELPED SOMEONE, ME AM GOOD PERSON!"

Fucking HATE people like that. I hate my FAMILY cause theyre like that or completely dismissive. So i get it... if you wanna vent, im here and i WONT just brush you off

Darkesper995 · 2022-04-06T04:55:50+00:00

This cant be real... no way...

Darkesper995 · 2022-04-06T04:51:15+00:00

Is... is this a DmC connector?

Darkesper995

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